REGRETS/// JJK

chapter 51

Y/n pov

I opened my eyes and i see a white ceiling above me.
Where am I?
I looked around and it looks like i am in a hospital.

Tae: you are awake?

I looked at my right side and found taehyung looking at me.
He was the one who took me here.

I tried to got up and taehyung helped me to sit straight on the bed.

Y/n: ahh! My head.

My head which was bandaged was hurting.

Tae: careful.

Then i remember chaneyol.
He was there then taehyung came and after that i don't know what happened?

Y/n: w_where is chaneyol?

I said little hesitant.
It scares me thinking about last night.

Tae: don't worry about him he is in prison and i will make sure to give him strict punishment.

He said making a fist.
Tears started to form in my eyes remembering last night.
I know taehyung noticed it and he immediately hug me.

Tae: don't cry it's fine you are safe. He is gone.

I hugged him back and calm down.

Y/n: it was like a nightmare.

Tae: i understand how scary it might be.

Y/n: h_he tried to...

I couldn't complete my sentence and end up crying.

Tae: shh...it's fine.

After sometime i calm down and stopped crying.

Tae: now you rest i will come back i need to do that formalities for your discharge. Okay?

He said and patted my head before leaving.
I sighed and looked out of the window.
Did jungkook really didn't came? Not even now.

What do I expect from him?
Why do i have to hurt myself by thinking that he will come.
Its all because of him.
I never expected him to be this low.
Why i have to love him? I hate him.
I really regret loving him.

I wiped the a lone tear left my eyes.
I need to be strong i can't cry like this.
I have taehyung beside me i don't need jungkook.

Taehyung came back and i quickly wiped my tears.
He came and sat down on the chair beside me.

Tae: we are going back home.

Y/n: but what if my parents found out about it. I don't want to bother them.

Tae: don't worry about them you are going to stay with me untill you get better and after that it's your choice to make.

Y/n: huh? What choice?

Taehyung hold my hand in his and looked in my eyes.

Tae: divorce him.

I felt my blood fell cold.
Everything stopped around me.
This is really happening.
Well he is not wrong he is worried about me.

Tae: y/n i know you were doing this for your and his family but you don't need to hurt yourself with him. You called him last night but he didn't even bother to come and save you. You should divorce him and i know uncle aunty will understand. You don't need to suffer alone i am your parents are here for you.

He is right why i need to suffer like this.
When i know only i am then one whose hurting.
He loves someone else and i was just doing for our family but what's the reason behind now.

Honestly i still had a little hope that someday he will love me back and accept me as his wife.
But now that hope also died.
After divorce we both will be free.
But still it hurts so much that i can't even breath properly.

Y/n: i..will..d_divorce him.

Tae: don't worry i am here with you.

I nodded and looked down.
It's hurting.
I regret loving you.....JEON JUNGKOOK.

Jungkook's pov

I was standing out of the hospital ready to enter inside.
I entered inside and took deap Breath.
I wanna meet her see her and asure that she is fine.
My heart is hurting so much that I couldn't even breath properly without looking at her.

I walked near her room but soon instrupted by taehyung.

Tae: where do you think you are going?

Jk: look taehyung..let me see her once. I wanna know if she is alright and let me talk with her. Please.

Tae: no you can't. She don't want to meet you and you think after what you did she wants to meet you.

Jk: that's what i want to explain her i did nothing. Please let me clear this with her.

Tae: you wanna talk with her to hurt her more i can't allow that.

Jk: please taehyung i beg you let me see her. I want to see if she is okay or not.

Tae: she is okay without you near her.
He said and pushed me away.

Tae: she don't even want to see you she hates you and she will never come back to you.

No please i am gonna die.

Jk: let me explain....

Tae: just get lost.

I sighed he is not going to let me see her but i have to tell her everything.
I can't lose her like that.
I love her she is my everything.

She will not hate me. I know taehyung is lying that she hates me.
But what she really do hates me.
I think it's better if i don't meet her now.

She need times.
It was horrible what she felt last night.
But i want to comfort her and be there for her.

I sighed and left from there.
I messed up everything.
I just wanna kill myself.
Taehyung is right i have no right to meet her. She probably hates me.

But i can't give up on her like that.
I need to tell her everything.
She can't leave me like that i wil get her back no matter what.

But i regret everything i did.
If i only I realised my feelings just a little early then it wouldn't have been like this.

I regret not loving you on first place.....JEON Y/N.