The Toxic Love (Steve Rogers x Reader x Bucky Barnes )

Chapter 58

Chapter 58

Four Months Later

I'm currently 8 months pregnant and ready to pop which is funny to my dad and me because we kept saying that it looks like I'm having twins but I'm not.  The little cabin that my dad gave me is pretty close to where Laura and Clint live with their family so I'm not alone but other than dad and Clint no one knows where I am. I do let my dad give the team some updates about how I was doing but doesn't tell them too much.

"If you don't come out, I will be evicted because I can't do anything and you are in my way," I tell my bump

"Did you know that the first sign of going crazy or not being mentally stable is talking to yourself? Also, don't be evicting my baby," the ghost of Alex says.

"Ahhhhhhh, what the hell. I thought that I got rid of you 2 months ago!!!" - "Oh no you didn't. I just decided to stay at bay," he nodded her head.

" You are a pain in my ass, you know that?" - "I don't think so but I did come to warn you about something"

"What could you possibly come here to warn me? Both of us know that my mind has created you for some reason"

"Well maybe that's true but I still know stuff like how the doorbell is going to ring in about 5 seconds," That's when it disappears and I wait for 5 seconds and nothing happens. "Ha you were wrong you-" but I was interrupted by the doorbell. "Oh fuck" I say because my stomach dropped.

I knew that it was probably not my dad, Pepper, Clint, or Laura because they said that they were busy with one thing or another, so I decided to go grab my gun. Yes, my gun because one I live alone, two I'm pregnant, and three I live in the middle of nowhere, where the closest town is about an hour away.

The doorbell kept ringing so I quickly went to check who it was but I couldn't see until I saw a familiar brown leather jacket. "What the hell were you thinking?" - "That's funny coming from you, what were you thinking?"

"Steve, you don't just show up without a heads up. What if I shot you, dumbass?" I tell the man that has grown his hair a little longer and has a full beard

"How do you want me to tell you? It's not like I have a way to contact you without you running for the hills," He was kinda right about that I just moved to the side to let him come in.
"Why did you leave? Was it something I said? Do you think so? Just tell me please," He says not angry like he was a second ago.

"It wasn't something that you said or did. I felt that I just needed space from my normal life so I can process what happened with Alex and my feelings,"

"But why didn't you tell me? I was going to tell you something," I looked at him funnily. " I know that you might not be ready to move on from Alex romantically but I still love you and I haven't stopped since I first saw you. I realized it when I talked to Clint the day after you went into your coma and Clint scolded me about mistreating you but I understand that I deserved his scolding. My feelings just grew more and more the more I spent time with you but I knew that it wasn't going anywhere because you're grieving and I hurt you."

As he is talking he is moving closer to me and putting our foreheads closer as he keeps talking to me, " It's also fine if you don't feel the same and you don't want to be friends or anything but just say something, please. Because just standing there isn't helping my nerves and I'm freaking out here and I know that you can tell hence the rambling ''. I just chuckle at him

"Are you done?" I asked him as he nodded his head.

"Well for your information I think I am"

"Okay then, now let me speak, and don't interrupt me because I didn't interrupt you. Like I was trying to tell you but you gave me, your speech it wasn't because of you technically. I first had to process that I was a widow that was going to raise a baby on my own with some help from others first before the baby came so it wouldn't hurt. And second of all, I started to think about what Alex told me in my dream about moving on and something else so it made me realize that I still have feelings for you and Bucky but that can't happen because we have too much history that's complicated. I knew that you and I were starting to become friends and with Bucky, I can't be someone to him because he seems happy with Dot. Both of us know that when we were dating it felt like something was missing and when Bucky and I were dating it also felt like something was missing but it felt right when it was all three of us. I'm not trying to say that I don't want to try this but I'm still healing and it can't be like before it was with you and me or all three of us. But you also have to promise not to hurt me again Steve because I don't think that I can handle it so I'm giving you an out right here, right now because if you want me then you want my unborn child. I will not choose between the two of you because they will always be my choice."

I started to get nervous thinking that I already messed up and that Steve will decide to take them out because he was not ready to be a parent figure to a child that isn't his or that he doesn't love me that much actually. I was so in my head that I didn't realize that Steve was getting closer to me or that he cupped my cheeks until he kissed me. I quickly melted into him as he kissed me and he moved one of his hands down my back to my waist to pull me more.

"What was that for?" - "That was your answer and to help bring you out of your brain. I appreciate that you decided to give me an out but I'm not talking about it because you have always been the one I want ever since I got out of the ice. We have always been the right people for each other even with Bucky but just at the wrong time. Even if he is with Dot, he will come around and see what he is missing because trust me, he doesn't look too happy with Dot and we came making him jealous too," He tells me and he wiggles his eyebrows and a smirk on his face.

"Okay, how about we wait it out a month until the baby is born and then we move back to the Compound? Meanwhile, I will text dad that you know where I am and staying with me, then I will text him to clean out the floor above or below the current floor. What do you think?

" I think that above so we don't hear them going at it like bunnies," He tells me as he makes a grossed-out face. "But they can hear us going at it like bunnies," he smirks.

"I do agree on the first part but not on the second because I or we are going to be very busy with this little bean," I tell him and pout at the thought that his idea will not work.

" But can we still make him jealous?" he asks me as he pouts.

I kissed his pout making it go away and tell him, " we can make him jealous but not too much where we look suspicious, okay?" I tell him to nod. "Did you bring extra clothes?" - "Yea they're in the car just in case it didn't work and I would have to stalk you or in case of this outcome which I like a lot more."

After that Steve went to his car to get his bag while I texted both dads, so he has a heads up and Laura so she doesn't freak out about the new car in my driveway and calls Clint for backup even though I know that she doesn't need Client for backup. I was making dinner while Steve was on the other side of the island just watching me making sure I wasn't going to run or stare at him like a creep.