Love Out Loud

Find him

Eric sat in the recliner in his office and swung himself around,he was so lost in thought he didn't know when is brother Smith walked in,it was already eight months since Derek disappeared,no one knew when he left, and he had tried all his best to find him but it was just as if Derek had dissolved into thin air,he remembered how crazy he had been when he noticed his absence plus his brother's angry tantrum,Smith had bugged him for weeks about how he had ruined everything,he was building a good relationship with Xavier but it had ended with his secret,a loud smack on the table brought him out of his reverie,he squinted his eyes as he took his brother's face in,he adjusted himself and cleared his throat but nothing came out,so Smith signed and spoke instead"sitting here and looking at the pictures is not going to bring them back,do something because it's your fault they left"his brother pointed at him furiously,he slammed his hands on the table and stood up,he glared at his brother,he had made his life hell since Derek and Xavier left, making him feel more worthless and useless,he has had enough so he looked at Smith with a killer gaze but his brother looked back at him squarely not even flinching,guess obsession could make you fearless because right now the Smith in front of him was different, looked like he was even ready and down for a fight"Enough Smith,I know I fucked up and you have constantly reminded me of it this past months but now you're clearly crossing the line and I hate you, you're beginning to piss me off, behave yourself or else.."his brother grabbed his fingers and smirked"or else what?what would you do?kill me?feed me to the tigers or send me out into exile"he let go of his fingers even pushing at his chest"what the fuck are you gonna do Eric?"then he smiled and nodded"yea I'm so grateful you finally admitted you fucked up but isn't it too late,how could you!"Eric was loosing it and he dusted his fingers until his knuckles turned white,he could feel his fingers digging into his palms as sweat trickled down his spine"I am warning you"he yelled"what are you getting agitated for? you're just worried you could not sunk your dick into his brother before they left but let me tell you something little Smith, Even if Xavier was still here you'd have never topped him"Smith looked at him with angry but hurt eyes,he looked like he was given the worst insult ever,he swallowed thickly but pulled himself together laughing bitterly"at least I was not like an asshole who fucked his brother even though he only wanted to feel what his uncle felt when he was fucked,I am not a psycho who used the word love to have sex with someone even though he knew he only was having a fling,I didn't lead him on like an imbecile who led his brother on and would have continued leading him on,I am not like you who thinks with his dick rather than his brain"a loud smack echoed around the room,Smith swallowed his tears as he rubbed his cheek,Eric's fingers had imprinted on his cheek"you will speak to me in no such manner,I am your elder and you owe to me everything you have right now,so don't be arrogant"he already regretted slapping his brother,he bit the inside of his cheek as he lowered his hand,Smith wiped the blood that had seeped out of the corner of his mouth and smiled tears pooling in his eyes"of course who dare go against you,you still think you are right, keeping everything away from me,you knew Derek was your friend since he was in jail but you didn't think it was right for me to know,you also knew what your uncle did to him because I refuse to acknowledge that bastard as my blood,yet you kept it secret,not once have you mentioned it until it was out in the open, and not once did you think it was right for you to sit me down and apologise or try to even explain to me and you think I am being arrogant for getting angry"Eric felt the weight of the situation on his shoulders again and tried to reach for his brother but the latter raised his hands to block him"don't.. touch me Eric"he wired around and left ignoring Eric calling him back,Eric was frustrated he picked the vase on his tablet and flung it to the wall"fuck"he yelled while pulling at his hair,his whole body shook,he heaved heavily and picked his phone with shaky hands and dialed a number when the other person picked he yelled"how is it going?any lead?"-"no boss,but we're trying to.."he cut the person off "trying to? incompetent fools,I gave you just one job to do and you take this long to do it,what the fuck am paying you for?"the other person was quiet, Eric was never like this so he guessed the situation was tough on him"I am sorry sir,I will increase my measures"-"you better do,my patience his running out"he screamed into the phone"I am fucking going crazy and before I go berserk Leo"he swallowed before ending his words"find him"he ended the call and passed his room,he dialled his brother's number but it was off"what have I done,now I have to look for three"he collapsed on the ground and for the first since the incident he wailed painfully,tears falling from his eyes and wetting his shirt