Love Out Loud

Monsters alike!!!

Hi! Soo...what do you think this chapter will look like?I love drama so that's why the story keeps changing track but it's still in line so don't worry,I just love how the story completely slips away only to come back together again 😈😈😈ahh wicked 😏don't mind me,so dive into the story with me(evil laugh)

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Eric sat down finally exhausted from his outburst,he was so deep in anguish that he didn't notice he was soaked in his own blood,he stood up and grabbed a drink from the small collection in his room popping and drinking straight from the bottle in heavy long gulps,he slumps down and wailed again allowing the burn of the alcohol to torture him, remembering the look on Derek's face when he called him broken made him want to hang himself,he didn't mean anything he said,

Derek was not broken but he still said those hurtful words to him,he still made him cry and he knew even if Derek was not broken before then he had totally made it possible for him to be broken beyond replaceable pieces"I can not forgive myself,oh god what have I done,why did I do this?"he took another long swing from his bottle and winced at the sharp burn at the back of his throat,the truth is he didn't see himself worthy of touching Derek again,he felt disgusted with himself,he felt dirty and that he was manipulated didn't stop him from feeling guilty,he had gone to visit the madman Ian again after Derek almost drowned,but the news he received shocked him to the point where he felt dirty beyond relief,he could not even torture Ian that day again because he felt he needed to be tortured too

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"I know you're here to torture me as usual,just make it fast"Eric snickered as he picked the pliers,he planned on pulling some tooth out of his rotten mouth"you know for a person being tortured as much as you are you're being so bold"he shrugged as he moved closer to him"you're going to have your way anyways so why not say a piece of my mind before the incoming pain?"

Eric nodded"fair,not that I need your validation anyways,you see I promised the both of us that anytime my baby tries to harm himself or something bad happens to him or he relives some of those old things you did to him I was going to come for you"he sat down spinning in his chair and toying with the torture tool in his hands but he froze at the words that came out from Ian's mouth next,it was a question softly spoken that if he was not paying attention he might not have heard

"And you always feel I'm the only one that needs to be tortured?"he stopped spinning and turned to look at Ian"what nonsense are you spewing from your mouth again?"but to his surprise Ian just laughed and made a request that made him cringe again"can you let us watch the video from the other time?there is another person I think you need to meet,if you can torture this other person I swear Eric pull all my face off and I'll never complain again" standing up in anger he held Ian's jaw in a tight grip"what made you think you have the right to make requests now?"Ian shook his head wincing in pain"it's not a request Eric see it as a plea and well curiosity kills the cat anyways"

So to show Ian he was the only monster in the room he went to his computer and fetched the video out allowing it show through the projector in his office and as the video continued it got a point where he almost peed himself,it was a scene of him fucking Derek when he was unconscious, and to make it worse he was moaning to it,he enjoyed it and till now Derek didn't even know he had a part in his rape that day,it was as if he was dunked in cold water because he couldn't even move,he watched himself slam relentlessly into the unconscious Derek over and over again moaning as he enjoyed the tightness and bliss and cringed when he came so hard into Derek, turning him over and fucking him again until he came inside the unconscious Derek again,angry, ashamed and dirty he slammed his hands on the device shattering it and pulling all the wires away before going to jerk Ian up with his collar

"You piece of shit,you swine,you made me do it,you promised not to allow anyone touch him if I did what you want,I'm not like you, psycho"he was screaming but deep down he knew he was just as bad,Ian snickered despite the tight hold Eric had on his collar"then have you told him you fucked and came in him first? does he even know the job you do?does this baby of yours knows you kill people for a living?"he whipped around and landed a heavy blow on Ian's face and he heard a crack"shut the fuck up you made me do it"but the pain and blood flowing from Ian didn't even stop the man from voicing his next words,words that Eric didn't want to hear but knew was the truth,words that would hunt and hurt him through out eternity"you had a choice to make,you choose to do it,you could have refused but you did it anyways"the next words pierced him spirit soul and body"Eric either you accept it or not we're monsters alike"

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The sound of heavy knocking on his door brought him out of his thoughts,he knew it was no one else but his brother,he deserved the slap so he didn't react,he wanted to ignore the knocks but it sounded urgent and desperate so he went to open the door and found his brother glaring at him with deep hate but a look of pity crossed his face when he took in the mess of his room but in a moment his face was stoic and void of emotion again,he tried to talk but Smith beat him to it

"it's been an hour since Derek locked himself in his room,I tried all I could to make him open up but he didn't answer the door,I have a bad feeling about this"Eric immediately ran out of his room to Derek's door and tried knocking but was met with silence,he looked at Smith and shivered as dread clog to his skin and every fiber of his being"I'll breaking the door Smith"and so they began trying all the means they know to open or force the door until finally the door fell apart and they rushed in, Derek was no where to be found but the bathroom door was slightly open, looking at each other they rushed into the bathroom together and froze at the sight in front of them"oh god!"Smith choked in horror

"Derek!!!"Eric shouted as he ran further into the bathroom to get Derek out of the tub filled with icy water that had turned crimson with blood,he cradled a cold Derek who had slitted both his wrist to his chest and whimpered"call the ambulance"he yelled and Smith who was frozen to the ground was able to move as he ran downstairs to fetch his phone"baby?baby!!!,oh god, can you hear me?don't leave,don't do this to me baby,I'm sorry,I'm so sorry,oh god what have I done?"he wrapped his naked body in a blanket and ran outside the house where he could hear the siren of the ambulance,the ride to the hospital was hell for Eric as he broke down totally as he looked at Derek's pale and cold body, blueish purple lips and slitted wrists,he cried more and felt like killing himself"I'm a monster truly,I'm a monster,I'm a fucking monster"he continued to murmur until they got to the hospital and Derek's lifeless body was whisked away into the emergency room

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Hmmm,what a roller coaster 🤧🤧🤧,don't hate me,it just has to happen this way,they have suffered together greatly,what do you think the verdict should be?is Eric right or wrong, should Derek have talked instead of commiting suicide?let me know in the comments below💋💋💋