Love Out Loud

The look in his eyes

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Eric stepped out of his Bugatti,he was in front of the hospital, already changed looking fresh and crisp and you'll argue and swear with your life if someone told you he just tortured someone,he pulled his sunshade away and walked into the building guards flanking him left and right,he gave the female nurse a wink and she blushed turning away to giggle, when he got to the front of Eric's door he hesitated, drawing a deep breathe before opening the door,he saw Derek still in Xavier's arms but the difference now is Derek was awake,he had his phone with him playing a game and he was even smiling but the moment he lifted his eyes and saw him he immediately became tensed, shifting immediately backwards as Eric approached,

Xavier noticed and ran soothing circles around his back"it's okay Dad,it's him,it's Eric,you know him right?you remember him don't you?"Xavier asked looking at Derek in worry and fear,it would be bad if he forgot Eric or feels threatened by him,he looked at Derek making sure he was facing him"Dad,you know Eric right?"Derek looked at him and swallowed,he looked at Eric before turning away to hide his face in a pillow, Eric felt bad but still approached him"Baby?"he called out his voice thick with emotions and cracking"Baby,talk to me,look at me at least I beg you"he knelt beside him and touched his arm,

Derek tensed even more,he even flinched before snatching his arm away from Eric's touch,the tears that he had tried to hold in suddenly began to fall blocking his sight and he refused to Clean it,he sat on the floor and wailed,wailed like a child who lost his favorite toy,he was so heartbroken,he even had a urge to go back and torture Ian,he didn't know what to do,he lifted his head to look at Derek again and when they locked eyes,he cried deeper again,he didn't care of people were looking at him or if he was embarrassing himself,he stood up and moved away from the bed but when he approached the door he suddenly punched the door,he didn't stop punching even when he heard a crack,he didn't stop even when he saw the blood staining the door, didn't stop even after there was a dent in the door,

Smith quickly grabbed him"hey,hey,it's okay,it's okay,I told you man,give him time, he'll come around,you just need to support him now more than ever, he'll come around,trust me okay, please don't hurt yourself, beg you"Eric nodded, laughing bitterly"yea? are you really sure about that!he hates me,he fucking hates me Smith,I was no there for him when he needed my help the most,I was there,I saw what that bastard did to him and I could not do anything,I watched it all Smith,do you know how that fucking makes me feel?I feel like I am a total looser, useless,I could not protect him,I knew what Ian did yo him but I didn't make any effort to make sure he doesn't suffer it again,I did that to him,he used to hold my hands,hug and kiss me,I would hold him just like how he's been held right now but he can't even stomach my touch,he hates even my touch!"he yelled

"I get you but it really is okay,it was not your fault, don't blame yourself for what you could not control,you were not there to enjoy the fun,you were tortured too,who knew what Ian would have done to you if we hadn't come back when we did, please be strong for him,I beg you"he nodded before collapsing on the ground and crying till his eyes became heavy,he just remained seated at a corner,his head laid on the wall for support with arms folding around his knees,Smith let him have his space, even Xavier was so speechless he didn't know who to comfort between Derek and Eric,so he just kept quiet, bitterness evident in his eyes,he was in such pain because the man who had trained him to be strong was gradually disappearing from him and he was scared,so scared he would loose him forever,he felt bitter and wanted to personally deal with Ian but he couldn't bring himself to leave Derek alone since he was the only one that could comfort him and make him see reasons to continue medication,he signed and rubbed his fingers down Derek's back as sleep took him,some hours later Derek woke up and looked around his surrounding,the room was not dark but he could tell from the darkness outside that it was already night,he quietly sat up not wanting to wake Xavier up,

when he finally sat away from him a tear fell from his eyes,since when did he become so weak and pathetic that he now depends on the small version of him to keep him sane?was this not what Ian wanted all along?he broke him this much because to him it was like sleeping with both his father and his mother,why would he allow the man win,true he was tired,his mind was stressed,he wanted to give up, desperately wanted to but the moment his eyes fell on Eric who sat huddled by the corner he knew he could not give up and disappoint them,they needed him,just when did they eat a good meal in happiness last? they've been with him and he wanted to recover,he heard all of Eric's outburst but could not defend him or say otherwise but he knew he didn't hate Eric, anyone's touch irritates him but not Xavier's and in fact he wasn't supposed to be repulsed by any of the people in this room,they were his backbone,he gently stood up and walked over to where Eric was sitted and when he lowered his head to look at him his heart broke,he raised his hand to touch him but hesitated,

he swallowed,this man would not hurt him,at least not intentionally,this man knew every inch of his body and appreciates it so calming himself and taking a deep breathe he gently touched his head,he smiled when he stirred but didn't wake up this made him to ruffle his hair and he saw him frown before he gradually opened his eyes,he blinked few times and when he finally recognized who stood in front of him he sat up eyes wide open and almost screamed"shhhh"Derek placed a finger on his lips signalling for him to be quiet"don't shout baby"

Eric blinked, opened his mouth to say something but shut it back when he realized he didn't know what to say, Derek was in front of him touching him and called him baby? Tears fell from his eyes as he smiled like who was given the most expensive gift in the world"you remember me?you...you j.just called me baby?does that mean you remember m.me?"he looked deep into Derek's eyes with so much hope"I never forgot you Eric"Eric's words caught in his throat"oh god... I'm...oh god"and he broke down into sobs,sobs of both joy and bitterness mixed together"come here darling"Derek opened his arms to him and he went into his arms"God please,if this is a dream I don't want to wake up,I beg you"Derek rubbed his back"shhhh"he pulled him away but still had his hands on his shoulder"I'm sorry baby, I'm sorry for making you suffer with me,you have no business feeling this way, I'm so sorry I saw you like him and didn't want you to hold me, I'm sorry for making you break along with me, can you forgive me for not being strong enough?"Eric shook his head vehemently"don't... don't apologise,I... you're strong honey, you're a warrior and I know you'll fight but I was afraid you'll give up on me while striving to survive,how could I continue to live if you pushed me away"

"I'll never push you away baby,never"he nodded while sniffing"thank you baby,thank you so much for coming back to me"he placed a kiss on his forehead and hugged him tightly,it was when he winced that he quickly released him"I'm sorry,just still very sore.... everywhere"he responded to the worried look in Eric's face, Eric nodded"I'll massage you tomorrow then,the doctor recommended it but we couldn't because you didn't allow anyone touch you except Xavier and he felt he couldn't strip you off your clothes unless you really wanted it,he didn't want you to run from him too"he nodded"my boy has grown so much,I can't believe he remained strong to carry me on his chest for so long"-"hmm, he's strong like his papa"they both laughed softly"you need to sleep your body has been bent since morning"-"don't worry I'll just crash on the floor,I don't want to wake Xavier up"he looked at Xavier and nodded,then rang the bell beside his bed,

Eric looked at him in confusion but was shocked of his reply when the doctor came in,it was the same doctor from before,the man had refused to go home and insisted on taking care of Derek personally until he saw improvement, when he came in and saw Derek in Eric's arms he was astounded"are you okay?"he asked quietly, and was shocked when Derek smiled"I am fine,thank you for caring for me,I could never repay your kindness"the doctor nodded like a kid,tears falling everywhere around him"I prayed to God for the first time in my life and he did what I asked for,I'm so happy you're fine and you're allowing someone else hold you,oh god this few days has been hell,thank you for fighting ok"Derek felt emotional,he did it for himself but just seeing how many people were waiting for him to recover made his chest tighten,he smiled"can you please arrange another room for us,I want to hold Eric tonight and I want that young man in the bed beside my Xavier,can you do that?"the doctor nodded happily"make it a bit secretive,I don't want people knowing I'm better until the morning,I mean everyone Even your nurses"he nodded again before storming off,in about twenty minutes they were cuddled together on a bed in another hospital room, smiling until they both fell asleep, Eric slept like a child again dreaming sweet things