Love Out Loud

Finding out

Derek was breathing hard,that fear from childhood assailing his brain and making him weak,that picture had paralysed him for a whole minute,he had tried to forget the monster who had made his childhood hell,but now he was haunting him again"what does he want from me?you bastard what else do you want?you took everything already,are you not satisfied?"he bumped his head on the wall, it was no other person than the man who had assaulted him from childhood,the one who had made his life hell,he sniffed,fear was not allowing his brain to process the next step,so he sat on the little bed and rubbed his temple while cursing loudly,he looked around the room and suddenly jumped up,he needed Eric now,but first he needs to know where t seeing the building that housed so much of his pains,misery and painful memories brought familiar pains back into his heart,he wiped his face and concentrated on how the guards were placed"coward,such a devil but surrounds himself with guards,if I don't kill you this time them I am a fool"he took some pictures and disappeared into the bush when he heard rustling behind him, before he realized it he was being chased but he ran so fast and finally ended up confusing his pursuer,he heard the person kick a stone and curse before turning around to leave,he made sure the person was gone before he came out and quickly made his way to the clubhouse, when he got there he was so exhausted and quickly fell on the bed and immediately slept, because he was always alert he could hear tiny scratching sounds,this made him quickly but quietly get up,packed his clothes into his duffel bag,he made sure not to forget any personal stuff,this was the reason why he choose to live this way,the compensation he got when he came out of prison was still intact,he refused to touch it because something keeps telling him he'll not be happy if his uncle was still alive,so he choose the job at the club while bidding his time and because he knew who the man was he didn't disappoint at all,he looked around the room,he didn't have the chance to change he was wearing white singlets and a black jogger, barefoot of course he listened to the sound and noticed it was only coming from the door,which means it's either they had their eye mainly on the door or a trap was being set for him at the back of the window, either way he choose to leave through the window, slinging the bag across his back he gently retreated towards the window,his fingers fighting around the gun in his pocket,the sound got aggressive and he used the noise to disguise his opening of the window, consciously slipping through the slits,he lowered himself down after shutting the window and waited, finally the door was forced open,the switch turned on and he heard a loud curse"he's gone?how?"a loud argument started and Derek used that opportunity to sneak away,with only one place in mind to go,it was like a seven hour journey,if he's lucky he'll be able to get there before sunrise,he was able to find a place to change into his favorite black leather pants and jacket,coupled with his gangster boots and a sunglass,the look Xavier calls the bad boy look, it didn't take much time to get to where he safely parked his bike and after making sure he wasn't followed he gunned the bike down the road, making a trip to the house he bought in the woods,only his boy Xavier was aware of the place so he should be save for a while so he could have Time to plan his next move, when he arrived at the house a sense of relief washed through him,he parked his bike and shut the garage, climbing up he collapsed on the sofa,this few days has been hard and he hadn't slept for long and it's really starting to show right now, making sure he was secured he went into his room,took a warm bath and jumped into bed,that night he slept like a baby,the next morning he woke up more refreshed and mind finally opening up on ideas,first he had to do was get Xavier out of town because if they couldn't find him they were definitely going to go for the boy,he dialled Xavier's number but it wasn't going through,so he sent a text, telling him to always stay with a group and never go anywhere alone as he was going to come for him the next day,he did little research and finally called Eric for the first time in eight months"hello?"a female voice responded,he swallowed an invisible lump in his throat"can I speak to Eric?"a long silence"and you're?"Derek frowned,did Eric delete him already"where the fuck is he,just let me talk to him, he'll know who I am once he hears me speak"he was agitated"he's in the bathroom,you can leave a message"he tried to calm down"fine,tell him Derek called and I need him to respond quickly,it's urgent, can you do that?"a soft laughter came from the person"sure,but I overheard him saying he does not want anything to do with you anymore,you were a waste of his precious time,I don't think he'll want to speak to you"Derek almost crushed the phone"hey I don't believe you and who the fuck are you?"a shocked gasp sounded from the other side"oh sorry, pardon my manners,I am Ellen, Eric's fiancee"fiancee?that word sounded alien to him, Eric doesn't have a fiancee,then he occurred to him that this must be the girl he saw him with the last time,the girl continued pulling him out of his thoughts"we had a beautiful night and I guess I tired him out,ahh he really needed that pussy last night,I don't blame him,so.."Derek cuts her off"I'll call back,tell him to call me,it's urgent"so he ended the call and he could not help the tears that threatened to come,he tried Xavier's number again but it directed him straight to voicemail, sensing something was wrong he dialled Eric's number again,he wanted him to check on his baby for him since himself was far from the city but the response he got shocked him,he was barred from calling the number, humiliation washed over him,pain and disgrace but no Time to dwell on it,he was so tired all his muscles hurt but he could not stay another minute without being sure Xavier was fine,so he grabbed his gun and knife and made his way back to the city putting Eric and the call behind him,as he rode back to Xavier he had only one prayer"please God,let him be safe,let him be safe"he chanted as he made his way back to the boy that had become his whole existence,the boy fate had given to him for a son