A romantic adventure

Chapter 2- astronomy

-TW suicide attempt-

(Y/n POV)
3am, the devil hour. I couldn't sleep due to everything that was going through my head. Dark thoughts overpowering it. I looked over at the clock again to see it was 3:10 dang only 10 minutes passed. It got to the point where I just had enough, so I got up threw my baggy hufflepuff jumper on and just some shorts and went straight to the astronomy tower. This was the end, I was going to finish it all. By jumping off, it was a long way down enough to kill a poor frail person, myself.

(Snape's POV)

I was on night duty to make sure no student was out of bed, until I saw a figure run up to the astronomy tower. I didn't get a good look at them but I followed, do these dunderheads ever learn?

I got up to the top to find (y/n) over the railing getting ready to jump off. I ran as fast I possibly could to get to her before she would make the stupid decision of killing herself. It was then,she jumped. I immediately dashed and luckily I got her hand she looked at me with shock and anger "SEVERUS LET ME GO!" I pulled her up and I felt her fighting for me to let go. We fell on the floor of the astronomy tower, when I got her up and I instantly pulled her into a hug and she started immensely crying. "NO!" I felt her anger and resistance as I started to tear up myself a little.

"(Y/n), I had to do the right thing ,to keep you here," I gripped her even tighter as she was wetting my cloak with her tears I didn't care though, I was relieved that I now had (y/n) in my arms protected from doing anything stupid.  It caused some tears to escape from my eyes, I didn't want it to be too obvious though as I hate it when people see me cry."Oh god the look on Maddie's face when I tell her this," I mumbled under my breath." Come on let's go back to my chamber, is that okay with you?" I asked and she nodded still locked in my arms. I could tell this was behind something to do with her break up with Mr. Wickham and some other events in her life, so I thought it was only appropriate to talk to her about it in my chamber. Even though, it was completely inappropriate to let a student into your quarters.

(Y/n pov)
I jumped but felt a strong grip wrap around my wrist and when I looked up, it was Severus. I kept trying my best to loosen his grip but he was too strong. He pulled me up and we both fell on the floor with his grip still on my wrist then into a very comforting and warm hug.

He saved me.

He saved me from making a stupid decision.

I kept trying to resist releasing so many outbursts of anger towards him for saving me cuz all I wanted to do was end my suffering. He offered for me to head back to his chambers with him and I just accepted the offer without even thinking. I was fully aware I was soaking his cloak with the amount of tears I was crying.

I felt the cold gust of the dark, damp dungeons about to enter his chamber. He immediately sat me down on this incredibly soft, black sofa that I immediately sank into. It took a minute to get used to my surroundings, the cold looking brick walls, a tiny kitchen in the left corner, tall doorway leading into a little bedroom consisting of bedsheets in the classic green and black Slytherin colours. It was lovely, I thought it was slightly better than my own dorm that I shared with my friends Rowan, Penny and (b/f/n).

"Would you like some tea,(y/n)?" He asked snapping me out of my staring.

"Um okay, thanks, Severus," I replied. He set out 2 little china mugs out on the small coffee table and poured in the steaming tea from the hot kettle. I could see a look of concern and worry on his face but this time it showed, especially in his onyx eyes.

"So tell me what's going on? What could've possibly made you want to do that?" He asked me with worry, sorrow and this time guilt along with it in his eyes. He sat down beside me on the sofa.

"It's from lots of different events that have happened in my life. You know my parents disowned me when I was about 6, it was due to the fact that strange things would happen whenever I was sad, angry or scared, they came to the conclusion that I was a witch and they didn't want anything to do with me, my mother was a very strict muggle and my dad was a wizard converted,"I started to cry whilst saying this. (Self harm mention)"Then in my previous school I was really badly bullied which started to cause me to self harm cuz I kept being threatened that they'd do it if I didn't, it made me feel like I wasn't enough. (End of mention) Then in my 4th year here I started to date Felix Rosier which I really regret because 1. His father was a creep and treated me in a too friendly way and 2. He started treating me like shit when he found out I was half blood. It was also the year Jacob disappeared while trying to protect Hogwarts from the cursed vaults and got expelled , he was my cousin and my best friend,"this was the point where I'd started to absolutely lose it, I kept letting tears and sobs escape from me causing the expressions of concern on Snape's face to deepen. I actually started to see he had glistening eyes and that's when I knew he'd been crying a little bit. "If you... d...don't ...m....mind.... Se....S.... Sev.....Severus....could I.... Have ..... a .... Another .. hu.... Hug.... Pl....please?" I asked with a sob escaping in between every word.

"Usually I'd say no but I will now,it looks like you need to let it all out of you," he started gripping his hands around my waist and I gripped tighter like I really needed this hug but it felt like I needed it specifically from him. I enjoyed his warmth and his scent: parchment, black ink, fire whiskey and a hint of coffee. It was very comforting to have his large, slender hands wrapped around me with my head resting on his hard, broad chest. I heard his heart beating which topped it all off and made me feel the most comfortable. I heard him whimper, this made me fully aware he actually shows emotion, usually he's very stern, strict, short tempered yet now he's showing acts of sadness.

(Snape's POV)
I offered to make her some tea to which she accepted. I sat down next to her and let her talk about what made her want to possibly make that decision. She sat there talking about everything she'd been through in her life, I felt so sorry for the girl, Maddie's best friend, this usually cheerful, happy and quirky girl had been through all of that. Listening to her issues also brought a tear to my eye, I tried not to make it obvious until she requested something. "If you... d...don't ...m....mind.... Se....S.... Sev.....Severus....could I.... Have ..... a .... Another .. hu.... Hug.... Pl....please?" She asked whilst bringing a sob between every word. I accepted the offer opening my hands to let her into a hug, this was where I had to release my tears without making too obvious until I started to whimper, I just wanted this girl to be the once happy one Maddie grew up with, not this bitter sad mess after so many horrible events in her life. Maddie was so lucky to have (Y/N) as her best friend, it would've been so upsetting for her to have lost her childhood friend to whom she was like a sister to.

I wanted to keep her in that hug forever just to protect her. I was terrified that day, I was terrified of her doing anything stupid to take her own life, I was terrified of someone so dear to Mad to pass away so suddenly just because she's feeling sad. I was terrified most of all of losing another love.

Authors note
My god you do not know how long it took to write this. I hope you like it guys 💖