A romantic adventure

Chapter 26- Loss

As of now I feel like everything has gotten slightly better. I've now got Penny's support in my pregnancy and Severus and I found out what gender we were having, well more like I found out and told him. I'm not one to rely on divination but I was just so curious on what I was having so followed the old wives tales. Most of them scored for a girl, so we settled on that we were having a girl and we've discussed names too.

We're deciding to name our little girl Rosalyn Lily Snape. Just because it's cute,I always said that if I had a daughter I'd want her to be named Rosalyn or rose or Rosie for short to which he agreed and Lily for the only other woman he loved. We were quite happy with this name for her and even started addressing it to my baby bump which was showing now. I just had to tell people that I was eating too much.

Oh yeah and Maddie has started talking to me again bit by bit, that's made me happy to know that my best friend is supporting me again. However I felt as if everything was going too smoothly as if it was all going far too well. It felt as though something bad was going to happen real soon, I'll try not to jinx it though.

It was a Friday, so I decided to stay with Severus just so we could talk about the future with our child and what would happen. "Yeah, I think that'll work, she'll go to a nursery while we're both working and she can come to live at Hogwarts with us,"

"Sounds perfect, love," he looked in my direction and smiled at me while we sat on the sofa close to one another. "I'm still absolutely terrified to be father you know, darling,"

"Why, though? You'll be a great father,"

"I appreciate the reassurance love but I'm terrified I'll turn out like my own father, causing pain and despair for her," he replied looking sad in his black orbs.

"You won't, I know you won't, I believe in you Severus, you will and I mean will be a great father," he smiled down at me again.

"Thank you, love," we then leaned in and kissed with his hand on my stomach to feel our baby. "I love you so much,"

"I love you too," we kissed again softly, lips moving in sync. "I'm gonna go to bed,"

"Already, love? It's only half past 10,"

"Yeah, I'm just so tired,"

"Fair enough, I'll come and join you so you can sleep peacefully,"

"Thank you," to that he helped me off of the sofa and we headed through the tall doorway into his bedroom, the very same one we had our first kiss and our first time in. I'll always remember that day.

We both climbed into bed with me cuddling up to him as I usually do, he puts his arm around me and lets my sink my head into the crook of his neck. It's nights like this that I never want to end but it always ends in me shutting my eyes slowly and drifting off into a deep sleep.

There I was standing in a white gown, my grandad was stood next to me with his arm out for me to grab. He walked me down this red carpet where all my friends stood in front of benches, Rowan, Maddie and Penny being bridesmaids. Our daughter was stood by Professor McGonnagall on the front row with her father's glistening black eyes, Dumbledore was stood at the very front of the room holding the ceremony while a man in a black tuxedo was stood there patiently waiting for me to reach him. It appeared that my grandad was giving me away to Severus to marry, until a sharp pain hit my abdomen as if I were stabbed by an invisible sword.

(TW: miscarriage)
It appears that the pain was not any type of dream. It felt like I was being cut open and someone was ripping out my organs, I started to let tears fall because of the pain. This was real life, and my first thought being oh shit is my baby okay? I tried getting into a sitting position but the pain was too much for me to handle, so I tried to wake Severus up. "Sev! Severus!" I cried while shaking him. He woke up all startled as to what was happening.

"Your water hasn't broke has it?" He asked.

"No, I've got a sharp pain in my stomach and I can't get up," to this he darted up and came round to me to check if I was okay.

"Okay, let me help you darling," he helped me get up with gentle hands as to not hurt me anymore than I already was.

"Can you bring me to the bathroom please?"

"Of course, are you alright?"

"No," he brought me to the bathroom and I thought I could feel flowing, as if I was pissing myself. "Just plant me on the toilet,"

"Okay, do you want me to stay?" He said putting me on the toilet.

"Yes please, can you see the extent of my condition cuz I feel like I'm weeing myself?"

"Of course," he pulled down my bottoms and underwear and I saw his eyes widen.

(Snape pov)

Oh no. I pulled down her pyjama bottoms to find blood, a lot of blood but I didn't see the extent of how severe it was until I pulled down her underwear. There was so much blood all clotted and fresh, which really fucking scared me. The last thing I want is for my love to die from blood lost, but I had a feeling that our child had gone. The only making of me just completely gone.

In all honesty I felt horrible, not only for myself but for (y/n) as well. She was the one who was carrying our child and for it to have gone was the worst thing for her. "Severus?" She was on the brink of tears from the amount of pain she was in but I was just speechless. This was not a job to fix with Madam Pomfrey. We had to go to St. Mungo's.

"Love, I have not time to explain but we've got to go to St. Mungo's," I said getting a cloak from my wardrobe to place over her.

"What? Why? Severus I'm scared," She started to cry. I placed the cloak over her and tried to calm her down.

"Love, I think our child is gone but I can't be for sure so come on I'll carry you," to that I picked her up bridal style with a towel around her waist and carried her to the door.

"How are we going to get there?"

"I think we must apparate, it's too dangerous to take the floo network,"

"Okay," she had her head on my chest and I just could tell she was crying, she was trembling very badly.

(Y/n pov)

Turns out I might have lost my baby. Words could not describe the amount of pain I was in, not just physically but mentally too. We got to St. Mungo's by apparating which lead to me having the urge to throw up. "Sev....... I...." I started to gag.

"Oh fuck are you going to vomit?" I nodded and he knelt me down so I could vomit. As a person with emetophobia, this was another thing to put on the list of one hell of a bad night. I started to cry more as I threw up and Severus held my (h/c) hair back to avoid it from getting covered. He then picked me up again after cleaning me so we could get me treated from the supposed miscarriage.

About 15 minutes later I was in a ward with Severus by my side until a healer came in. "I'm sorry but you'll have to leave for this portion of the treatment, we must give her a very hard potion to take as it will cause her much pain because I'm sorry to say but you have indeed had a miscarriage," this flooded my eyes with tears.

I've lost my little baby.

(Snape POV)

As soon as the news hit us, (y/n) started to cry terribly, more so than she did the night of her attempt. I've never seen anything like it before, a wave of emotions hit me too but I kept them concealed until I walked out of her room. I kissed her good luck and I begged the healer to make sure that she would be okay, it was until then I had bottled it all up.

A full sea of tears escaped from my eyes, I just felt so shit. My little Rosalyn had gone and now my (y/n) has now got to go through excruciating pain in order to remove the dead foetus. I'd never cried this much since the night Lily died, I wasn't paying attention to anything, just the amount I was crying. Until a voice came by.

"Snape are you alright?"