A romantic adventure

Chapter 28- arrival back

Today was just absolutely unbearable, mentally. However physically, all of the pain had subsided. Severus and I were so broken from the death of our child, I mean who wouldn't be? All we wanted to do was hold our girl knowing full well that she was no longer here.

There were a few times I actually saw Severus cry; this made me cry. Just an endless cycle of tears until the healer came in and said I was fine to go. I had missed a hogsmeade trip I was to take with friends, I'm sure they were so worried, I also wanted to write to my grandparents to let them know I was okay but was I really okay? Physically yes, mentally no.

Severus carried me the same way we came, bridal style with apparating. Hopefully I won't vomit this time, I feel like I will. We landed outside of the Hogwarts grounds to see the dusk settiling in. The stars were all glistening like gems, I could picture every constellation up there. "Where do you want to go, love?" Severus asked whilst carrying me passed Hagrids. I could do with some warmth, some friends. Hufflepuff. I'll go there.

"Can I just go back to my common room? I don't really wanna stay, no offence," he sighed. I could tell he was disheartened by that. "Sorry," I whispered.

"It's okay, I guess you need your friends company," he replied. We landed outside of the hufflepuff common room and I knocked the usual gist. I kissed Severus goodbye with a peck and just headed to my dorm with tears streaming down my cheeks as if my eyes weren't as red as they were. Finally got to my dorm after what felt like ages to find Rowan, Penny and Maddie all in the dorm.

"BITCH WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?!" Maddie yelled.

"Yeah we got so worried about you," Penny said calmly. To this I just kneeled down and cried.

"Woah, girl! Come here now!" Rowan said pulling me into a hug. "What's up? What happened?"

"M-m- my b-b-baby," I couldn't speak, I was just broken.

"What about your baby?" Penny whispered. 

"G-g-gone!"

"Gone? what do you mean gone?" Maddie asked. "As in its dead?!"

"Y-y-yeah!" Rowan and Penny gasped. I could tell Maddie was a mix, she was happy that my baby was gone but also felt terrible that I went through a loss.

"Oh, (y/n)! Come on let's get you sat down and we'll go and grab some food and water then we can talk about it okay?" Rowan asked. I nodded. "Okay, Penny you stay put with-"

"No I'm staying!" Madden yelled.

"Okay then, come on Penny let's go," and to that, they both left the room leaving me and Maddie. I was still crying, she sat opposite me and offered a hug to which I accepted.

"Are you glad I had a miscarriage?" I asked Maddie.

"Well, sort of, I'm sorry it died and everything but I just think you were too young to have a baby, I mean you're only 18," she said sympathetically.

"I guess you're right," I replied wiping my eyes. Rowan and Penny came back into the common room.

"Right, we're back! Have some food and water and you'll be okay, we will not stand here and let you suffer especially suffer alone!" Rowan said.

"Thanks," I said while taking some chocolate. Having chocolate is always the best way to cope, it makes me feel warm and happier whenever I have it. So good!

We spent the rest of the night with tears, chocolate and gossip. Penny and Barnaby have finally hit it off when they went to Madam Puddifoot's tea shop, I was so happy for her. They've been on and off. Maddie also caught Merula bullying some first years and got into a fight, she's always fighting Merula it's so funny. But an impulse came over me.

I just wanted to be in Severus' arms.

(Snape PoV)

I don't know what came over me. As soon as I got back to my quarters, I just sat down, poured myself a firewhiskey and just cried. I don't usually cry but this time I think I cried as much as the time I lost Lily. I even cried a little back at St.Mungo's, I didn't just want to hold (y/n) and tell her that everything will be fine but I wanted to hold my baby. Rosalyn Lily Snape, my daughter.

The tears were interrupted with a knock on the door. I didn't want to see anyone right now, "go away!" I said angrily.

"Severus, it's me," I heard the soft voice of (y/n) and immediately regretted my angry outburst. So I went over to the door, opened it and saw her red eyes.

"Oh come here darling," I held her close as she whimpered into my shoulder and I couldn't help but tear up myself. "I'm so so- sorry," I stuttered.

"Don't be, it wasn't your fault," I'd never felt this much guilt since Lily's death, I feel guilt for my love, for my child, the whole situation. "I love you, Severus,"

"I love you too, Angel"

A/n- hi! I'm so sorry for the delay guys, my GCSE exams have started now and a lot has been going on. I'm also thinking about making a sequel to this story where we see (y/n)'s life as a full grown adult, her life with Snape and her career as a professor at Hogwarts, might do it in the time where Harry comes to Hogwarts and voldy's rise to power with (y/n)'s views. Let me know what you think.