Inuyasha and Kagome

Chapter 30

(Miroku's POV)

I watched in horror as Sango plummeted to the ground and disappear into the darkness.

"SANGO!" I shouted with tears running down my face. Where was Inuyasha when I needed him, he was right behind me!

I dangled there for quite a while, staring down into the darkness as if she would magically fly back up. But I know, that was fictional thinking.

The bar that I was gripping jerked and groaned, signaling that it was time for me to go. I whispered my goodbye to my love and climbed up over the railing. I slumped down against the stone wall and sat awkwardly on the steps.

This is all my fault, if only I wasn't so stupid to fall off the edge. If only I wasn't so stupid to not watch where I was going then Sango would have never needed to save me. She wouldn't be laying splattered on the ground at the bottom of whatever this was. If only Inuyasha would have followed me.

Inuyasha. Where was Inuyasha at when I fell? He could have saved me at any other time when I didn't need it but he can't save Sango when we do? He could of helped someone instead of wandering off on his own! He should have been here.

"Miroku!" I heard Inuyasha shout. I was in no mood for him, I did not want to see him. The only I thought about as I heard his voice was Sango. "Miroku are you okay!" I sat there silently, clenching and unclenching my hands in my lap.

Inuyasha had climbed on Kirara's back and was now flying up and down in the center of the hole.

I mentally groaned and glared at him as he came to my floor and prowled around. His face was stiff with anticipation but relaxed once he saw me.

"Miroku!" Kirara glided into the small space and Inuyasha slid off her back. Kirara flew back out and up to get Shippo I suppose. "Are you okay?" I gridded my teeth together angrily.

He seemed to finally come to the conclusion. "Where's Sango." He said sternly and I looked down at my clenched hands. "Where is Sango." He repeated.

I looked back up at him unable to control the anger I had bottled up inside. "She's dead Inuyasha," His eyes widened a bit. "And do you know why she is?" He swallowed hard before shaking his head slowly.

"Because of you. Where were you when I fell, Inuyasha? Where were you when I needed you the most. Where were you when your friend needed you the most?" My voice rose with every word I said as the anger poured out of me.

"Miroku I-"

"You should have been there! You should have followed me and helped me instead of wandering off! YOU COULD HAVE SAVED HER BUT INSTEAD YOU WERE OFF DOING GOD KNOWS WHAT!" I screamed. Inuyasha leaned back and sat a few steps away from me.

"I'm so-"

"WHERE WERE YOU! WITH KIKYO? WAS THAT WHERE YOU WERE! WE'RE HERE TO FIND YOUR GIRLFRIEND AND YOURE OFF WITH ANOTHER WOMAN WERENT YOU!" Of course I knew he wasn't with Kikyo, it was a ridiculous conclusion but I was so angry I had no idea what I was saying or what to do. I was so upset, this man isn't the person I want to be.

"No actually I wasn't. I hate that woman with all my heart and you know that! I'm sorry I wasn't here to save your sorry ass Miroku! I thought you were a tough enough man to do it on your own but I guess I was wrong. Your weakness put yourself in danger and killed your fiancé." He was breathing heavily by the time he finished his small rant. His face softened a bit and he just looked ashamed. "I can't believe you would accuse me for something like that."

He was right, I should of never said that. It was wrong of me and I am so very sorry for everything. For putting Sango endanger, for insulting Inuyasha, for yelling at Sango, for everything. I'm just a real fuck up.