Inuyasha and Kagome

Chapter 19

(Kagome's POV)

I laid in Inuyasha's arms for a long time. Listening to his heart beat and steady breathing. The moon was high in the sky, everyone was asleep. I had thought about my plan for a long time, I decided tonight was the night.

I sat up slowly, moving Inuyasha's arms so they laid limply on the floor. I stood up and grabbed my bag. Moving over to Shippo and kissing the top of his head.

"I love you, Shippo." I sniffled, leaning down and petting Kirara a bit. "Thank you Kirara." I looked over to Sango and Miroku who were snuggling in the corner. "Good bye." I whispered to them, a tear dripped down my face as I looked to Inuyasha.

I walked over and knelt beside him. Moving his hair I kissed his forehead.

"I love you, Inuyasha." I said quietly, my voice cracking. Another tear falling down my cheek.

"I love you too." He mumbled, rolling over. I smiled and stood up. Walking over and sliding the door open as quietly as I could.

"I'm sorry." I said over my shoulder and closed the door. Leaning my forehead against the door for a few moments, thinking about all the fun times we had.

All the jewel shards we collected. Shippo's snoring and Kirara's cute small meows. Miroku and Sango's foolish bickering. Inuyasha's golden eyes, nice smile, and the way he made me feel when I was around him. He made me feel warm and soft inside, I had butterflies in my stomach and I was always nervous. Now I felt cold and hard, lonely. My heart trying to drag me back into the room but my mind telling me to go a different direction.

I lifted up my head and turned away. Taking a step and walking down the hall. Brushing my hand along the wooden wall. I stepped outside into the moonlight, feeling the cold breeze kiss my skin. Walking out the castles gate, I walked through the village. Listening to the crackles of the fires inside, a baby whine in one of the huts as its mother sang it a sweet lullaby.

My feet becoming heavier and heavier with each step. I walked up the steep hill and turned to the dim village.

'It's not to late. You can turn back now, if you wanted to.' I thought, but I can't. I can't put my friends in that kind of danger. I don't want to hurt them. I turned back to the dark, unwelcoming forest.

"Let's go." I breathed and walked down the leaf covered path. Where am I supposed to go? I can't go home, I don't want to hurt my family with those ninjas. I can't go to
Kieda's, they'll find me. I can only hope I can find a village far away and make a hut. I can start a new life, and protect the village with my powers.

I can get married and have children. No I couldn't do that, I'm already promised to Inuyasha. I can only marry him, but I can't ever see him again. I'm going to be a lonely old lady priestess and live by myself. No one to talk to but myself. Probably go crazy from all the alone time I would have.

I looked down and kicked a rock. Why must life be so difficult? Why can't I just love whomever I want and not have the fear of endangering them? Why was I chosen to be the reincarnation of Kikyo? She can take her stupid jewel! I don't want it! I want my own life and to be happy! It's-

I began to sob. Why can't I be normal, and go to school with my friends? I could get my first job and go to college. I could have a career.

The sun started to come up over the horizon.

No, I'm not far enough! I need more time. I quickly wiped my face and ran farther into the woods. The sun kept rising up and up. My friends were going to wake up soon and notice I was gone. If they find me, how am I going to explain this to them?