Hello, My Friend. Hello, My Future (Book 2)

CHAPTER 57

Jennie's POV

Have you ever gone the wrong way? Once you realized that you were headed in the opposite direction of where you wanted to end up, did you keep going—or did you turn around?

We've all been lost at one time or another.

We've all done things we regret.

We've all messed up.

Two years ago, I was too weak and selfish to the point that I tried to end my life back then. I only thought about myself and I didn't even think about the people around me. I was defeated by my weakness. Because of that, I neglected the person I love the most. I lost her without knowing it and this is because I committed suicide. I know it was a sin and that was the biggest mistake I ever made in my life. In an instant, I suddenly forgot everything after that incident. I lost my memory. Is that in my favor? Or not? Is it my karma? Or is it a way to learn a lesson about life? Whatever the outcome, I only know one thing, everything that happens in a person's life has its reason.

Now, I am at the point where I could find it so hard to make decisions in life.

When we attempt to make the perfect decision, we can often find ourselves stuck in indecision.

And while we should always discern our next steps, sometimes we overcomplicate things.

7:00 PM

"Arrghhhh.....Did I make the right decision? Why doesn't it seem like it?", I growled in annoyance while lying in my bed and locked myself in my room. A week has passed since I left Lisa at the hospital. Since then, we haven't seen each other or talked. I also resigned from my job and left the company after that tragedy happened.

While looking at the ceiling, I didn't realize that I was crying at this moment. Out of nowhere, I just remembered my parents. I missed them so much. I am all alone now and I no longer have parents with me. Nothing hurts more than losing loved ones. I lost my mother when I wasn't by her side and then my father died in front of me. I could not save them. I didn't do anything to save them. I also lost a child. And that's why my life became miserable.

I felt thirsty so I got out of bed to drink water. When I opened the fridge, I saw that there was two soju in it. Instead of water, I took two bottles of soju. They say when you drink alcohol you can temporarily forget your problems in life. So here I am now going to drink and even if it's only for a short period at least I won't think about all of it in the meantime.

Time passed without realizing that I had run out of alcohol.  I felt drowsy and my vision becomes blurry. My heart beats fast but I breathe slowly. Am I drunk? I don't think so. Maybe, I'm just tipsy. I just ignored it and thought of buying soju outside. When I stood up, I suddenly felt my head hurt and everything was spinning around. I started to step on my feet and began to walk. As I was walking, my body felt numb and it moves unsteadily from side to side. Gosh! I~I think I'm wasted now. I just laughed and keep walking until I reached the outside of my house.

A few minutes later, I finally bought soju at the nearby store and went back home. While I was walking home, I don't know for myself but at times like this when I walk alone on the road, especially at night I feel like someone is following me. Am I the only one being like this? In the end, I just thought maybe it was just my imagination. But still, I feel there's someone behind me that's why I stop walking.

"YAAAHHH!!", I said in a loud voice. "Why are you following me?! Who are you?!" I tried to turn around to see and make sure there was anyone there. I slowly turned back but my body lose balance causing me to fall not to the ground but into someone's arms.