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16- Starting over

Okay so I just had this idea bc of a Family Guy episode and idk if it's gonna be good but yeah, I'm just gonna start writing and see how it turns out!

Summary, bc I have motivation: Peter fakes his own death. (Jk ofc I don't have motivation I'm an emo marvel obsessed teenager what'd u expect LMAO)

anyway, on with the story:

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3rd person pov

Peter doesn't want to do anything anymore. Some people could say his life is perfect, he's smart, not bad looking, he's a superhero, has a girlfriend and knows the Avengers! But the stress had been piling up. He doesn't want to dissapoint mr. Stark and the other hero's, he doesn't want to dissapoint the people on the streets of NYC that rely on Spiderman, he doesn't want to dissapoint aunt May if he gets bad grades, he doesn't want to dissapoint Ned and MJ for never being there. 

It's too much. And Peter is starting to realise that. The heavy bags under his eyes are.. growing, to say the least. He stays up untill 1 AM spidermanning, only to make homework untill 2 AM after that. He goes to school everyday and tries his best, only to go to the Stark tower after that. It's too much work, too much people to not dissapoint. He rarely hangs out with Ned and MJ anymore, he's only working.

Peter doesn't want to.. you know.. kill himself, but he doesn't want to live like this.

'I wish I could just start over.'

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Dead. Peter is dead. Tony begins breathing heavily when he gets the call. Panic rises up his chest and he drops the phone. Killed in a gas explosion. Tony can feel the panic attack coming and he sits against the couch with his back.

The kid is dead. His kid. The little ray of sunshine who always thought he was a burden. The kid who still called him mr. Stark. The kid who was Spiderman. The kid who had way too many responsibilities, the kid whom Tony loved. All in the past tense now. 

Tony feels like he can't breathe. He'll never hear Peter's voice again, he'll never-

"Tones? Breathe with me, in... And out.. Good job.. Hey.. What happened?" Pepper rubs in circular motions on Tony's back. "I- Peter.. He's- he's dead, Pep." Tony cries out and Pepper pulls him into a hug. She herself didn't have the same bond with Peter as Tony, but she cared for the kid. And she knows how much Tony cares for the boy. She sees how he looks at Peter, with the fatherly love Tony thought he didn't have. "It's okay-"

"It isn't, Pep! He is- was, my son. MY KID." Tony breaks down into sobs and tears and clamps onto Pepper. "Shh, it'll be alright."

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Peter didn't expect... Well, this. He is watching Pepper comfort Tony after the man broke down. Peter didn't think Tony would be affected by his 'death' so much, and now guilt is nagging at Peter. He didn't do this to see everyone's reactions, and be like 'surprise! I'm alive!', but Peter has to force himself from bursting through the window and telling Tony it's okay. May also hadn't reacted.. too well. MJ and Ned also didn't. 

Peter doesn't know why he actually went to see everyone's reactions. Maybe to hurt himself, to give himself the feeling of guilt for the rest of his life, because he deserves it. He has been selfish. So fucking selfish. Faking your death and hurting others just because your life was a bit tough? Peter was disgusted by himself. 

With a clenched heart, Peter climbs down the fire escape of the building he is on and begins making his way to Brooklyn. He doesn't have much on him. He ravished the Spiderman suit and left it at the place where he 'died', not that he could go spidermanning after this anyway. And he left his phone, and most of his clothing. It would have been obvious if he took alot of food and clothes. So, with nothing but an almost empty duffel bag, Peter begins making a way to a new life.