Sanders sides oneshots (request closed)

"ily2"

type: Human Au

ship: some queerplatonic moxiety

genre: angst

requested by: me

TW: some general vent, angst, feelings of lonelines and horrible self worth, depresed Patton, bullying mentions, non-edited shit, idk what else tbh 

word count: 681

Doodles layed backwards in its chair, snapping eir fingers lazily to summon the two sides it needed. Ey was too tired for any of this bs. 

...

"ily"

"ily2"

Patton stared at pups phone before letting it down, closing frogs eyes with a sigh. Rai didn't know what to do. Blue was at a loss.

How long had bri known Virgil for, anyways?

Blue knew the answer. Around 20 months already.

That time... how had it gone by so fast yet so slow? Patton still remembered that first text frog sent so long ago, asking for Virgil's number so they could keep in closer contact 15 months ago. Patton still remembered when they had their first video call 10 months ago. Patton still remembered when they became queerplatonic partners 5 months ago.

What had happened?

Patton knew, deep down. Pup knew that all that happened was just school! 

Virgil was a few years younger than rain, and now had to study bachillerato, which was... senior year for Americans? The fact that they lived across the sea wasn't exactly helpful for their situation...

But still! Patton didn't understand, even if frog tried! 

When they met to years ago, Virgil wasn't fine. He had so much stuff going on. Patton remembered all those nights blue stayed up till 3 am talking to him, asking him to stay. Bri remembered how it felt, how even in those horrible circumstances, love and care still flourished. How, no matter what happened, they got each other and that was enough.

Maybe that's what went wrong. That it was no longer enough.

Virgil had new people in his live. A new boyfriend, a new friend group, a new school, a new purpose. He now studied what he wanted, away from most of the toxic people in his live, he no longer had to hide in fear of coming back home at night with a bloody nose and a schoolbag stolen away. He was a new person, a better version of himself.

That wasn't the issue.

The issue was that Patton hadnt changed.

Patton had the same people in frogs live, still lived with blues parents, still no irl friends, no new purpose. Bri was still stuck studying what pups father wanted, not being able to get away from rain's live, still spending most afternoons staring up at the ceiling wondering if things would get better. Blue was the same person, a worse version of pupself even.

It- it simply wasn't fair. 

Patton had spent brights entire live trying to get better. Trying to keep old friends, trying to get new fones, trying, and trying, and trying, but eventually just failing. And Virgil? He found a new group of friends in just one month, got a crush in two months, a boyfriend in five. And he was just- just- so happy!

Don't get rain wrong, Patton wished no harm upon Virgil. In fact, pup was glad he was doing better than before! Its just... blue felt more alone than ever.

Virgil had tried to help, he really had, at least at first, trying to get Patton to join group chats, group calls, to get his friends to talk to each other. But it simply didn't work.

Patton wasn't good enough. 

And, finally, Virgil understood that.

Blue sighed. Part of pup saw this as the only logical explanation, that Virgil didn't care anymore but didn't want to leave Patton because of how pathetic bri was. The other tried to convince itself that all that was wrong, that Virgil was simply worried over exams and tests and the change in level that came by with a new school year. 

They were probably both right in one way or another.

Ignoring any other notifications, Patton shut frogs phone off and turned on the bed to sleep. It'll be better off this way. Pup didn't want Virgil to exhaust himself over nothing. 

A/N

its close to midnight

im gonna sleep

gnight.