Entertain Me [Tokyo Revengers - Imaushi Wakasa]

Chapter 20: Really? Really.

Chapter 20:

"Is that what you really want?" Wakasa asked as he pulled away from me slightly, 

No, was what I wanted to answer but I said the exact opposite of what I really felt, "Yes" I replied firmly, I honestly think this is for the best, for my mental health's sake and his. What we're doing isn't healthy especially since I know I'm developing feelings for him,

"Why?" Waka asked, he looked somewhat disappointed that I wanted to end what we had, but I feel like I had no choice anymore. I can't continue being friends with benefits with him, if this goes on any longer one of us is going to get extremely hurt, and I doubt it's going to be him,

"After everything that has happened with Shiori and Ikuya, also almost getting expelled, I realized that it's time to start looking for something serious, you've had to be in a relationship with me and Shiori and I don't think that's fair on your part, you should be able to go out with someone you like, not because you have to," I explained, "Plus, I need to take things more seriously, whether it's my career, school, the shop, and my love life, I want to be taken seriously too, and that's not something we have,"

I say that, but I don't really know if I meant it. I mean, yes, I meant it, I wanted to be taken seriously but by him.

But I'm not going to tell him that.

Oh God, please say no, please disagree with me. 

Please say you'll take me seriously now, 

Please tell me I'm wrong about this,

"Okay," He said as he patted me on the head and gave me a comforting smile, "We'll stop,"

"Oh--" What the hell was I actually expecting? Of course, he won't take me seriously, "Thank you for understanding,"

"Sure thing, we'll keep it platonic, just roommates," He was making things way too clear, "So does this mean we can start seeing other people now, right?"

NO! "Yes"

"Okay," He answered meekly, as he walked past me and sat back down on my desk,

Everything happened way too quickly for my liking, I know I was the one who wanted to end things but he could have been more upset about it, right? But then again, he doesn't like me that way and what we had was purely for sexual gain which he could get from any other woman,

I was the only one being attached,

"I'm going to take a shower, I'll cook dinner right after," I informed the white-haired male who was busy reading his accounting book again, I didn't bother to wait for a response and headed inside the bathroom to freshen up, and cry for the most part...

[Wakasa's POV:]

The moment Shoyo closed the bathroom door, I placed the book I was mindlessly skimming down on the desk and let out a frustrated sigh,

"I should have said no," I whispered to myself, instantly regretting I gave up so easily, "Now, what am I supposed to do with this?" I quietly questioned myself as I pulled out a small black box from Sho's desk drawer.

I was honestly considering asking her to marry me tonight but when she said she wanted someone to take her seriously, I chickened out.

Yes, I know it's too soon for that but after spending months without her with me, I knew I couldn't stand living without her by my side. I have to thank Shiori at one point because she made me realize I wanted to be with her for real this time,

But when Shoyo said she wanted something serious and she knew she won't have that with me, I started to have doubts, not about my feelings for her because I know I like her a lot, but I'm doubting whether she would reciprocate what I feel about her.