Let me love you[TK au]

20. I love you

✨Waiting is a sign of
  True love and patience
Anyone can say I love you
  But not everyone can stay and
   Prove it's true✨

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"Well, I have been debating to tell you this for weeks but guess I don't have that much guts", Taehyung sighed deeply and looked at Jungkook who was now getting a little nervous.

"Jungkook the moment I laid my eyes on you, I feel something that I have never felt, at first I thought it was a mere attraction or obsession but as days passed by I felt that I'm indeed feeling something else which was more than a friend should fee-and one more thing please just, please don't Interrupt until I complete ok", Taehyung said when Jungkook opened his mouth.

He immediately closed his mouth and nodded. Taehyung took a deep breath calming himself and that's when he felt a warm hand softly taking his own and caressing it. Taehyung slowly looked at the younger who was now giving a smooth smile, silently encouraging him. He returned the smile after getting some comfort and started again.

"It's you Jungkook, you, you are my best friend, my shoulder to lean on, the one person I know I can count on, you are the only person I want to be with today, tomorrow, and forever. I want you with every bit of my heart, you have made me one of the happiest people on the earth that no one else could. I don't know what made me be this whipped for you. Maybe it's your eyes that always smile first before your lips whenever you are happy or maybe your little button nose that always scrunches up whenever you get all shy or maybe your....your crimson lips that always pout whenever you are mad. I-I don't know Kookie, I'm lost....lost in you, I want to live the rest of my life with you. I want to bicker with you, to cuddle you, to kiss you, to hug you, to console you, to cherish you, to admire you, moreover, I want to love you". Taehyung paused when he felt Jungkook's hand lose a bit.

Now Taehyung held the other's hand afraid to let go. Jungkook had tears in his eyes.

"Please don't let go Jungkook, I beg you, yes I had a few past relationships but I never felt this way with anyone before, like, like I won't be able to live without you, just like this I want to hold you tight against me, to always see you smile......I love you so much Jeon Jungkook", Taehyung whispered the last part enough for Jungkook to catch it and finally looked at Jungkook.

Jungkook felt something inside him. His heart is beating so fast. Taehyung never called him by his full name. And this confession, oh no he's feeling overwhelmed. Memories started to run behind and his eyes filled with tears that decorated his cheeks. A small sob left his mouth he covered his mouth with his hands and tried not to break down. But God was not on his side he can't control it and started to run to his house. Taehyung followed him by calling his name.

Jungkook let his main door open but closed his room door after getting in. Taehyung stood in front of his room. He knocked on the door screaming the younger's name but he only got screams and sobs and a little leave me alone as a reply.

Taehyung let the younger calm down. He knows he messed up. Jungkook was too sensitive to this topic. He should have waited but how long it's been 7 months he was feeling for Jungkook. He took a seat on the couch and waited for about an hour or 2.

After getting no movement from the younger, he panicked. What if...no no his Jungkook was not a guy to do such things right? But he was too emotional and what if he did something? NO!!

No Taehyung, don't think so stupid my kookie won't do that. He may be passed out. Yeah, maybe.

But what if h-

His thoughts were interrupted by a phone call. He looked at the caller ID and sit straight up. He attended the call.

"Kookie, are you o-"

"Taehyung, come in", that's all Jungkook said before hanging up.

Taehyung sighed. He felt relive that Jungkook was ok but also hella nervous and anxious, what if the younger rejected him? He would rather stay away and loves the younger forever than be rejected.

Anyways he opened the room door only to get his heart broken by the sight. Jungkook was sitting beside his bed on the floor hugging his knees which were close to his chest. The room was a mess. Bed sheets are on the ground, the study table was messed and papers and documents were scattered all over the place.

Jungkook's eyes are blood-red from all the cries. His gaze again falls to the ground after noticing the elder.

Taehyung made his way near Jungkook but didn't sit down. What if he made the younger uncomfortable again?

Jungkook looked at the elder and eyed him sit down. Taehyung obeyed like a baby, looking expectantly. Jungkook sighed.

He was speechless. He can't love Taehyung. He won't. How can he trust another man? Yes, he trusts Taehyung but as a friend. He never imagined Taehyung to fall for him. He already got broken. He has no energy left to start a new one. It's not easy to move on. Those words, those touches, those eyes. He can't, he just can't hate his ex even though when he knew that his ex got married and moved on.

Maybe his ex can do that but not him. After all, he loved him.

Having no other option, Jungkook decided to say this even though he knew that the elder will break. That thing that hurts Jungkook, even more, is the eyes of Taehyung that scream love. But he has no way.

He can't hurt the elder further by remaining silent. Even though Taehyung would get hurt now he'll be ok after some days or months. And that's what Jungkook wants. He doesn't want anyone to feel for him. Especially Taehyung.

After taking a long, shaky breath, Jungkook looked at the elder who looks so nervous and worried.

"Tae........

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