Let me love you[TK au]

21. I can't love you

Please ignore the mistakes.

Enjoy!!!!!!

I'm excited, there gonna be lots and lots of Taekook moments from now on. Ahsjdjebkdebndnsjej

Sorry hehe.
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"Tae, I'm sorry, but you don't know anything about m-me, about my p-past, and I can't love you, Tae", Jungkook said.

Taehyung's eyes filled with tears. He expected this but not this soon. That hurts a lot.

"No, I won't let you go that easy, tell me, tell everything about you, I'll wait for you kookie but don't tell me to forget you, please I can't do that", Taehyung whispered holding the younger's hand against his chest. He looks so broken and that hurts Jungkook more than anything. Jungkook could feel the elder's heart beats that's beating so fast.

"No, Tae you don't u-understand, you woke up the Jungkook that I buried d-deep down now it's hard for me to r-recover", Jungkook whispers back.

Both of them had no energy to even talk properly. Taehyung shook his head.

"Let him out Jungkook, how long are you gonna hurt him, I want to love him not you, the broken Jungkook, I need him, please stop acting kookie, I can't see you in pain, let me know you kookie, please, I want to love this Jungkook, the one who suffered a lot, please tell me everything, let it all out, I'm here with you and I'll always be with you, even you push me aside",  Taehyung said.

Jungkook looked at the elder for some minutes before sighing and looking at the floor. He too wanted to let things out. He has been keeping this within him for years. He needed the peace too. He wanted to feel relieved too.

"I was 16 when it started", he said and Taehyung gave all his attention to him.

"He was my senior, Samuel, he was 2 years older than me, at first it all started by texting each other on Instagram, from stranger to friend and friend to love, one day he proposed to me and I accepted it. Everything went well until I a-accepted his proposal, h-he started to order me, he told me not to talk to any men as he k-knows that I'm gay so he a-allowed me to talk with girls but him being bisexual he t-talked and even had some c-conversations with both male and f-female. Three years went by. I never d-doubted him but he did. He u-used me. He a-abused me, m-misbehaved with me, h-he even tried to r-rape me, I l-loved him but h-he", Jungkook broke down and cried hiding his face in his palms.

Taehyung didn't hesitate to hold the younger one close to his heart. Jungkook unconsciously snuggled more into Taehyung's neck and Taehyung tightened the hold. He smoothly rubbed his palm over Jungkook's back and whispered sweet nothings. After calming down a little Jungkook started again. This is what Jungkook needed, and craved for years to feel. And strangely he doesn't feel uncomfortable rather he feels at home.

"One day when he saw me talking to one of my classmates, he got a-angry and used d-disgusting words on me, in front of the whole campus. I-I did nothing wrong Tae, I just wanted t-to be n-normal, l-like everyone, to be f-free from burdens. I thought h-he would change b-but no, he t-treated me so cheap, he u-used me only to his p-pleasures, and I feel disgusted a-about it. He used to c-call me by names, and eventually, everything c-changed, the nickname baby changed into w-whore, and his l-love changed into doubts. I-I think he never loved me, it was just an o-obsession. And one day we had a big fight and I stopped talking to him, that's when I met his friend who told me that he was c-cheating on me from the beginning, at first I didn't trust him, but when I saw h-him k-kissing one of my classmates, I-I broke down t-that day, and I-I came to k-know that w-whatever his friend told me was indeed t-true", Jungkook chuckled bitterly.