In the end, it's only us (Natasha x reader

Not long left

Y/n pov

Soft lips meet mine right as i turn around from the door. I wrap my arms around her waist, pulling her closer by instinct.

"You know the point of sharing a room and bed is so that i can wake up with you by my side" Natasha says, leaning her head against mine.

"We're getting married tomorrow" i whisper against her lips, the vibrations sending her shivers. "So we'll be doing more than sharing a room"

"I love you so much" she smiles before taking my mouth to her again, but mumble against it. "Never leave"

"I love you too" i mumble back. I want to say 'never' but that's not something i can say right now, because it'd be a lie. She takes some steps back towards the bed, taking me with her as she doesn't let go. Her hands found their way up into my hair, tugging it. The bad thoughts are still making their way back into my head. I try to only let the good ones in now, like the fact that i'm happy, happier than i think i've ever been before. I have everything i ever dared to wish for. Natasha, a family even though it's not the one i'd imagined, and my brother back. But that doesn't change the fact that i did have everything before, and it was all ripped away from me. My thoughts lead back to her as i lay her down carefully on the bed. Continuing to kiss my way down her neck and up again.

"I love you" i mumble for the thousand times in the last five hours we've been lying in bed. I place another kiss on her head before starting to untangle myself.

"Why can't we just cuddle after, why do you always have to get up?" she asks in a tired state.

"We did cuddled afterwards, for two hours" i answer with a laugh at her cute pout. It's not like i want to go, but it's still the middle of the day.

"According to the clock it's been five hours"

"That's only because we were having sex for the first three hours" i answer with a laugh again as i kiss her cheek. "Besides, i have to go talk to Wanda or she'll be even more mad at me than she already is"

"Why is she mad at you?" i shrug my shoulders even though i know exactly why. Because she might have stood by me and stopped me from falling earlier, she still hasn't talked to me since i told her. "Go"

"What?"

"Go, whatever between you and her has made her keep a distance from me... so go, talk to her"

"I'll be right back Моя луна и звезды" i kiss her once more, and she tries to pull me back into bed but fails. Even though she almost succeeded. So i put on my gym clothes, since she'll probably be training i could join her. Get her to talk again, like on that walk.

And i was right, because as i get down to the gym floor. There she is, punching a punching bag extremely hard.

"I'm guessing you're picturing either me... or Steve for what he said" i say as i come up behind her. She had heard me, i hadn't tried to be quiet. But i'm still moving slower than usual.

"You" is the only answer i get before she punches so hard that the seams rip and the sand inside flows out on the floor. So without turning to me she says. "Could you get me another one?"

"Sure" i say, using some of my speed to get it from across the room. But on my way back everything slows down to human speed, from just the weight of the bag. She notices me walking at normal speed with the sack in hand. I hung it up in the chairs where the other one had hung, before she took it down. "Or do you want to punch me instead? You're welcome to, if you think it could help"

"I don't want to punch you Y/n" she says and starts to punch and kick again.

"Then why are you doing this? Seems like a lot of anger."

"Because you're being a selfish ass" i give out a small chuckle.

"Just because i'm going to die, you think it's selfish? It's not like i chose it"

"I know, but i found something that could help you and you choose to look the other way" i grab her hand to stop her punches and meet her gaze. The one that's been hurt so many times.

"I've lived a long life Wanda, it's just fate taking its course" i take a deep breath. "I should already be dead, but i'm not and death has been chasing me ever since. Deaths only starting to catching up"

"Why won't you just listen to me" she's angry now, more than before. "I found a way for you to live"

"I don't want to live Wanda, i want to die" i snap at her and even surprise myself. "I want to no longer walk this earth. And if that's selfish then sure, i'm selfish"

"That does not give you the right to leave Natasha, especially now. You know that if she loses you she'll break"

"I don't want to leave her but i don't really have a choice, now do i?"

"But you do, because i found a way. If you could just listen to me"

"Fine, i'm listening now. What did you find?" i calm myself down, not wanting anyone else to hear us. So does she, taking a deep breath.

"Asgard"

"What about it?"

"There's this venom called Dreamshadow that grows..." but i cut her off.

"On the south of Asgard, i know. And if that's your plan then i think i was right about not listening" i try to leave but she grabs my arm, making me stay.

"If you already knew of it then why haven't you used it?"

"Because it'll turn me into something else"

"How do you know that?"

"I've searched it before, when i first met Loki and he took me to Asgard. He helped me try to find a cure." But instead found a curse. "But there's a price, like it is to everything. There's even a legend about it"

"What does it take?"

"To get into the garden where it grows, you have to give up a part of your soul. I'll give up who i am and become someone... something else. An empty shell, the killing machine they made me to be"

"Did you do it?"

"No, of course not, i was already doomed. It's not like i wanted another reason to go to helL" she looks at me with sad eyes, but there's still anger lingering amongst them. "It might not even work for the better, it could get worse"

"But there has to be a way" i love the way she's so hopeful, because it's not a part of her character really. But for me she is, for her friend and for her family, she is.

"There isn't" but to make her happy i add. "But i promise you, if you find some other way, I'll listen and i'll try it"

"Good, then i won't have to force you into doing it" she says with a smile, making me let out a soft laugh of my own.

"You already have another idea, haven't you?"

"Yupp"