In the end, it's only us (Natasha x reader

Home sweet home

Y/n pov

"How do you know?" she asks, still not buying the whole dying thing.

"Because i knew someone who did this and she died, then another one tried and he died and became someone else. Didn't even recognize me, i wouldn't recognize you, Tony or Natasha. I would disappear"

"Can't we do something where we store your memories and personality and just give it back after"

"That's if i would survive, which is highly unlikely" i take a deep breath and a look at the clock around my wrist. "We should get back, we're leaving in an hour"

"Fine, but promise me that we keep looking for ways for you to survive. Promise me that you'll do it" she points to the second writing. "If it's the last chance you've got"

"I promise" i say before starting to walk towards the opposite side of the cave that we entered in.

"The way out is the other way y/n"

"If you want to climb, or you could just take the stairs with me"

"There were stairs down here this whole time and you pushed me down in a river" i laugh.

"Yeah, i needed the walk and it was fun" i place my hand on the rock and a golden gate appears, revealing a flight of stairs going back up into the castle.

"I hate you" she mutters, passing me up the stairs.

"No, you don't but keeping telling you that. Maybe then i'll trust you"

"What makes me not trustable?"

"You're Natasha's best friend, she will be your first responsibility, no matter what. You've never liked me, even though you've pretend to, but i know you have strong feelings for me. Maybe you even tried to, but you have actually never, for her" i stand in front of her, meeting her gaze. "And that is the only reason you're helping me, and why i'm letting you" i start walking again and when she starts to walk again too i say "That is the only thing we have in common and ever will, our need to put her first" and i don't mean to sound so harsh but if it keeps her in line from what fate brings, it's worth it.

Natasha pov

"You've been quote ever since we came back with Wanda. Are you sure that everything is okay?" i ask, afraid of the answer as i snuggle closer to Y/n. Not daring to meet her eyes. She hadn't talked to me, or anyone since we got back. Out of what's talked about daily.

"I... it's nothing" she answers, he voice empty. it was almost as if she was about to tell me something, but just then changed her mind.

"Sure everything is okay?"

"Yeah, i need to go" she says, quickly getting out of my grip and on her feet.

"Where? It's the middle of the night" i ask, somewhat suspicious since there is nothing to do until the morning.

"In this tower almost everyone is still awake

"I know, still. Where are you going?"

"None of your concern, i'll be back soon, i promise, just go back to sleep." she says, kissing my temple before heading out the door. As if i could go back to sleep. I've gotten so used to her body against mine that i don't think i CAN sleep without her. Maybe i should just tell her that i know about the curse. It's not like she's dying anyone soon anyway. It's just about how she dies and that'll be in years. That's what both Frigga and Loki said, that they were looking for a way for her not to leave, when it happens. But why wouldn't she tell me? I'm her wife after all. We're going on our honeymoon in two days, we're starting a life together and this is the start of forever.

That's it, i decide to get up and talk to her about it. her lies, the one thing she promised to never do again. Maybe once she knows i know, there won't have to be more secrets. That she was destined to die at some point shouldn't need to be such a big secret. We all die at some point, right?

"Friday, where is Y/n?"

"She's going back and forth between Helen's and Mr Starks workshop, Mrs Romanoff-Barnes" and when she calls me that it reminds me once again that i'm actually married to her.

I thank Friday and make my way down to Tony's workshop. Guessing that's where she is or will be any second. When i come down she's not there so i dot on one of the chairs to await her. Looking at the screens where there is a sketch of something, a mask of some kind. And it's not like the name of it revels what it is.

"Is everything okay?" Y/n asks from behind me and i jump out of the chair. "Sorry" she adds with an apologetic smile as she wraps her arms around me from behind. I turn around in her arms and almost forget what i came down here to do as she brushes her nose against mine before closing the gap between our mouths. It's not a deep kiss, not passionate, just lovingly and short. "So, what's on your mind?" she asks again, not baking away much but just enough to leek me in my eyes.

"What do you mean?"

"I told you to go back to sleep half an hour ago, and now you're down here"

"Yeah, i couldn't sleep" i avoid meeting her gaze as she lets her arms fall off me.

"Is something wrong?" she places a hand on my cheek to turn my face to meet her gaze.

"Everything is fine, i... i just can't sleep without you" i admit as my cheeks heat up.

"Then i'll come back to bed in just a few minutes" she says, turning to the screen. Starting to push a few buttons.

"Okay" is all i can say as i start to walk out and back to our room. Why couldn't i just tell her i know, it could all be so much easier. I crawl under the covers again of our room and just waits, no thinking, just waiting for her to come back. And she actually keeps that promise so i don't really have to wait long.

"Now, go to sleep моя луна и звезды" she whispers in my ear as i snuggle into the crook of her neck again. Feeling her body almost completely under my own. And even though she lied about something this big, i feel safe, it feels like home. My home. But my body betrays my mind and start placing soft kisses into her neck, lining down to her collarbone.