In the end, it's only us (Natasha x reader

Person from the past

Y/n pov

As soon as i get out on the bottom floor i collapse against the wall in tears. It feels like something is stuck in my throat, keeping me from breathing. Which is weird, since i don't need to breathe. No one is on the floor so no one can see or hear my sobs. It hurt her, i know it did, and i just walked away. She's right, gods how i hate when she's right, but she is. I don't need to run anymore, so why do i still feel the need to? It's something in my bones that screams at me to run as far away from here as possible, but my heart screams for me to stay by her. Conflicted feelings, good thing i usually listen more often to my heart. But it hurts, knowing i'm hurting her by not talking to her. I know everything about her, everything. I practically watched her grow up, and she knows nothing. Almost nothing about me, about my past, about my... struggles. And she still wants to be a part of that for eternity. What i told her on the roof is more than i've told anyone, why isn't that enough? I have found my home, but up there everyone was looking at me, not her. They were on her side, even Loki. I thought at least some would understand why i don't want to talk about it, why she shouldn't push me. But i don't need to explain myself to them, they're not my family. But they are her family... and she's mine. I hear a door open and i quickly get back up on my feet, wiping those tears and letting my red cheeks fade away.

"Hello?" a voice says, female, elderly. Like she's in her early seventies, maybe late sixties. "Is anyone there?"

"Can i help you?" i ask, appearing behind her, making her jump and put her hand over her chest. "I'm sorry, i didn't mean to scare you" i've put on a small smile. Like a customer service smile. Not reaching my eyes but still believable.

"It's fine" she says as she turns around. Her forest green eyes meet my red. Her long blond swaying over her shoulders in a braid. She's pale, but the kind of pale you become after not enough sun. Underneath the colour is more golden. She must have looked beautiful in her younger years... but i have seen her in her younger years. But that can't be, right? I told her specifically to never seek me out, that it would be too dangerous.

"I'm looking for a Wictoria, but her name is really Y/n Bennett" she says, giving me a black and white photo. It's my wedding day, with Daniel. I gave it to her... before i disappeared with Loki.

"How did you get this?"

"You gave it to me" she puts a smile on, her fathers smile, also putting her glasses on. A smile i only know because of the reality i was stuck in.

"If you were really Ingrid, then you wouldn't be here because i told her to never seek me out." i take a few steps towards her, making her step back. "Who are you?"

"I know you told me that, but it's me mama" she says but i still don't believe it. So i take her clothed arm and pull up the sleeve. Revealing the birthmark that made Daniels' golden arm stand out from the others. I don't even believe it as i see it. "I need your help"

"Go back to Sweden, whatever it is it's not worth causing the death of us all" but the tears shining in her eyes tell me differently.

"That time has already come, you're the only one i have left to turn to"

"What do you mean the only one left?"

"It's them, the people you told me about" the lump in my throat grows up again and throws itself into my stomach. "They took Diana"

"What? How did they find you? What did you do?"

"We were just on our way back from the hospital and... these men came up and the next thing i knew, she was gone" her voice breaks and i want to hug her, but i don't think i'll ever be able to let go.

"What were you doing at the hospital?" i hate to ask.

"She was getting an ultrasound, to see the sex of her baby" and my heart breaks even more at her words. "Please, help me"

"Okay, honey, i will help you" my body betrays my head and put my hands on her face, wiping away some of the tears. I let her eyes, his eyes, meet mine. "I will help you, we will get her back, i promise" My worst nightmare has just come true. The part of my past that i had kept hidden from everyone, including my own family, has started to crumble before my eyes. The thought Natasha said about them being too busy cleaning up after me, it was wrong. They went right out and looked for leverage, for a way to lure me somewhere, to do something. And i'm going to walk straight into their trap.

"I can't lose her" and i fall for it, pulling her into my embrace.

"You won't, i promise you. I will find her" she sobs into my shoulder and i hear how one of the cameras zoom in. I meet it and know Tony is on the other side of it. I take her out of my embrace and gestures towards the elevator. "Come one, i have people who can help"

"I just want to find my daughter"

"So do i, but if they really are Hydra, then we're gonna need my team" they're not my team, something i've been saying multiple times, but i don't care right now. This is my granddaughter on the line... and great grandchild. It feels weird, still being 27 and on the way to becoming a great grandmother. And to think that i don't even care now that they all will know exactly what she wants me to talk about, the things i refuse to talk about.