In the end, it's only us (Natasha x reader

She's like me

Y/n pov

"Miss Barnes, they have returned" Friday's voice echoes throughout the tower. "They wish to meet you in the bedbay"

"Give me a lift?" Sam asks so i extend my hand to him and in the next second we're at the door of the medbay.

"What happened?" i ask, entering the room. Everyone is intact, except for a few scratches and bruises. Nat, Tony Wanda, Clint, Bucky, Steve, Thor and Loki, i count them all in my head. Even Loki came with, but not me.

"She got caught in the crossfire and her eyes were..." Tony continues talking but everything goes blurry as i see who's laying on the bed. Her bright blond hair with the misscolouring of blood, her pale skin and even though her eyes are closed i can see the bright red in them. I didn't think anyone else had survived the process. I thought i'd seen her in Japan in 67' but i just thought i hallucinated that. That it was just a daydream. Wishful thinking.

"You know her?" Someone asks, referring to me just standing there still and staring.

"She was... in the program with me, she..." i let out a deep breath, coming up beside the bed to take her hand in mine.

"The Lamia project? The one that made you?" Sam asks, proving he actually listened to my answers. I nod and he understands, only him. "Does that mean she's like you?"

"Yeah, she's like m..." just as i'm about to explain, she jerks up. Everything moves slow as i see her notice everyone else, preparing to attack. But i stand in her way, blocking her. I let my own blood read eyes meet hers, and it scares her into falling back and backing up in a corner. "Maybe you should leave, let me talk to her" i say and to my surprise, they listen. Even though i can feel that Natasha wants to stay, Sam takes her out. He knows, understand how it can end.

"Hey, hey, hey, it's okay, it's me, it's Y/n" i say, moving closer to her with my hands up. To show her i mean no harm.

"No you can't be, you're dead. I watched you die" she says with tears, but her voice is cold and sharp. I didn't know she was watching that day, that they forced her to watch.

"I made it, just like you. I'm here Mia, i'm really here"

"How?"

"I woke up in the morgue in Queens, but i'm here Mimi. Remember, i used to call you that" she puts her hands on cheeks to see if i'm really real. I'm close enough that she can do that without moving.

"It's really you" she says, and i pull her into a hug sitting on the floor. I feel her smiling against my shoulder. I take her out of it and meet her searching gaze.

"Where have you been all this time?"

"After they realised it had worked on you, they did the same to me and waited. I really thought you were dead. When this Armana chick blew up the compound we escaped. But when i got there, you weren't there anymore" i feel a tug in my heart as i had helped them, by blowing up that compound.

"Where did you search for me?"

"The hospital, then i followed you to germany"

"I had fled by that time, i was in Switzerland by then. But i'm so glad i helped someone by leveling that place to the ground"

"You're Armana?" her eyes tell me that she's heard the stories of Armana, of me. All the terrible things i've done and has been forced to go through.

"I was" i answer, brushing some of her hair out of her face.

"God i've missed you, it feels like forever" she pulls me in for a kiss, and for a moment i'm about to let her, but i don't. I pull back and she looks at me with questions in her eyes. "Is something wrong?"

"It's been seventy years Mia"

"And? We told each other we'd love each other forever"

"But i thought you were dead... so i moved on" she signs an 'oh' as she also realises the ring on my finger. "I do still love you, but i can't love you in that way anymore"

"Queene, we have to leave again, are you good here? I'll leave Nat so that you two can talk" Steve says, just passing by outside the room.

"Yeah, sure" i call back, hearing him walk back upstairs to the others. I put on a smile and get on my feet, giving her my hand. "Come, let's get you something pure to eat. You look like you're starving"

"Thanks" she says and next we're in the kitchen. I must admit that it's nice to have someone else that can do more of what i do. I take out what's left of the pizza and put on some of the leftover blood bag in the oven. But even for her i hide my wrist, because she would know in an instant.

"Y/n, can i speak with you? In private" Natasha asks, entering the kitchen. Not giving Mia a second glance.

"Can we do that later, i have to get her something to eat"

"No, now"

"Yes ma'am then. Loki, can you look after her" i say, knowing full well Loki was hiding in the shadows.

"Dammit, sure i'll do that" he says, appearing on the side counter.

"I know he looks good but please don't empty him out, Asgardian blood is quiet good" i say under my breath, so that only Mia can hear it. Before Natasha drags me out and into a soundproof conference room.

"Why in here?" i ask.

"Because i don't want her listening"

"You can trust her, she's cool"

"How do you know her?"

"I told you, we were in the program together"

"Who was she to you?"

"So that's what this is about? You're jealous"

"NO, i'm not. I was just wondering" she has some anger lingering in her voice but i don't think twice of it.

"She was my first" i sign.

"First what?"

"First woman i've ever been with"

"And you still care for her?"

"Absolutely, we went through hell together and there are only a handful of people like us out here" i see the jealousy she's trying to repress. "But i'm no IN LOVE with her anymore"

"She sure seemed to be in love with you"

"Then i feel bad for her, because i'm taken" for a slight second there is a smile on the corner of her lips. "I will say this over and over again for the rest of our lives" i take a dramatic pause, taking her cheeks in my hands. "I... Love... You"

"I love you too and i'm sorry, i just... i want you to myself" and the thing she doesn't say. She's afraid of anything that could take me away from her.

"And soon you'll have me all to yourself" at least for a short period of time. I take her in my arms and kiss her deeply. I can never grow tired of her taste. But we're interrupted by the beeping of the open in my ears.

Natasha pov

"Sorry, i have to go" she says with a pout, still with her hands around my waist.

"That's fine, i'll join you in a few minutes" i say as she withdraws her hands and heads out the door. Why am i so overwhelmed with jealousy over that Mia? I know she loves me, or else she won't be marrying me, right? Or did she move it because she has something to hide? She don't have anything she's hiding from me, right? Right. Why am i even questioning that?