A life with you

One step to get to you

Y/N's POV

I thought things were going to change after Lizzie's speech I know she thinks I didn't listen or that I was probably going to forget everything but I did listen and fortunately I didn't forget it but she said she was going to change and that she was going to make me feel chosen but it seems like she has no longer interest in that. I found out that Robbie was in our house because of a video they posted in their books Instagram account, they were showing their book but I still don't like the idea of they being alone in our house

I didn't pay attention to it, I know is for her book and I don't think she would do something with him in our own house, okay but we are kind of on a break so what if she thinks we can see more people, I mean we never said we couldn't, but I don't think is a good idea, shit I should have told Lizzie that this was a break but even if we are on a break if we are with someone else is cheating, I mean I think is cheating

I was thinking too much about this so I decided to wake up my beautiful baby boy, I know Lizzie will be with Robbie today so I need to keep my mind busy and not think about them "Hi baby boy, are you ready to have a fun day with mama" I asked him as I took him from his little bassinet "Let's go downstairs and feed you" I said as I walked downstairs "Morning mom" I greet my mom who is cooking breakfast "Ethan's formula is done" she said as she hands it to me "Thanks mom"

I feed Ethan while I talk with my mom about Lizzie, I think now is a good time to tell her why I also leave "I don't feel chosen by Lizzie" I told her randomly making her confused "That's also a reason why I did what I did, she never chooses me, I'm the only one making sacrifices for her and I always wanted to feel chosen by her but that didn't happen, I think that for her everything is more important than me, and I don't want that, I want to feel important to her, I want to feel that I'm more important than everything for her, but I guess that wasn't going to happen with Lizzie" I explained her and she hummed at me

She stopped doing what she was doing and walked towards me "I know you have always had trouble feeling like someone really loves you and chooses you but you have to understand that Lizzie's career is so important and hard she can not leave it just like that for you to feel chosen" she said and I groaned "I'm not talking about just her job" I told her "Then tell me when hasn't she chosen you that doesn't include her job?" She asked

I'm thinking about it but I don't know why nothing is on my mind right now "Mom I don't know" I told her and she chuckles and continue cooking breakfast, now she thinks I'm lying. I know there must be something, I mean yeah maybe the main reason is because she always chooses her job over me but what about her book with Robbie she chose writing it even though it bothers me that she has to spend time with her ex, and I know is work but it's not her usual work but I wasn't going to tell her to not write the book with him, she seemed pretty excited about that so I wasn't going to tell her that I didn't want her to work with Robbie

I was watching Marvel while Ethan lays on my chest, I was showing him how amazing marvel movies are, we haven't get to Age of Ultron so he hasn't seen his mom on action, we are watching Iron man 2, I was enjoying my time with him, even though he was falling asleep. My phone started ringing making me groan, why is Clary calling me, I told her I was going to spend the day with my son

Me: Hi Clary what's up?

C: I know you said you didn't want to be bother but you also said you are going to be back

Me: Yeah what happened Clary?

C: You have to go to the courthouse there's a case you were working in and you also were waiting for the appointment in the courthouse and well you have to go today