My Dirty Sinner

Chapter 33: Seven Weeks

☆Kyara☆

Seven weeks, it's been. Seven weeks, three days, eight hours, twenty-five minutes, and seven seconds, since I last heard or saw Soul.

Watching him pull away and not look back, ripped my heart out. I was expecting him to come and knock down my door, and demand I go back to see Doc.

But no… I watched him round the corner, and a tear escaped my eye. I thought I knew pain, but that was unbearable. He took my heart with him, and the thought that I'd never see him again… I decided I wanted to stay.

I needed to see him before I left and tried to find my way home. I needed to know what this was between us or if it was all in my head. All one-sided. I knew I would regret leaving without finding that out. 

Celine came to see if I was OK and refused to tell me what they spoke about, other than him saying he wanted to know how everything goes with Doc and the re-breaking.

Well, It took me a week before I could deal with him touching me. I had help from my new little brother, though.

Doc's a really nice guy. We actually get on great now. He treats me like his kid sister.

After realising that he looked like someone from my traumatic past, the sweetheart that he is, he had his hair cut and styled in such a way that I don't see Jack when I look at him anymore. It really helped and made things easier, and we’ve had a few conversations since.

During one of the earlier conversations when I was getting comfortable around him, he mentioned how the prospect, which I've learnt means someone that wants to be officially called a Dirty Sinner, but isn't yet, called Ryder, who is now my new little brother, ran some self defence classes at the Y in Austin on Wednesday nights, if I was interested.

But it wasn't until the end of the week, after Gus said he wanted me to learn some self defense too, that I mentioned Ryder and that maybe he could teach me some when we were both free.

Both Celine and Katy-ann loved the idea, but it wasn't until Gus reassured me that he would be there the entire time, and that anytime I felt uncomfortable or wanted to stop that we would, that I fully agreed. Gus had Katy-ann set up a meeting with him and told me he would personally teach me a few things, too.

So the next night, Gus brought Ryder over for dinner, and Katy-ann made sure to show up.

We all sat around the table, Gus making sure to sit next to me, and keep Ryder the other end of the table so I didn't freak out.

But as soon as I looked up at him, he pulled a funny face with a wink, making me laugh. It reminded me of my younger brother's.

Gus smiled in relief and then asked Ryder if he would teach me and Katy-ann some basic self-defense skills. Katy-ann said she would happily learn some with me so that I wouldn't feel like an idiot, plus I needed a partner until I was comfortable with moves, to then practice them on Ryder.

He was only too happy to help out. In fact, he seemed overly enthusiastic about it. He suggested we have a quick session after dinner so he could see where we were and knew what he had to teach us.

The first time he threw a slow punch at Katy-ann, I whimpered and backed myself into the wall. I didn't know if I could do it. I was never able to fend off Jace or Jack, so I was freaking out.

He was great, though. He stopped straight away and said that he was going to start from the very beginning. When Katy-ann and Celine were heading back inside, and Gus was on a call, Ryder came over and sat down with me on the steps.

He told me a story about his high school sweetheart, how she was assaulted by her boss at work, and almost raped. But with the stuff they had learned together with one of the sports teachers at school, she was able to get herself out of that situation.