My Dirty Sinner

Chapter 69: Soul's And Mine

☆Kyara☆

I rummage through clothes until I find one of Soul's tops, and then I hurry back down the stairs to Ryder's room, bursting through the door.

"What the fuck!"

"Holy Shit!" I scream when Ryder sits up in bed and looks at me. "Ryder? What are you doing here? I thought you went with dad." I say, shoving my nose into the fabric of Soul's top.

"Naw. After walking you 'ome, I came back 'n' spoke to dad briefly before 'e left. I thought 'e was comin' ta speak ta you." He tells me, standing up and stretching.

"No. I went to have a shower and calm down, and when I went to ask mum where he was, she was asleep and he was nowhere. So I came back to work and… I didn't see you last night. Where were you?"

"I found me a girl, 'n' spent the rest a the night in 'ere. Di'n't realise  ya came back, otherwise I'd 'ave come out 'n' taken you 'ome." He says going over to the cupboard and pulling out clothes. "Why'd ya come in 'ere, anyway?" He asks, turning to me while pulling some jeans on.

"I-I wanted to use your shower q-quickly," I tell him, but thinking about why I want a shower brings the stutter out again. His eyes zero in on me once he has his top on.

"Sure ya can, but why? What the fuck 'appened? Did Jimmy -"

"No! I-I just… I need a quick wash is all." I tell him.

"Ky. I know when ya ain't bein' honest wi' me. I also know ya don't like ta lie, so you're sayin' nothin' is wrong when it clearly is! So what the fuck 'appened." He growls, taking my shoulders in his hands.

I want to tell him, but I don't know what they'll do if they find out. He told me not to go running to them, and he has someone on the inside if he can get to me anytime, anywhere. But if that's the case, why can't this person find out the information they want?

"It's nothing, I got spooked walking over here, is all. I felt like I was being watched." I tell him. I'm not lying, but I'm not being completely honest either. He stares at me, but I can't bring myself to look into his eyes, he will know. He knows me better than anyone here at the moment.

"Go take a shower. Ya gotta start trustin' me, Babygirl. Coz I can't -"

"I do trust you!" I state firmly.

"Then tell me what 'appened!" He snaps.

"I… I had a…" I'll have to lie, I don't see any other way around it, "I had a problem in the shop and got freaked out. It's nothing, just something that brought a memory up and I feel dirty. So can I use your shower now?" I ask, not looking at him.

"Sure. Ya don't need ta hide that shit from me ya know. Sometimes it's better ta talk things out. That or you can fight it out?"

"What do you mean?"

"I 'ave a class in Austin tanight if ya fancy comin' with? Ya can do the class or go see Jamie." He offered. I could do with seeing Jamie, I want to get more done to my hip tattoo.

"I'll let you know before you leave OK?"

"Ok. See ya in a bit then." He smiles and walks out the door. I run into the bathroom and turn it up full-blast, putting it on the hottest setting it will go, then I strip out of my clothes and scrub everywhere he touched me.

I feel much better once I'm done, so I get dressed, forego Soul's top now that I've calmed down, and then I head to the washroom to get working.
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I spend the day avoiding Soul, constantly looking over my shoulder, and keeping busy.

As I've been going from room to room cleaning up, I've looked through pockets, and any paper in view to see if I can find out anything about a shipment. Would help if I knew what sort of shipment it was. Alcohol? Bike parts? What!?