I Ain't Worried 'Bout It Right Now [BXB]{HANGMANXROOSTER}

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Rooster's POV
Before I go to sleep, I find the handbook for rules against us at Top Gun. I find what they could do to us if they found out we were in a relationship. I look at it and the rules say we will get kicked out of Top Gun and our pilot license suspended for a year. We could also get court martialed for it if we violate anything else. It can be used as an additional charge.

I say "oh god."

I let my nails graze his lightly freckled shoulders and I breathe Jakes scent in till it puts me to sleep.

The next day

Jake wakes up and I wake up at the same time and he mumbles "babydoll, I love you but you look like shit. Are you ok, doll?" I say "no, I need to talk to you." Jake says "am I in trouble?" I say "no. We have to be fucking careful is what I have to tell you. I looked into it last night because I was just overthinking and I learned that us could be used as an additional charge if we get fucking court martialed. If they find us out, we will get kicked out and our pilot licenses will be taken away for a year."

Jake mumbles "shit, what can I do?" I say "make sure people aren't suspicious of us at all cause I'm really panicking." He kisses me saying "you better not break it off with me if I do what I could do." I say "do whatever we need. Be the worst asshole you can be. I don't fucking care just make sure people stay off our asses. I don't know what to do."

Jake says "you have to trust me on this one cause it's gonna look pretty real and it's gonna feel real. You have to trust me that it's not real. Ok?" I say "I trust you. I love you and this seems really unnecessary but I really need it right now, so I don't go insane and do something I'll regret" quietly.

We get ready and go to class and we sit down. I mumble "just don't hit me." Jake mumbles "never." Maverick starts talking us through doing the drill that we did the other day and makes it as real as it can be, no making it easy today. I say "why are we doing it different today than the other day?"

Jake says "well, you see, if one doesn't fly like a crazy person like Maverick, a man doesn't come home, son. Am I the only one that knows that Maverick was the one flying the plane when his old man died? You don't want to end up like your old man, do you?"

Maverick says "enough" and I say "what the fuck is wrong with you?!" Jake says "face it, you aren't cut out for this mission. It's in your blood. It's destiny" with a smile on his face.

This isn't real but it really fucking hurts. The words are somewhat true. Not because it's coming from him. I know I can do it but if I end up dying on this mission, I'll forever think of myself as a failure. Jake will get over me but if I die, it'll definitely hurt me more than I hurt him because I don't want anyone to feel how my mom felt after my dad died.

I'd screw everyone over if I don't fucking come back and if I do that, I'd never forgive myself.

Pete says "take a walk, cool off" nodding Jake out to the hallway. I feel better in the worst way. Now I feel like Jake and I will never be a suspicion of anyone. I watch him leave and I let Pete carry on, Jake coming back about five minutes later.

I finish out the day and we all almost either hit the target or almost make the time. I go to my room and Jake is already there and he says "I'm sorry." I say "no, I feel better. Thank you." He says "I feel bad" and I say "I needed those words from someone that wasn't myself. It's ok. I still love you."

He looks at me and I say "Jake" and he mumbles "I love you too, babydoll but I will never forgive myself for that. That was lower than I ever thought I could go." I say "Jake. I love you so much I would fucking marry you right now."

Jake says "babydoll" and I say "I know what I say and I know what you say and I know when you are being serious. That wasn't real to me what you said earlier. It was all noise to me. If you were serious, you would've looked me in the eye and got right in my face and said it."

He bites his lip and says "like this?" Jake steps closer to me, his nose brushing mine, and he moves his hands into mine. He looks into my eyes through his eyelashes and I say "mmm, just like this" and he says "well, now I'm doing this to tell you I love you, babydoll." I bite my lip and I say "I love you so much."

He kisses me softly like he did the first time, careful he was doing something wrong. I mumble "how can I help you feel better, babe? You seem more torn up about it than me." Jake says "if you're ok than I will be ok too" and I smile saying "I love you."

He says "I love you too." Jake kisses my neck and we lay down just to cuddle together not going to do anything else for the rest of the night. I rest my head on his chest and I take a video of him, him saying "what?" I say "saving the moment, you look really good" poking his cheek. He says "I am good, doll face."

I say "and you ruined it." We chuckle and he kisses me, rubbing my chest. I say "ya know, you are the hottest boyfriend I've ever had." Jake says "you are the only boyfriend I've ever had." I say "therefore, I'm the hottest one" and we laugh, him saying "I love you, babydoll." I say "I love you too" chuckling and turning the video off.