I Ain't Worried 'Bout It Right Now [BXB]{HANGMANXROOSTER}

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Rooster's POV
I say "I'm not doing this again" and Jake says "why not, doll?" I say "Jake, I almost died not even two weeks ago. I love flying more than anything maybe even more than I love you but my god, I can't do a mission like that again. I'm gonna retire from doing missions like this. I can't do it anymore. It freaks me out just thinking about doing like what we just did."

Jake says "then what do you want to do, babydoll?" I say "just not this. This place just gives me anxiety from all the thin glass we walked on to get here. I still feel like I have to hide and I still feel like I'm gonna end up like my father. Jake, I don't want you to feel how my mom felt because she was never happy. It's like she was already dead in an alive body. After this I need a break before I even think about coming back here." Jake says "and you deserve that, babydoll. You do whatever you need to do for yourself. I'm here for you and whatever you need from me."

I say "I just wanted to put that out there for you but we have to figure out our after" quietly. Jake says "we are out of here in approximately two weeks. What do we want to do?" I say "eventually, a place of our own would be nice" us just sipping from the bottle. He says "I'm not coming back here if you aren't. Not for awhile anyway."

I say "I want to do something like I'm doing now but I want to be non combat." Jake says "that sounds like a great idea. I might do that too like we've done our eight years of active duty. We've done ten. We can do whatever we want now." I say "we're like really good. Why are we still lieutenants?" Jake says "let's go ask for promotions."

I chuckle mumbling "go bug Ice to make us commanders?" Jake says "yeah." We chuckle and he says "where do we want to live?" I say "we have to worry about the child we sent to your mom." Jake says "I'm thinking somewhere near my parents like within a three hour radius." I say "we have to take into consideration if it's safe for us with our relationship status to live there."

Jake says "we'll have to do some research." I nod, moving closer to him. I kiss my beautiful husband slowly and he mumbles "I love you." I say "I love you too." Jake says "as soon as we get back, we're gonna be parents." I sigh saying "that's crazy." We talk, finishing off the bottle of wine, and we eventually fall asleep.

The next day

I sigh, getting out of bed, and I get ready for the day. Shower, getting dressed, and just thinking. I do enough thinking for both Jake and I. Jake wakes up saying "mornin." I chuckle saying "good morning" when he smiles at me. He gets up and gets ready. I say "we actually have to be productive today."

Jake says "it's only say three, we'll be productive." I peck his lips when there's a knock on his door saying "I need to talk to you, Seresin!" I say "Jake, what the hell did you do?" He says "I don't think I did anything" and he walks out and goes to Cyclones office.

I mumble "fuck. What is happening?" I go out into the hallway and I say "what's Cyclone mad about?" One of the guys say "I think he's mad at you. I heard your name in his mouth." I say "Jake better hold out for me then. Let's get rolling, guys."

We all go to the classroom area and Cyclone comes in and I say "where is he?" Cyclone says "wow, no hello?" I say "answer my question. You have almost zero respect from me." He says "you're just like Maverick, you drive me up a fucking wall."

Jake comes back and practically body checks the admiral as the admiral walks out. I say "what the fuck just happened?" Jake mumbles "I can't do this right now." I say "babe" and he says "doll, I gotta take a break and just think."

I say "I was gonna tell you to go. We can talk later." He looks around then kisses me saying "love you." I say "I love you too" and he leaves. I say "ok, let's get rolling." I teach all day, them all leaving to eat dinner.

I jog to Jakes room and he's just asleep. I smile then I look around the room. I see a whiskey bottle pretty much empty on the bedside table. I sigh and I see Cyclone when I walk out of his room. The kids are in the hallway and I say "what the fuck did you say to him?!"

Cyclone says "we just had a conversation." I say "well, a fucking conversation doesn't make him like he is right now. What the fuck did you say?!" Cyclone says "I didn't say anything!" I say "oh bullshit, you better fess up or when he's sober he's gonna fucking kill you and you know he'd win that fight."

Cyclone says "I told him that the rule isn't going to be changed as long as I'm around." I say "stop lying! He wouldn't be down a bottle of fucking whiskey in under six hours because things didn't go his way. Let alone my way." Cyclone says "I told him you would be fucking done with all the consequences if he didn't tell you to leave himself."

I say "you've got to be fucking joking." Cyclone says "does it look like I'm joking?" I say "it seems like a fucking joke that you would think that would work." He says "what makes you think it wouldn't?" I say "my fucking god. I don't know if you've caught on but I'm not just married to anybody. My girlfriend doesn't fucking exist if you ever heard about her. Never did. That man is not fucking fragile. Stay out of our way and we'll stay out of yours."

I go to my room and I call Iceman and he says "hey, kid. Is he causing issues?" I say "yeah, can you put him on like paid leave or something?" Iceman says "Ill look into it and ask him about it" quietly and I say "ok" and I go to Jakes room.

Jake tiredly says "come here, doll." He opens his arms and I lay down, resting my head on his chest. I say "I hate that man." He rubs my back saying "about earlier." I say "babe, you are so torn up right now, I can wait." He says "I love you" and I say "I love you too" tiredly.