SOUR

'I love people i dont like'

milli.

I turn off my alarm before it rings. I've been up for three hours already, from a nightmare.

Todays the day where it happens. Where everything changes. It's harder waiting for it to happen rather than it happening unexpectedly. It almost makes me wonder if this is the right time, since we're not letting fate take its course.

I get out of bed and I put on jeans and a button up shirt under a brown sweater.

Luckily I have the meeting with Professor Young to keep my mind occupied. I grab my bag and I sling it over my shoulder.

"Bye Sora," I say even though she's asleep.

I make my way down the hall and I wait by the elevator. I check my watch to make sure I'm on time, and I tap my arm nervously.

As I wait someone suddenly appears next to me. I recognize that gloomy outfit anywhere.

"Good morning," I say to him.

Sunwoo rests his silver headphones around his neck. "I don't need a tutor." He says.

I kind of forgot about that. "I-I just told Professor Young I'd do it, I wasn't really paying attention to what he was saying."

"That's odd coming from you." He comments.

We get into the elevator and stand in silence as it slowly makes it s way to the ground floor.

We end up being early to the meeting and have to stand outside the classroom because the teacher is not here yet.

I take a shaky breath. All I can think about is what's going to happen tonight. My stomach is jumpy, and not in the excited way.

"Are you nervous or something? You look like you're about to cry." Sunwoo says.

His cold voice cuts through my thought, but it's actually comforting to stop thinking about it for a second.

"I'm not nervous." I answer. "Not about this, I mean."

There's a long pause and Sunwoo just stares ahead of us. "About what then?" He says.

"I think after tonight I won't be a virgin anymore." I blurt out.

"Oh." For a while I think that's all he's going to say, which is fair. But then he adds, "are you ready for that?"

Hearing someone else say that out loud is comforting. Like I'm not the only one still having to ask myself that at this age.

No. I'm not ready for that and everyone around me acts like it's no big deal so it shouldn't be for me. I shouldn't be this scared. He shouldn't be making me this nervous. But I am, and he is.

I never get to answer him because Professor Young jogs over to us, apologizing for being late. He unlocks the door and we step inside his classroom.

"So I'm sure you both know why you're here, and nobody's in trouble, I just want to make that clear." Professor Young says. "I just wanted to make sure that Sunwoo has the right resources to get help. You don't have to meet every week, just remember that you can ask Milli any questions."