SOUR

'And all i ever wanted was to be enough for you.'

milli.

My blood runs cold and my lungs forget how to breathe. I immediately begin to feel my vision clouded by tears. There's a white noise filling my ears, and I want to feel anger, and I want to scream and curse at them because I know this is the biggest betrayal they could have committed to me.

And yet all I can think is, where did I go wrong? I wasn't enough for him, and I wasn't enough support for her, so much so that they had to go to each other.

People have walked all over me my whole life. But I never minded, just in the name of being nice because I could assume that they were going through something hard in their personal life. I could justify people through the uncertainty of not knowing them.

But not this. This, I know. I know them and they knew me. I cant justify this one. I can't throw on a smile and pretend as if it's okay, and I'll forgive them some day.

I hear a sharp inhale. At first I think it's myself, remembering how to breathe. But it's Sunwoo, who's standing close behind me. That sense of realization that this isn't a nightmare, that I'm really here and this is actually happening, brings me back to the present.

I blink, and a tear rolls down my cheek. I don't bother swiping it away.

"Milli," Sora says first. "I-"

"Don't." that's the first time I've ever interrupted something. "Please leave." I say.

She can't even make eye contact with me. They both get up, finding their clothes in the dark and I just can't look at them. I can't believe they would want this for themselves. A few minutes of pleasure for both of them but years of pain for all three of us.

"Not you." I say to Mj.

He freezes and Sora moves past Sunwoo and I in the door.

"I'm sorry," She whispers on her way out. But that only makes me clench my fists harder.

There's a long silence, and Sunwoo still hasn't left yet, but I don't care. All I care about is Mj.

"Mills, can you just say something? You're freaking me out." Mj says.

"You want me to say something?" I ask. "I don't know if you want that."

"Just... please. I'm sorry, I didn't plan for this, it-it just happened, I thought- I mean, she was the one-"

"Don't put this all on Sora." I say firmly. "It takes two people to cheat."

"I know, that's not an excuse, I'm just... I'm so sorry." He says. I wait for him to finish, but he's already done. What more is there for him to say?

"You said you would never hurt me." I say, my voice is shaky, and I wish it wasn't. "You said no matter what you would never hurt me, you promised."

Mj looks at the floor. There are so many things I want to say. So many memories I want to bring up when he hurt me and I brushed it away. The times I dropped everything to be with him and I put my trust in him. There's too many things I want to yell at him for, but they all get messed around in my head and I can't articulate the correct words.

He takes my silence and he asserts himself over it. "And what about you?" He asks.

I lift my eyes to see him. He no longer looks guilty. He looks angry.

"What about me?" I ask defensively.

"Don't think I didn't notice you, cozying up to that emo, whatever his name is." Mj says.

I hear Sunwoo shift behind me, as if he might leave. I don't want him to go. I'm scared I might give up, and I need him here even if he's just standing there.