SOUR

'Your friends are mind you know, i know'

sunwoo.

As soon as I had seen those tears building up in Milli's eyes I fill with slight panic, and a little guilt. It's not that I actually care, it's just that it took me by surprise.

I'm tempted to look back as I'm walking away, just to see if she's still there. But I resist the urge. I've always been the one looking back first, caring for people when they've hurt me.

By people I mean one person.

My stomach cringes at the thought of my abrupt exit when I saw Sola. They look good. Like a couple from a movie.

And I'm happy for her, I really am. But I can't make this feeling in my gut go away. It still pains me to see them.

When I get back onto campus my phone rings. It's my mom, so I turn it back off and shove it deep inside my pocket. The one good thing about university is that I can ignore my past all I want.

I get back into my dorm room and I open the mini fridge and take a can of beer out. I sit at my desk and put my headphones on, putting together beat remixes until it drowns out the rest of my thoughts. 

I just need to keep forgetting.

milli.

I cant stop thinking about that day. It's been a bit less than a week since I last saw Sunwoo and I nearly cried in front of him. Everytime I want to go talk to him he disappears, and also I'm busy recently.

They're planning a Fall Formal and this is my chance to really step up and show them how good at planning I can be.

My friends and I are studying in the common area in our dormitory building and I'm looking at Pinterest boards for the formal.

But my mind wanders.

'We loved each other in different ways.'

"Mills." Sora calls my name and I bring myself back to the present.

"Sorry what did you say?" I ask.

"Jacob and I were asking what the color scheme is for the dance," sora smiles.

"I'm suggesting shades of brown and red, what do you guys think?" I ask.

"That sounds nice!" Jacob says.

"I agree, I think they're going to be practically begging you to join the committee next year too," sora says.

"Thanks." I say to her. I usually like planning get together a like this, but I have a bad headache today.

"How's it going with you know who?" Sora asks.

"Who?" Jacob asks.

"Jacob, turn away for a second will you?" Sora asks.

The sweet boy does as she says and continues reading.

"Honestly I haven't seen him in a while now, I don't have his number yet either." I say.

"Oh, you know what we should do? We should hang out as a group! It'll be easier then." Sora suggests.

"O-okay, sure." I say.

"Did you know he lives on our floor?"

"Really?" I ask, with slight fear. Sunwoo seemed like he never wanted to talk to me again. I don't blame him, because technically, I only approached him for Sora.

"How about tonight?" Sora asks. "Tell him to meet on the rooftop for some drinks and late night snack."

"I don't have his number, how am I supposed to tell him?" I ask. "We could get together just our group though! you know, me, you, Jacob, and everyone else."