Hi, my name is Nicola Smith and if you're reading this, there is a high chance I'm dead. Dead due to the stupid plan of my kidnapper. Who would have thought it? Not me, I didn't think it would happen when we came up with the plan.
No one would believe the feelings of love between our two bodies and that's what put me into this situation.
While I was reporting on the said gang mentioned in this book I was also writing this book. It's all real. It all happened. The feeling shown and stories you may be reading going "that didn't happen" it did. The whole project- the whole book sorry- was unknown to the main four until my final days.
It was something that had been planned for ages with me and K and as much as she hated it, I needed her to be the cause; she would be forgiven and not hunted down. They wouldn't have mowed down a whole gang for revenge, maybe hate her for a bit but she's their family. It won't change that.
I didn't want to be saved, I don't want to be saved. This was needed.
The gang became my life after spending a while with the four and I couldn't imagine leaving and them leaving them possibly for dead. Which led to me to this decision that costed me my life. K thank you so much for this. I didn't think you would go through with it but this was needed.
M if you're reading this, one thank you for publishing it, my dying wish. Who knew that this tatty pink notebook would hold this deep within its pages. Everything I spoke was true, my feelings towards you everything. I couldn't believe the life you dragged me into but I also never wanted to leave it in a stupid way, hence why I sacrificed myself for you. Sorry if I in anyway outted your gang but considering I never used your actual name, I think you'll be fine.
L you were always there for me and I applaud you for that even when M would beat you for disobeying him for proper stupid reasons even if it was to just give me five minutes of light in my somewhat dark life. I hope you and the boys are well and don't hold onto me, don't let them hold onto me. I don't deserve it.
A where do I even start. Hopefully the other two mentioned are fine and thriving as much as they can. You always scared me but was also one of the softest I've experienced and encountered in my life despite the job you hold high. You never took any shit and I appreciate that and you. Thank you A. I wish I knew more about you; wish our story started a different way and not due to jealousy of me being with your mate. There was always tension that with more time I wish we could have crushed.
And finally C, thank you for everything. Thank you for getting Ms head out his ass and wishing us the best. I'm sorry it had to be this way, I'm sorry I never fully got to experience you as an older brother and me your annoying little sister. Who knew ey? Them boys are your family now and forever and I'll always be with you. Look after them and they'll look after you, don't hold this against anyone, tell mom I forgive her for how she treated me, I understand it all fully.
I'll always be with all of you.
The police that were fed bullshit and openly told me to my face I was lying, fuck you. You can't do anything to me anymore, why? Because you aimed for me. You aimed for the the innocent person who was dragged into this terrible world. You never saved me but destroyed me more then the previous four did and that's my message to you. My blood is on your hands. I was your sister and niece and you let me walk into this, unprotected. You caused this.
It's time to go, the battles going to begin in an hour and we have to travel to the area. The area where all our lives change drastically.
It's seriously time to go I hear M calling and L walking down the corridor to my room.
Goodbye world, goodbye family. See you soon.
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Nicky, my love, my one and only, I know you told me to finish it, to finish and publish this but I couldn't. I struggled to put into words my true feelings but I didn't want this to just die with you hence this part.
Your words were beautiful to read and your voice was beautiful to hear. I will forever kick myself over the fact I ruined your life for you. And I know you would argue with me over that fact and I miss the fact you aren't here to but it's true. I made you leave way to early.
You were good for all of us and because of you me and the boys have all changed; heck I mean L sat down with me the other day and told me to not kill myself. How crazy is that!
I always had images of you in a cocaine coloured wedding dress dancing through our house the night of our wedding. Now it's just the ghost of you around here. I couldn't leave I still live in the house blinded by the idea you may walk through the door to me again.
Fuck I don't want to get older without you here but I know you would want me to so I have to. Doesn't make it hurt any less. You gave me the best years and we grew together drastically, me more then you but I don't mind that anymore. I loathed change absolutely hated it but you changed all that but now you won't see the result of that.
I will forever love you,
Love your M.C
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A single bullet // M.C ✔️
FanfictionA renowned reporter is entrusted with the task of reporting on the most notorious gang in New York, and perhaps even the world. Naturally, one might wonder what could possibly go wrong. Honestly, there are so many potential pitfalls. Just agreeing t...
