Falling For You

Hospital Talk

Sara's P.O.V

What does that even mean? Like how can it be solely my fault that I made out with:

1) my boyfriend

2)LUKE WHO IS ALSO ROSIE'S BESTFRIEND AS MINE

Getting mad at me like that, is such, it's so hypocritical! He's getting mad at me for doing the exact same thing. I can't believe this! I love him so much, I care for him so much but if this is how he truly is. I can't be apart of it. Is this him?

I go to Rosie's room hot tears in my eyes. Maybe this is what it's like to be always crying like Rosie. It honestly kinda feels nice, I mean getting emotions out. I open the door to see her, MY best friend, the best friend I did betray. I know she likes him, but she just broke up with a boyfriend she loved! I mean 4 years!! How was I suppose to really know that she really thought she could go somewhere with him. I'm so mad she never told me but I never asked either. When she started dating Alex she asked me first before she even responded to him. And I just went out with Luke in the middle of the night and made out with him. She didn't even know.

"Hey Rosie? I really just, I'm so sorry. Luke's right, I betrayed you, I shouldn't have done anything! And now you're in the hospital. I can't believe I didn't answer my stupid phone. If I just answered I could've been here through the operation, I could've held your hand. I could've been a real friend. Rosie....I'm so sorry" I said breaking down into a pool of tears. It's true I'm so sorry for all I've done to her. And to Cody, the day, hours after breaking up with him I go and make out with Luke. How could I ever be so stupid.

"Sara...it's okay." I hear a deep voice say.

I walk further into the room to see Luke starting to stand up from the chair he was sitting in in the corner of the room.

"She's sleeping, just went down. They've been giving her some sleeping pills. Turns out having an operation like she did kinda messed up her sleeping patterns. But you know Rosie if she doesn't fall asleep the exact same time every night she's messed up for weeks." He said breaking into a slight laugh.

"Oh...sorry. I'll just go then. If she wakes up tell her I stopped by." I replied turning around to head out the door.

"No...please stop. Look at me. I shouldn't have said that! That was uncalled for. I just, dating you I realized it is a person like you I want but it isn't you. It's Rosie. I just took too long to figure that out. I mean you're the type of girl I usually go for, but Rosie. She's everything I need. I need you too, as my friend, my best friend, but not my girlfriend. I-do you understand what I mean?" Luke said slowly walking towards me shaking.

"Y-yeah...I do. I understand completely actually. It's like with Cody he's what I go for usually but I just didn't feel like I needed him. That's where you come in. I felt like I needed you Luke. You were always there for me. You bloody helped me home dude! When it would've been so much easier to just leave me there, drop me off at the police station to get my sobered up. That's when I knew I wanted you Luke. I wanted to know what it was like to date you, to have you care for me. To have someone actually care for me other than a friend. But I get it, we just aren't meant to be. I'm happy you found someone you feel that from. I'm sorry it wasn't me" I said full tears streaming down my face. I could see black rolling down the side of my cheek. Mascara. I knew I should've warn the waterproof kind.

Luke grabbed the tissue box and handed me a Kleenex. He had tears starting to collect in his eyes.

"I-I never knew. I just thought we were casual. I never knew that Sara! I'm so sorry, but I can't change the way I feel. It's best we just move on." He said putting the box back down on the food tray for Rosie.

"I know. Let's just be here for Rosie from now on okay?" I said as we sit in silence.

Luke's P.O.V

I can't believe what jerk I am. I just hurt her. Just because I don't feel romantic love for her doesn't mean I don't feel any platonic love. Spending time with her these past few weeks have been so great. I finally found someone I click with as a friend. A friend I wouldn't mind spending days and days with on end. And I just broke her. She's sitting here, right in front of me crying her eyes out. She may be doing so silently but that doesn't change the fact I can see the mascara rolling down the side of her cheek like a waterfall. She really is pretty, I know so many guys that would love her! Even with her black streaked cheeks. I just don't understand why it isn't me. Really we're meant to be, it all makes sense. Yet here I am, sitting next to my other best friend's hospital bed feeling my heart pounding so hard I swear it'll pop out of my chest. Good thing we're at a hospital then.

Sara's P.O.V

"Look Luke, I need to go... just if she wakes up, when she wakes up please just tell her I was here. We can be friends I just...we need some time apart okay?" I said.

"Yeah, I will and please don't...I-we don't need a break from each other. Please don't." Luke said, I can feel his heart breaking. Or is it just mine breaking more seeing his face so sad, his dimples falling.

'"Maybe." I said.