Gibbs drops his gun and looks at his fiancé. Blood pours from her body. He spots both places where she is shot and starts unbuttoning her blouse. As he unbuttons it, he notices the black bulletproof vest. "Wait, but why is there blood?" Gibbs thinks to himself.
He starts to take off the vest and he finds the answer to his question. "Is she okay?" Nick asks as he and the rest of the team surround the couple. "No. One of the bullets punctured her vest and shot her in the chest," Gibbs replies as he checks her pulse. It is faint but it's still there.
He takes off his jacket and uses it to keep pressure on Jack's chest. "I called an ambulance so they'll be here soon," Ellie says. Gibbs checks his fiancé's pulse again but this time, there wasn't one. He starts giving her CPR.
Sirens blare in the distance. "Come on, Jack. I can't lose you. I don't know how I could ever live without you," he pleads and a tear - the first one that the team has ever seen from Gibbs - falls down his face.
He continues the CPR, crying and pleading. Blood resumes rushing from Jack, coating the floor. Soon, Gibbs is covered in his fiancé's blood but he didn't care and just kept giving her CPR.
Suddenly the door flings open and police officers and EMTs flood the living room. "Sir, get off of this woman and let us help her," one of the EMTs say to Gibbs. He gets up and walks out of his house. He sits on the front steps of his porch and starts to think.
"I should've protected her. I should've gotten in the way of the bullet. I should've saved her. This is all my fau-" Vance sits beside him and it stops his thinking. "This isn't your fault, Gibbs. You did your very best-,"
"And it wasn't enough,"
"But that's all you can do. You can only do your best. Yeah, it wasn't good enough but don't beat yourself up over it,"
"I told her that I'd protect her. I can't believe that I really thought I could. I couldn't protect Shannon and Kelly,"
"Shannon and Kelly weren't your fault. You were out serving your country,"
"What good is serving my country and being an NCIS agent if I can't even protect the ones that I love?"
"Gibbs, this isn't your damn fault! You need to stop blaming yourself and beating yourself up over everything! You can't control what others choose to do. Your best is all you can do, god damn it!"
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Deck the Halls - A Christmas Special
Romance*SUICIDE, PTSD & ABUSE AWARNESS* Jacqueline Sloane and Jethro Gibbs have always had a connection. They've always clicked. They viewed the world very similarly and they were just so alike in many ways. Neither had ever admitted it but there was a spa...
