Fix you

Cap. 21: How do I deal with this?(NSFW)

Fuck. He knew he had fucked up big time. He was so shaken by the story he was telling that actually stopping his mouth was something that he didn't consider.

Now he'd said it, he cannot take it back, and useless to say Brett was in shock.

He'd be lying if he swore that he had never thought of the possibility of one of them catching feelings, but thinking about their past experiences he would have guessed that Eddy was the one to fall for last.

He said to Eddy that he would have thought about it and he was actually doing it. Eddy, lover or not, had become such a big part of his life with the imprinting, their encounters and the denounce, so turning him down immediately without even thinking about Eddy's feelings was way too cruel. They both agreed on the fact that if Brett wanted things to remain that way, they would have kept them that way, but of course a layer of awkwardness would have been there after such a revelation.

Meanwhile the gala was getting closer and just the day before it they should have had an encounter. And among all the thoughts crowding his mind he was able to come up with a request that maybe would have been able to help him out in his decision.

Brett: "Can you make love to me like you would with a lover?"

He asked a little embarrassed as they sat side by side on the bed. At the first the question sounded like it didn't actually come out his mouth

Brett: "...I guess it can help me clear up my mind..."

He tried to justify himself. There was a part of him that knew it was cruel to ask Eddy this but it was also a way for him to see how hard Eddy's feelings were. He would have of course stopped having sex with him if Eddy preferred having an answer, but he felt like asking was permitted

Eddy: "Yeah I guess it can help..."

Brett: "If it's too much for you and you prefer waiting to have sex till my answer..."

He was feeling nervous like it was their first time again. What if this would have been the last nail in the coffin for Eddy, or what if it would have been such an experience to stir his own guts to the point of not cleaning up his mind but just having way more doubts?

Eddy: "No...it's just...I appreciate that you're actually thinking about it...thank you"

It was so sincere and yet so startling listening those words. He was the one that didn't reciprocate, he was the one making Eddy suffer he didn't deserve a thank you.

Brett: "There's no need to thank me...after all that we've been going through I bet I'm the one that needs to thank you"

Eddy let out a bitter laugh and sighed deeply.

Eddy: "Shall we begin?"

Brett: "Sure...you have total lead then"

Like there were millions of sparks going up and down his spine he waited nervously for Eddy's first touch.

Eddy nodded while gulping the saliva in his mouth. This was his occasion to make Brett understand what it really meant to have Brett in his life, he was not gonna waste it.

He started slowly by tilting Brett's head with just two fingers under his chin and gave him a chaste peck. He continued with innocent kisses until eventually he parted his lips slightly and licked gently Brett's upper lip making him part his as well. Always so softly he inserted his tongue in his mouth and deepened the kiss little by little. In the meantime, he pushed the man down on the matrass, while holding his neck with the free hand to make his head land safely on the pillow.

When Brett was fully laying down, he moved his lips trailing them softly but leaving marks all over Brett's neck. As he arrived at the neck of Brett's shirt he slid his fingers under the fabric, pushing it up his abdomen and exposing little by little the pale skin. When the shirt was fully removed, he proceeded in removing his own too and bent down once again massaging with his fingers Brett's nipples, while leaving other marks on the pecs. When they were both a little swollen but not pulsing, he caressed the skin down till the waist band and carefully removed the trousers and the underwear. To be equal he quickly removed his own and returned on the bed. Without forcing he opened Brett's legs and kissed down his thighs until he was fully nestled with his head near Brett's length. He was happy to notice that Brett was hard too.