Kazimir Seasons

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After leaving his house I sit in my car to calm my nerves. Betrayal was a feeling I didn't expect to come from him. He was plotting behind my back while I stood next to him crying in his arms.

Stupid, that's was what I was to him nothing more. I'm sure he thought about the best ways to make fun of me.

I ignored the cop car that was sitting outside my house. I entered the house making my way upstairs, Autumn is next door with nana.

This has been one crazy ass day.

After crying in the shower I did something I haven't done in a while and that was praying. I was losing myself all over again.

I wake the following morning feeling like shit. I quickly brush my teeth as I wash my face. I had no energy for today not even a little.

I had to break the news to River family and my daughter. The first time she took it well. I explained how someone we go to sleep and never wake up again because our souls transfer to the other side of the world.

The other side is a place they can find peace forever, and let their soul rest and it's our job to make sure he says a proper goodbye.

Good or bad their soul went to rest and they are anywhere. The best way I can explain to a kid is that her father surely didn't make his ass to heaven.

As soon as I step outside my eyes widen, a pink Mercedes G Wagon is outside my driveway with a big pink bow on it.

I love eyes with the police officers who were watching for my reaction. My heart skipped a beat. This car was so beautiful and pink.

I walked over, eyeing it up and down hiding my smile but this was so beautiful and cool. And pink was my favorite color.

"Is this for me?" I asked as the office passed me a note. "This was on the car, it has your name on it," one of them says passing it over to me.

"To Summer, sorry here is something that can move on the road.
- Kazimir Laurent"

I smiled in shock as I beam in excitement. But why though my child's father used to give me a gift to Distract me from what happened?

I can't excuse his behavior, I didn't understand Kazimir as if our soul had a calling, or did it?

Was it even meant to be if he had to force us to be together?

It pained to me how I was the happiest with him and felt so safe. To feel comfortable in someone's darkness was a whole different leave I don't think I was ready to understand.

This sucked as we sat at the edge of a small lake, me and Autumn sat quietly for a while as she cried. I'm always making the wrong choices as a mother.

My mother was right. I was a kid having a kid of my own. Some stuff I'll just have to pick up along the way as a mother.

"I'm sorry you even had to see that baby, and I that I put you through that it's not okay it's never okay for a boy to touch you okay," I said wiping my tears.

"It's okay mommy," she said, hugging me.

"No baby, it's not okay. It's never okay,"

"Daddy was so mean to you sometimes," she said as my heart shattered into millions of pieces.

"I know my love, I'm so sorry please forgive me?" She nods her head as she smiles at me.

"It's okay mommy, I'll keep you safe. He is gone now it's okay," she said, wiping my tears away.

"Don't be sad mommy, don't cry baby," she said sitting on my lap as she used her shirt to help me wipe my tears away.

I wouldn't trade this little girl for the world no matter what. She was the only thing in my life who told me I made the best choice of keeping her.

"Thank you, baby," I said, letting out a low chuckle as I kissed her forehead.

"My brave girl,"

I whispered, kissing her cheek as she giggled. "Can we go in the pink car again I love it," she beams standing up.

I get up and I take in a breath, we were going to be okay we had each other. As we walk up to the car on this breezy afternoon.

A handsome tall figure is leaning against his expansive Mercedes Maybach. Dressed in a black dress shirt three of his top bottoms were unbuttoned.

He was holding a bouquet and pink skittles in the middle shade in a heart form. "Mr.meanie," Autumn takes off running to him as I run after her.

"Thank you I love it," she said taking the bouquet out of his hands. "You welcome, " he said with a soft tone.

The headlight was bright I use my hands as a form of shield to look up at him. "Thank you for the car and the other thing," I said, squinting my eyes.

"Anything for you two," he looks down at me. I think that what I appreciated about Kazimir it was both me and Autumn or nothing.

He doesn't mind going the extra mile to make sure we was happy and I admire that about him. "One last time I have to give to you guys, and I don't care if you don't speak to me again Summer. But just trust me on this pleases," he said reaching his hand for mine.

I knew a liar and he was mostly one, there is no way he doesn't care if I didn't speak to him again. I'll be lying to myself I said I didn't mind not speaking to him again.

"Sometimes in life you gotta take a risk I took one it's time you take one. Do you trust me?" He asked.

I look at his large hand as I breathe in the air I look at Autumn who's standing next to his driver as they eat up a bag of candy.

I place my hands in his palms. If this was a way of selling my soul to him I think I just did that.

"But what do you want from me, Kaz?" I asked it's an important question. I just gambled with my life in his hands.

"I want your soul Summer, I want it to bleed for me when we're apart, that's all I'm asking for," he said as he laced our hands together.
•••

I took the risk he offered and it led me to a plane with my little girl no nothing, no clothes to pack us. I found myself looking over the window so many times.

He didn't join us. Now I want to understand why.

"Right over here Ms.Falls," a man said, guiding me and Autumn off the private plane. A plane that had his name writing in big italics.

Of course he had his own airline.

We hopped off the plane and got onto a black SUV that drove us up a road that was in sand form. Wild trees, big ocean waves making noises.

The air was even clear and nice to breathe in. The summer breeze was captivating. I and Autumn stuck our hands out the window to feel the old outside air.

A bother man opened our door as I lashed at the beautiful mansion in the front. It was on the top of a hill. "Wow," I repeated over and over again as we got a tour.

"Mr.Laurent left this later in your name. Enjoy Ms.Falls if you have any requests and I mean anything please let us know and will make it happen, enjoy," Javi said who was the host. I honestly did even know what he did; he was just cool at whatever he was doing.

"Dear Summer this island is written in your name, everything on this land is left for you to do as you wish, I'm sure you'll take some amazing photos here they even have an ice cream shop nearby. There are a couple of locals here. Peace was all I ever wanted for you, enjoy a ma chéri."
Mr.Laurent

I soak in the letter as I breathe in the cool air. Autumn was so happy as she played with the dog I'm sure belongs to Javi.

Peace? No man has ever just wanted to give me pace let alone an island of my own and a pink car. Who was ever going to top this?