Ryeji GXG Oneshots

Ryujin X Yeji - Home

POV | Ryujin

My fingertips stroke the guitar strings so gently.

"I don't wanna talk right now,"

I pause, "I just wanna watch TV"

"I'll stay in the pool and drown, so I don't have to watch you leave"

"I put on Survivor just to watch somebody suffer, maybe I should get some sleep"

"Sinking in the sofa while they all betray each other, what's the point of anything?"

"All of my friends are missing again, that's what happens when you fall in love"

"You don't have the time"

"You leave them all behind"

"You tell yourself it's fine"

"You're just in love"

"Don't know where you are right now"

"Did you see me on TV?"

"I'll try not to starve myself, just because you're mad at me"

"And I'll be in denial for at least a little while"

"What about the plans we made?"

"The internet's gone wild watching movie stars on trial, while they're overturning Roe v. Wade"

"Now all of my friends are missing again, 'cause that's what happens when you fall in love"

"You don't have the time"

"You leave them all behind"

"And you tell yourself it's fine"

"You're just in love"

"And I don't get along with anyone, maybe I'm the problem"

"Maybe I'm the problem"

"Maybe I, maybe I, maybe I'm the problem"

"Maybe I, maybe I, maybe I'm the problem"

"Maybe I, maybe I, maybe I'm the problem"

"Maybe I, maybe I, maybe I'm the problem"

"I'm the problem"

"Maybe I, maybe I, maybe I'm the problem"

"Maybe I, maybe I, maybe I'm the problem"

"Baby I, baby I, baby I'm the problem"

"Baby I, baby I, baby I'm the problem"

"Baby I, baby I, baby I'm the problem"

"Baby I, baby I, baby I'm the problem"

"Baby I, baby I, baby I'm the problem..."

I close my mouth, looking ahead to see her.
My jaw dropped. I had told my manager Lia that I wanted to sing this song and for her to record it so I could play it back when I was thinking about friends I lost because I fell in love with music. I've mentioned this before a lot. But not only was she recording me, she brought her here, listening to me the whole time.

I hadn't seen her face in years. I'm sure she's seen me on TV, like I sang, while performing music but here she was in front of me. "That was beautiful," Her angelic voice pinged to my ears. A voice I had forgotten but now remembered.

Is she still upset with me?

Lia spoke, "I'll leave you two to talk.." She got up from a chair, leaving my recording room.

Yeji looked around, touching my guitars but very gently, "So this is what it's like. They're pretty.. probably expensive.. but you dedicate yourself to them, don't you?"

I blink back tears, "Uh..." I had so many questions for her. I don't even know where to start.

The older girl looked at me, "Do you like it here?"

I look down, "I like music. I always have. But I don't know what's home. I know what it's gone though," I gave a small chuckle, "It's why I write about it. Whatever is gone put into music."

"Wouldn't you actually want what's gone, Ryujin?"

I furrowed my eyebrows, loving the way she said my name. I stroked my messy hair, and drank a cup of coffee. Yes, it was nighttime but I never sleep. I hung my guitar up on the wall, staring it, and asking, "Why are you here?"

"I want what is gone."

I bit my lip, "But I'm the problem. I'm broken. I can't fulfill that."

Yeji's arms wrapped around my waist, her head peeping just below my arms. I looked away, a few tears falling from my eyes. Who didn't get deja vu when this was like the first time you two had met?

The blonde stood up straight, interlocking our hands, "Just because you fell in love with music doesn't mean that you can't love anything else. You love TV, Ryujin. You love your pets. You love food." She pauses, "You were so young when you left that you weren't able to realize that you have a big heart. You're able to love as much as you want, Ryu. But.. it broke mine when you chose not to want that."

"I've seen you grow. I've never missed an episode of yours or an award show that you're at. I'm proud of you, I am. Your music is special and I find myself listening to your voice every time I fall asleep so I can have dreams with you in them. I love you, Ryujin. Nothing will change that. Fights, distance, having not spoken in years. I still love you.

"And in some of your songs.. I think you feel that.. but then again, I don't know if you're still stuck on me. And I heard your song sharing your depression journey.. it went viral everywhere.. and I'm just disappointed I couldn't be here for you. Everyday I thought about reaching out but I was so afraid of speaking to you again after what happened. I'm so angry at myself because I know you needed someone."

(The song being talked about is 1-800-273-8255)

She caressed my cheek, "Thank you for staying here. Even though I know you have the deepest shit you have to deal with in this world. And the guilt for what happened between us. I will not lie, I was upset, but I will never stop supporting you."

I hugged the most perfect smelling girl and cried into her neck, "I love you so fucking much Yeji. I miss you every goddamn day, and you're absolutely right I was such a goddamn bitch to you."

She sniffled, "I don't care Ryujin. All I needed to hear was that you love me."

I pulled away, looking into her glistening eyes, this was the moment that felt like home. "I've never got over you. And I'm upset that I didn't get a chance to finally kiss you before I left."

Yeji furrowed her eyebrows and I took a deep breath, kissing my favorite love and home on this planet. "I'm staying here with you, Ryuddaeng. You're my home."