New Year, new book soon. And it's looking like fuck White Tee..
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"Okay you're getting it in my dreads," Toni sucked her teeth before walking away from the mirror. We were taking pictures together but she kept complaining about the face mask getting in her locs.
"I told you about calling them dreads, ashy." She just rolled her eyes and flopped onto the bed. I threw my phone at her softly and sat beside her. Toni picked my phone up off her stomach and opened it. I put my leg on her and then my head on her shoulder, making sure I didn't get the mask on her clothes.
"Here let me show you my floor plan now, you taking the building design class now ain't you?" She was logging into her Instagram account to check her messages with her designer. She could've used her phone but whatever.
"Baby that's the inside of a finished house, not building one." I laughed, T just ignored me and kept looking though the their photos until she found them. She held her arms up higher so that we both could see and she started scrolling. The building was nice. I liked the way she had it so far, I could tell it would be really nice.
"See, and here I want to put a little kids play area for my clients that might have kids. I need them to feel safe and stuff like that," She was giving me details on each of the rooms and what she wanted to do. I wasn't even looking at the pictures anymore. It was so cute to see her so focused and passionate about her dreams.
I smiled and went back to looking at the pictures once she showed me which one would be her office. After awhile she just started telling me about her plans and what she wanted to do for her future clients. I was super happy for her because this is what she's always wanted. But then again I could feel myself kind of pulling away.
I soft of stopped listening to what she was staying and started thinking about what our life would become in the next year or so. I would gradate too and then what? Toni would be really busy with her up and coming business, and I would be starting a new teaching job.
I decided I didn't want to be a professional dancer, I seemed like the teaching type anyway. So that's what I was majoring in now. And I even changed my minor to psychology. Toni inspired me on that one. Her and my therapist were the reasons I even figured out what I wanted to do.
I was pulled out of my over-thinking by Toni shaking my leg. She'd already sat up and was staring at me in concern. I cleared my throat and got up.
"Hey, where'd you go?"
"No where just got distracted." I tried to kiss her and change topics but she wasn't letting it go. She put her hand on my thigh and pulled her lips away from mine. Toni gave me that annoying look and I rolled my eyes internally. Here we go,
"You're lying, you checked out. Just tell me what's wrong?" I sighed and went into the bathroom. I know I shouldn't be deflecting right now, but we're in a good place and I don't wanna ruin it. Plus we need to wash this stuff our face and get ready to go.
"I'm fine T, let's wash this stuff off." She followed me and stared at me through the mirror while I washed mine off first.
"Jan, stop doing that. You know I'm not going to let it go." She was deadpanning me so hard. I ignored her until my face was washed completely off and then I turned to her. I pulled her in between my legs when I got on the sink counter and started washing hers off.
Toni can do it herself but I know she enjoys it more when I do it, so I just do. Plus I like taking care of her somethings.
"I'm fine baby, just over-thinking a little. You know how I get." I told her, kissing her lips after. She kissed me back this time and put her hands on my hips.
"Yeah, but what were you thinking about, let me reassure you. I don't want you over-thinking yourself into self-sabotage or distance." I keep forgetting she's a licensed therapist now.
"Nothing, it's just you'll be very busy with your new practice and then next year I'll be a new teacher. Plus I'm an over-achiever so I'll probably work myself to death. And you'll have a lot of clients and I know that they can be a lot but I won't wanna keep you from your job so we'll just grow apart and what if you find a hot new patient like they always do in the books we read together and then you leave me forever and suddenly I'm four waiting on the front porch for my parents to let me back inside.."
By the time I finished rambling, Toni's face was completely washed. She took my hands and pulled me into a hug. I felt her kiss the top my head and rub my back. I was not about to cry right now.. Especially about a hypnotical. The thing is I know it's rare that'll happen but my brain has a way of convincing me that it will.
"Jan, I would rather forfeit my entire license then ever lose you. We won't get too busy for one another. One day I'm going to marry you, and we'll grow old together until I die." She assured. I was smiling until she said the die part. I gasped and lifted my head and hit her shoulder.
"Heyyy, why do you get to die first??" Yes, I was whining. No, I don't care. Toni was smiling before pecking my lips.
"Because, with my family history there's no way I'm out living you." She was joking but I wasn't finding it funny.
"No, don't say thatt. I have to die first because if not I'll end of in a mental hospital. So I have to die first and then you have to die of heart-break syndrome." Now, that, I wasn't playing about.
"Oh so I have to kick the can when you do?"
"Yeah because if you get a new wife I'll possess her and kill you myself." I smiled at her while she just laughed at me. I actually needed that, because I was about to think myself into a episode or something. We were just making jokes and laughing about what we'll do when we're old. Then Toni's phone started ringing and she groaned while going to get it from the bedroom. I stayed in the bathroom and started the shower, might as well.
Toni was gone for about ten minutes, I was already undressed and about to get in the shower. I went back into the room to check on her and she was sitting on the edge of the bed. Her face looked mad as hell.
"Babe, you okay?" I asked, frowning my eyebrows at her expression.
