The new student - larissa weems x fem reader

Chapter 20 - the flashback (TW)

AN - some context about your sisters Lizzie is your older sister and is 28 and violet is your younger sister and is 13. Also this is full on and could be triggering.

As soon as weems left you got ready for your day but you didn't feel right without her there, you made your way to your first lesson but you kept zoning out during it and you couldn't concentrate properly and this continued throughout the whole day and your day felt like it had been going on forever, your last lesson was botanical science with thornhill you went in and sat straight down not bothering to say hello and just stared out one of the windows for pretty much the whole lesson having no concept of time your mind was being filled with loads of thoughts that you hadn't thought of in a while. You got snapped back into reality by thornhill coming over to your desk "y/n it's the end of the lesson" you looked around to see everyone else was gone "shit sorry miss" you stood up and went to walk out but thornhill stopped you "hey I know it's weird not having weems here but if you need to talk I'm here ok"
"I'm fine miss don't worry"
"Your clearly not y/n an email went out from your teachers from your other lessons and it said you seemed off, everyone is worried about you"
"Jesus Christ im fine just back off!" You snapped back at her before storming out the room and walking back to your room. You just laid on your bed staring at the ceiling in your own thoughts why the hell did I snap at her like that, she probably hates me now you thought and let out a big sigh let's just try sleep it will fix everything you thought as you got into bed not even bothering to get changed, you put your phone next to your bed and slowly drifted off to sleep.

When you woke up you looked outside to see that it was day time you thought you might have just had a little nap and went to look at the time in your phone but it was out of charge so you put it on charge and went to your balcony for a fag, when you went back in you looked at your phone to see that it was already 12 and you had missed half the day but that wasn't the thing that worried you, you had multiple missed calls and messages from your little sister

'Y/n please pick up I need to talk to you'
'Y/n answer the phone! It's important'
'I guess I'll just tell you on text then!'
'Mums in the hospital again and I ran away so I'm now living with Lizzie (older sister) Please call me back'

You just looked at all the texts and didn't know what to think your breath slowly started to pick up and your heart started to race as you thought about the last time something like this happened and that was when you got sent to the mental hospital, your mum has loads of mental illnesses and would have breakdowns regularly some of them bad others not as serious. Your mum was having a bad day and had argued with your step dad causing her to go mental at everyone but mainly your older sister and normally Lizzie would just take all the shouting and not fight back but this time was different because she was so fed up of it happening all the time "im done with this mum! I'm leaving and you can't stop me!" She shouted as she packed a few bags to take with her
"Fucking go then! I don't care what you do" your mum retaliated back. By now your little sister had made her way to your room with tears streaming down her face "hey little one it's ok remember what I told you just put your headphones on and listen to music really loudly, it's going to be ok" you reassured her as she cuddled into your arms you sat like that for a few minutes before Lizzie came into your room "im so sorry y/n but I need to go, im not dealing with her anymore" you looked at her with tears in your eyes
"I understand Lizzie just make sure you text me when you get somewhere and we'll come see you" she kissed both you and violet (little sister) on the head before leaving, you were trying to keep it together so violet could see you weren't scared but you really were "little one can you go back to your room now? I need to do something, just do what I told you and put your headphones on and read your book ok?" She nodded and left your room. As soon as the door was shut you couldn't hold it back anymore and broke down crying whilst your mum screamed to herself, you saw a tub of pills on the side and you couldn't take it and just started swallowing pill after pill before texting one of your friends 'im sorry but I couldn't deal with life anymore I had to, please look after violet for me' your hands were shaking and you just sat on the floor as you started to feel more and more tired, your phone started buzzing repeatedly but you could just look at the texts flooding through

'What have you done y/n?'
'Please don't tell me you have done what I think'
'I've called an ambulance theyre on there way please just stay'

You slowly started to loose consciousness but before you passed out fully 2 paramedics burst into your room along with your mum and the last thing you remember hearing was your mum shouting at you "your a fucking idiot! Why the fuck would you do this"
You woke up in the hospital all alone with your hands tied down and an IV in your arm.

You snapped out of your flashback shaking in a ball on the floor in tears that's when you looked over to your desk to see a pair of scissors laying there and you couldn't stop yourself you grabbed them and pushed them against your wrist making deep cuts whilst crying, blood started running down your arm but you didn't stop until you heard a knock at the door. You chucked the scissors away from you and grabbed a jumper putting it on quickly before you answered the door your eyes still filled with tears. You answered the door to see thornhill standing there "y/n are you ok? You haven't been to any of your lessons today and you seemed off yesterday" she stopped and looked at you worried
"have you been crying?" You were trying not to cry as she talked to you but as soon as she stopped you just crumbled onto the floor and started crying "oh y/n what's wrong?" She said closing the door behind her and holding you in her arms, you couldn't talk and just kept crying but you started to feel dizzy from all the blood loss "im sorry" was the last thing you said before passing out. "Omg what have you done?" Thornhill said as blood started to drip off your limp arm, she lifted you up and ran to the medical wing putting you on the bed as the nurses tried to clean you up and wake you up
"Come on y/n you have to fight this, I promised weems I would look after you" she said whilst holding your head in her arms "im sorry marylin but you need to give us some space, I'll send someone up to get you when you can come back" one of the nurses said to her
"o-ok I'll be in my classroom please just do everything you can" she said whilst a tear rolled down her face
"I promise you we will." The nurse then went back to helping you and marylin walked away wiping her tears from her eyes. She sent an email out and put a note on her door saying 'class is cancelled use this time to study' she then proceeded to call weems
"Marylin is everything ok?"
"No you need to come back it's y/n"
"What is wrong?" She said with a concerned voice
"She didn't turn up to any of her lessons before lunch so I went to check on her and she was a mess, she cut her wrists larissa and passed out in my arms. I'm so sorry I just need you to come back"
"Oh my god I'll be back right away, it's not your fault marylin just stay with her until I get there please I don't want her to be alone"
"Ok I'll go back up to the medical wing come straight up there when you get back"
"I will thank you marylin I'll be there in a few hours" and with that thornhill made her way back to you and weems rushed back to nevermore.