My love cycle | kadeja

025.

10:34am                   📍jays house

i've been in bed for months, getting up to wash nd eat. depressed and pregnant..cute .

I felt so bad for Omar .. i missed him. He blocked me on all socials and i'm literally dead to him. Dymarco has been reaching out but i've been ignoring him... i miss Omar.

"i miss my mannn" i said whipping my eyes with jays fav shirt . "bitch what the hell are you doingggg" she ran snatching it out my hands . "girl you'll be okay.." she said.

"NO I WONT" i cried more . "baby.." my heart was beating fast.

"Omar?" i said . "your mum said your here.." he tried to mask his anger.

"you keeping the baby with that prick" he said . "omar... i'm pro life ." i said . "cool." he said . "i'm sorry" i cried more and jaydene tip toed out the room. he stroked my hair. "i love you and it's okay" he said .

"but you have to pick .. i'll wait but before that babys born" he said as he left the room.

"jay what am i gonna do mann" he tiptoed back in. "girl pick ... team Dym personally" ahe said holding her hands up .

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i went to the bathroom and brushed my matted hair . my baby bump had started to show. "i'm a fat monster" i said . "girl stfu". jay said walking past the bathroom.

i put on my uggs and juice trackie and stepping out to see sevyn and kay ..

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03:22pm.                        📍nandos

"bitchhhh" sev walked in screaming. "girl" i said laughing . kay came in straight after with her nerd glasses . "hey bae" she said looking straight at my bump. she knew already.

"you pregs?" sevyn said raising an eye brown.  "mm.. yh" i said avoiding eye contact. "who's baby?" she said . "not omar's." kay said sitting down. okay bitch .

"it's marcos??" sev said . "yeah .. before you ask , they both know." i smiled . kay avoiding looking at me .

disgusted and disappointed.

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6:33pm. 📍dejas house

i layed thinking how i just fucked my life up... this baby got to go .

i pulled my laptop from behind me . "how to kill a baby by yourself" the more i read stories the more i cried .

i wanted the baby but it wasn't for me .

i closed the laptop and got up staring at myself in disgust . "16 and pregnant.. so cute" i cut my eye in the mirror.

"dej" my mum said . we haven't spoke since .. i told her the news .

"mum?" i said . "come out the bathroom .." she said walking back downstairs.

i went downstairs . Dymarco standing there . "marco.." i said . "deja..".

my mum smiled then walked back upstairs. she's always been team marco to be honest.

"look.. deja i love you and i know we're 16 but we can do this" he said . "yeah.. mm" i said . "i told my parents .. they'll take the baby" he said . "what?" i said annoyed . "how you asking them before me .. ARE YOU CRAZY" i shouted . "bro what" he laughed. "get the fuck out" i said .

the door slammed .

my mum walked downstairs. "we'll your not keeping that bloodclart baby" he shouted . "i'm moving out" i barged past her and started to pack .

fuck this family , fuck this baby .. JUST FUCK.