The connection - New beginnings

Chapter twenty seven - All I see is her

Alex

I felt the cold wash over me as I lay on the concrete floor. My whole body ached but at the same time all I felt was numb. I looked around the room into the darkness, there were no windows. I had no idea how long I'd been here or what time it was, it just felt cold and dark. The noise of metal creaking sounded in the distance, I instantly huddled into the corner. I watched in the darkness as a figure entered the room carrying a small light. I watched silently as he set it down on the ground and smirked towards me.

"I told him I'd make him pay, he's going to watch how his precious little princess wants my dick more than his" an evil laugh escaped his mouth as he pulled a phone out of his pocket. 

"Smile for the camera baby" he drawled as he walked towards me.

"No...no...no...please no...NO"

"Alex wake up.....baby wake up, you're safe, you're safe now baby it's over" Chases worried voice snapped me out of my nightmare. I looked around my room dazed, it was dark. What time was it, I don't remember falling asleep I panted uncontrollably as I sat up in my bed.

"Shhh Alex it's okay, your okay. You fell asleep after your bath, your at home. You're safe baby" he soothed as he squeezed my hand.

"I...I...I had a dream, I thought" I stuttered

"I know" his expression turned serious as his eyes studied mine.

"Im sorry" I sobbed as I pulled my hand out of his and wrapped them around my knees.

"You don't need to be sorry, he's the one who should be sorry. Alex you don't need to hide your feelings from me, I can see you're broken. I don't want you to worry about how that makes me feel, you've been through something that no one should ever have to go through. I'm so sorry that this happened to you"

"Chase I'm afraid to go to sleep...when it's dark"

"It takes you back there" he finished for me. I nodded back at him. How was I ever going to get over this. Right now I felt torn, I wanted nothing more than to be safe in his arms but at the same time I could think of nothing worse. 

"You're safe now. I'm going to stay right over there in that chair and I'm going to put the lamp on so it isn't too dark" 

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Nate

I had been sat downstairs with Mrs Morgan for a couple of hours now, about an hour ago we'd heard her screaming but all seemed quiet again. Chase was with her. I was glad she had someone but I couldn't help but worry about the effect this would have on him. I wasn't ready to lose my brother.

"It's getting pretty late Nate, I appreciate you coming over but I think maybe they are both sleeping and you look like you could do with some rest yourself. Why don't you head home?" 

Before  I could reply I heard the soft opening and closing of a door upstairs, followed by light footsteps on the stairs. Chase entered the living room looking absolutely exhausted.

"I think she's finally asleep" he stated as he flopped down on the sofa across from me.

"Chase hunny why don't you go home and get some rest, I'll be fine..."

"I'm not leaving her" he cut Mrs Morgan off before she could finish. "Sorry, I didn't mean to snap" he apologised.

"It's okay, I understand, how about I go and make some coffee, seems like we are all in for a late night" she offered a small smile before heading off to the kitchen.

I studied Chase, his expression was one of pure despair. This is exactly what I was afraid of.

"How is she?" I asked knowing it was a fruitless question.

"How do you think she is, she's a mess Nate" 

"I know, I guess I don't really know the right thing to say or do in this situation. I just want to be here for her, and for you" 

"I don't need any sympathy, she's the one who's been through hell" he huffed.

"I know that but you've gone through it too. Chase he did this to her to hurt you, I know this must be eating you up inside"

"Well maybe I deserve to feel like shit. I know damn well no matter what I feel she's feeling a hundred times worse right now"

"I'm not saying that she isn't, but you're my brother and I'm not going to sit by and let you go through this alone. You're there for her, well I'm here for you" 

He let out a sigh as he ran his hands through his hair in frustration.

"I just hate that this has happened to her"

"I know. I do to. You guys seemed to almost be getting back on track before this happened, that must be difficult to process"

"Difficult to process, is that what you think? What that I'm pissed that now once again I've lost her, that I was this close to having her back and finally being happy and now that's all gone. I love her Nate, I love her so much that I actually want to rip my heart out of my chest because seeing her like this, knowing she's been through what she's been through breaks my heart so much it's almost unbearable. Is that what you want me to say. The girl I love is going through this because of me, because I pissed off Mike, because I fucked up. Is that it? Because I told her I was there for her, whatever she needs and I meant it. I'm not going to let her see me fall apart, I'll be there for her and listen to her painful thoughts if that's what she needs. I'm not going to run off and do something stupid, I'm  not going to lose control. You can stop worrying because all I see is her, all I care about is her. I love her more than anything in this whole fucking world, myself included. So stop worrying about me Nate, as long as I'm here for her then I'll be fine, I would never hurt her by hurting myself again"