The connection - New beginnings

Chapter thirty - Don't dream it's over

Alex

I snuggled into Nate's chest as I closed my eyes and willed sleep to take me, he was rubbing small circles on my lower back, his hand going just under the bottom of my t shirt. I hadn't even realised the tingles had started until I heard myself let out a soft moan as I involuntarily pressed my body further into his. His hand froze immediately probably not realising the effect his comforting touch had on me.

"Please don't stop" I whispered into his warm chest in almost a plea. His hand remained frozen not moving. I pulled back slightly and looked into his green eyes as they watched me with unease not knowing what to do. I sat up and studied him, it was like he was unsure what he should do. I held his right hand in my own and pulled it forward so it rested on my hip, our eyes never left each other's. Slowly I moved our hands underneath my t shirt encouraging him to touch me there. I dropped my hand from his and moaned in pleasure as his continued until his found my breast and he began to gently knead it.

"More Nate more" I begged as we repositioned ourselves so I lay beneath him. He made quick work of removing my t shirt before returning both hands to my exposed chest. His eyes never moved from mine, not even as he bent down and took my nipple in his mouth and began to suck and nibble on it. I felt a sharp bolt of pleasure shoot right down to my core. I knew I was soaking by now but I didn't care. I wanted him, I needed him.

"Yes ma'am" he smirked before he lowered his head down to my pyjama shorts, kissing me through the silky material. I bucked my hips off the bed as the sensation took over my senses. 

"Nate please" I begged at him, I need to feel his lips on me. I couldn't take this tension that had built up. He tugged my shorts and panties down my legs as he sat back and admired the view of me led fully naked in front of him. I could see his boxers looked strained from his own tension as he bent back down between my legs. With the first swipe of his tongue I began to lose control, all rational thoughts were long going as the intense pleasure took over. Another swipe and I was jelly.

"Fuck Lex you're so wet" he purred which only made me more aroused. He feasted on me like I was the best thing he'd ever tasted and I relished every moment of it. My first orgasm hit me out of no where as I let out a screen of pleasure before remembering where I was and turned my face to muffle my cries in a pillow. He didn't relent. He continued to devour me, to pleasure me until he forced a second even more powerful orgasm out of me. My body was shaking with pleasure and I never wanted this feeling to go away. 

"You're so fucking beautiful Lex" he purred as he kissed me. I tasted myself on his lips and I immediately wanted him all over again. It was like I was possessed. "You've got me baby" he purred as he kissed me harder. I reached down and removed his boxers and pulled him back on top of me, opening my legs to invite him in. As he filled me I felt my eyes roll back into my head as the intense pleasure took over. My whole body was on fire, tingles everywhere. He pounded into me and I writhed below him as this fire ignited on our skin. My final orgasm ripped through me as I scraped my nails down his back, my pleasure setting off his own release as he pumped into me emptying himself with every thrust. 

We lay breathless trying to regain ourselves. I still felt so hot, I'd had intense sex before but nothing like this. My skin with dripping with sweat.

"Lex baby are you okay?"

His concerned voice filled my head as I felt myself drift.

"Alex, you need to wake up. ALEX" I snapped my eyes open and looked at him. He was stood near the door, his eyes full of emotion but his jaw clenched as if he were angry with me. I quickly sat up as I looked down I saw I was fully dressed in my pyjamas. I felt a wetness between my legs and suddenly my blood ran cold. My eyes met his again.

"It was a dream. I....I..." I held my hand to my mouth not quite believing it myself. It had felt so real but now that I was awake I knew it wasn't and nor did I want it to be. I didn't want Nate like that anymore. What the fuck was wrong with me.

"Alex" he spoke firmly as I snapped out of my spiral and focused my attention back on him.

"I'm so sorry Nate, truly I am" he must hate me, I hated myself right now. Chase. Oh my god Chase. I needed to go, I needed to see him. He didn't deserve this. Panic filled me and Nate just stood silently watching me unravel and I sobbed. He offered me no comfort, he didn't dare come closer to me and I didn't blame him.

"Alex I think we should have some space....I think maybe we shouldn't hang out anymore. I don't want anyone to get hurt" his words crushed me but I knew they were right. This was my fault, he didn't want this. It was all my dream.  I felt like we were back to where we were over a year ago. I didn't want to come between two brothers and here I was doing just that. I didn't love Nate like that anymore, I knew I didn't. So why did I just have an ultra intense sex dream about him. It just didn't make sense to me. I wanted Chase, he was it for me. I wanted Chase and it was as if my subconscious was trying to sabotage that. One thing was for sure, I needed to see Chase now, and I needed to tell him the truth.