Happily never after {FINISHED}

Chapter 48!

Steph's P.O.V:
"JAI?! OH GOD NO! SOMEBODY HELP US?!" I Shouted, with Jai's head rested onto my lap. I could feel him juddering from his uneasy breathing. "Jai..." I whimpered more silently. "I-I Love you..." He whispered. The younger people of this world now are so disrespectful. Jai and I were just crossing the road, when suddenly he pushed me to the floor. I turned around to see why he did that to see my husband laying in the middle of the road, covered in blood and a car driving off. We are both 73... We were just on our way home from getting Jai's newspaper from the local corner shop, you know, the one where we first met.
I cried harder with every passing second, as they felt like minutes. A young couple came running over, the man of which clearly was a doctor- I knew this by the way he handled Jai, moving him around into the recovery position. The woman helped me up and took me off the road, calling help from an ambulance.
"That's my Jai... I can't watch him go..." I struggled for breath.
"I know Sweetheart, but the Ambulance is on it's way and Jai is going to be just fine." she said in such a calming tone.
"May I ask for your name please?" she smiled at me.
"Steph.. Steph Brooks." I said to her, not keeping my eyes off Jai.
"That's a beautiful name." she said, following my gaze.

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I looked over at Jai one last time, before walking out of the hospital room. The light of the room radiated off his wrinkled face. His lips were tightly shut together, along with his eyes. His gorgeous chestnut eyes that I fell inlove with back when we were 17, and stayed in love with ever since- they were shut, and to never be opened again. I sat in the hospital waiting room and reflected.
I want to go back to when we were 20. When young love was no lone a saying and I truly felt what they meant by the heart warming feeling of love. I want him to lace his arms around my waist, hugging me from behind whilst I cook him pancakes and him tell me I'm beautiful. To feel the slight stubble upon his chin tickle the surface of my skin as he trailed wet neck kisses down my neck. I want to go back to the touring times, when the Janoskians were hot and he went away for tour. I know the thought of him going away is horrible- but that made the seeing him again 1000 times more special. Our wedding, I want to do our wedding all over again. And our honey moon to the pink sand beaches in Barbados. Jai and I grew old together, and we were together forever, just like we had promised. "What happened to being together forever?" Well Jai, I'll answer that for you now.... I promised a life full of happiness and fairytale endings... and I tried my hardest to keep that a promise. I hope I didnt let you down.
I wiped away the tears that I cried and Lydia, 48 years old, helped me up from my chair, crying also. She guided me back to her car and she took me home so I could grieve.

The funeral was the worst part.

*Dear Jai,
I can't really find the right words to describe the way I'm feeling right now. So I wont explain how I'm feeling... I'll let the memories do that for me.
My life started terribly... with my Mum passing away, my Dad beating me, Justin and my old friends. I thought of the suicide part so many times- until I realised that there might actually be a life out there for me. I packed my bags and moved. I found you, Jai. You made my life worth everything. You were the first person to ever make me feel pretty, you were the first person to ever look me in the eyes and tell me you loved me.... You made me happy, and I can't thank you enough. You gave me 3 incredible kids.... Lydia, Alfie and Rebecca. Jai, you made me see the greater things I never have really seen before... You allowed me to not judge myself, You made me realise that living in the moment is alot more important than living for the future. You became my best friend and my true love... Do you know how hard it is to find that person Jai? Well, with you, you made it so easy. Through out our lives, we had to battle through the different obstacles- we argued, moved, faced new and ex girlfriends/boyfriends... but no matter how many times I tried to leave and allow you to move on, I always found my way back to you. I want to thank you, Jai Brooks. I want to thank you for having such a kind hearted soul, and making the great woman I am today. I am going to miss you so much baby... Hell, i would give anything to feel your soft lips against mine once more... To have our pointless conversations that we'd just laugh at after.... I want you back so you can hold me Jai... When you held me, I felt like a small, fragile object in a huge world that was being protected securely. You gave me a life, that I will never forget- you made me the happiest girl alive.. and I hope i didnt let you down, and I made you happy too. I miss you already babe. I love you so much.
'It's been a long day, without you my friend... But I'll tell you all about it when I see you again.'
Rest In Paradise, Jai.
Forever yours,
Steph. xx*