Happily never after {FINISHED}

Chapter 35!

I walked into Jai's hospital room, to see him Sat in it, tracing the edges of his right hand with his other fingers. I saw his light brown eyes flicker up to face me. I once again melted in his eyes. He sent me a smile and looked back down at his fingers. Seriously? that's all the recognition I get after not seeing him in ages.

I placed the chocolate bars down on a small coffee table and stood up straight.

"How you feeling, Jai?" I said, sitting on his bed.

"urm.. okay" he said, looking at the part of the bed in which I was sat on.

"I missed you so much..." I sighed, laying myself lightly next to him.

"I'm sorry, what?" he replied, causing me to sit up straight and look at him.

"What?" was all I could reply with.

"Do.. urm.. d-do I know you?" he asked, shuffling back a tiny bit in his bed. ... no...

"Jai, babe, I'm you're girlfriend.. remember?" I questioned him, to hear a slight giggle.

"I wish," he smiled, "but I seriously don't appreciate a stranger in my room" ... yes... he seriously couldn't remember me.

Ever know what it feels like to have everything taken off of you in less then 10 seconds... Ever know what it feels like to feel your heart sink down below your stomach... okay, ever know what it feels like to have someone you absolutely love have no idea who you are? In that one minute I've been in that room with Jai, it feels like every single memory we shared together just didn't exist, or that he was just a dream and now I'm trying too hard to get him back. Well, obviously not hard enough.

"No No No Jai.. listen. it's me, Steph! Stephanie Fox? I'm you're girlfriend? Ya know.. the one from Britain?... wanting to start a new life. which is when I found you?" I went on, trying to trigger his memory. instead, I just watched as his eyebrows pressed more closely together.

"I'm sorry.. I just can't remember.." he said, looking down, hurt in his eyes.

"no.... No... NO!" I said, my 'No's getting louder, "YOU'VE GOT TO REMEMBER ME.... you've just got to..."

"NURSE! HELP.. PLEASE!!" he shouted back in return. I threw myself onto him, wrapping my arms tightly around his waist as the nurse ran in. "There's a girl on my bed.. can you get her out?" his perfect voice said. I didn't want to believe he was talking about me... but he was. Jai Brooks, my boyfriend, had forgotten who I was. I watched as the nurses face turned from worried to sympathetic. I'm guessing the sympathy was for me?

"Jai, as your nurse, I'm gunna need you to listen to me." she said, placing a hand lightly on Jai's arm, "You were in a very nasty accident, causing damage to your skull. Due to this accident, you might not be able to remember afew things. But I can assure you.. this is no stranger." she explained to him.

"You took me in..." I said into the blankets. "What?" Jai asked me.

"You took me in when no one else wanted me. You were the one to make my flaws, flawless. Ever since I first met you, from when we were camping, you never failed to make me smile and feel good about myself. You've been in this hospital for over a week now.. I haven't left this building for the whole of that time. I'd talk to you, sing to you and even pretend sometimes you were talking back. Jai, you are my boyfriend and I love you." I said, tears building up. Jai listened as he watched the nurse slowly nod her head, also a tear escaping her eye too.

"I..." he started, then coughed back afew tears, "I'm sorry... I'm sure you're an amazing girl and I must have been a very lucky boy... but I can't remember. I really am sorry!"

I knod at him, sitting up and getting off the hospital bed. My heart sank, smashing as it hit the floor. I feel like the pumpkin on Halloween, being scooped out and carved. I took at step towards the door and said over my shoulder, "take care babe." I heard him sniff his nose and I carried on walking. I heard a sigh of sympathy and guilt come out of the nurse as I left. NOW WHAT? This was the question that I could never find the right answer to. The question NOW WHAT? summed my life up at the minute. NOW WHAT? NOW WHAT? NOW FUCKING WHAT?!?