Happily never after {FINISHED}

Chapter 15!:(

Next Day:

*flash back* "MUM!! MUM!!" i shouted. My mum came running into my room, half asleep. "what is it dear?" she asked laying next to me. "i had a bad dream" i said, cuddling up to my mum. "its ok hunny.. Im here" my mum said rubbing my teary cheek. "i love you mummy" i giggled. "i love you too sweetheart" my mum said back.*

I wiped away my tears and walked into the shop. I wanted to buy my mum, the best flowers ever! And i did... I bought a bunch of flowers that cost £20.. The bunch was massive! It was full of her favourite flowers. Right... Here come the tears... Luckily i didnt wear any make up today, other i would have looked a mess!

I walked out of the shop amd across the road was the church, with the grave yard. Before i walked in, i turned my phone on silent... Now is the time for silence. I took a deep breath and walked into the grave yard.. I knew where my mums grave was... I mean, i have been here before. I walked slowly to my mums grave.. My mums grave stone was right at the back. Petals filled the ground and the winds started to pick up.

There it was. My mum's grave. I walked up to it and read the tomb stone... "Hellen Fox... 16.1.1979- 15.8.2004.. May you rest in peace" i rested the flowers against the tomb stone and i sat on the bench we biught. The bench was under a blossom tree. On the bench there was a metal note that read "In memory of my mum hellen... Gone from our sight but not from our hearts" ... I stared at the grave stone.. Where do i begin...?

"Hello again mum. Ive missed you so much. Is Harry ok? How about grandma, is she still telling her wacky stories?" i giggled, remembering the stories she used to tell. "boy have i got alot to tell you... Well, when you left, dad changed.. Alot! He used to hurt me, but you dont need to worry... I ran away from all of that. I now live in australia. I dont know why i picked australia.. Random i guess. But im glad i did, ive met these amazing boys, mum! Theres Beau, James, skip, luke and... Jai. Mum, i think i really like jai. Abit more then a friend though. I could really do with your advice about the situation im in with him at the minute... But, i guess ill just have to go with the flow. Oh! Mum, remember justin? Yeah. Well, he's been put in prison. He beat my new friends up. They were only sticking up for me... Beau, ended up bleeding from every place possible. I love my new friends mum. I think you and gina, their mum, would have got on really well. Oh gina is lovely mum. She reminds me of you. The boys are youtube sensations aswell... So i get to help them out with fame sometimes, and people even notice who i am in the streets. Its amazing! Its abit weird though... Someone knowing you, but you not knowing them." i giggled again, remembering my times with the boys. Then, my laughed faded and tears came to my eyes. "i really miss you mum. Everyday without you gets harder and harder. The boys cheered me up alittle bit, but they'll never make me feel as safe as you made me feel. I miss your tight hugs and your soft kisses on my forehead. I miss being able to come home from school and being able to race you up the elevators. We had such good fun. I know it isnt possible mummy.. But please come back... Come home?" i stopped talking for abit and i tried to catch my breath from the tears. "if your listening mum, i just want to tell you how much i love you... My love for you mum will never die. Just because your not here, doesnt mean ill forget about you... I could never do that. Your my role model, my inspiration. I love you mum... I want you home" i took a deep breath... What else can i say? "oh yeah! Mum i bumped into bruno yesterday.. He still works at that hotel! He told me you would have been proud of what i am today... Haha... He said i have a bright future ahead of me. Im really hoping that Jai will be in my future... But i really wish you would be in my future too." i looked around at the grave yard.. No one else was here.

"well mummy.. I guess i better go and get back to my home in australia. Ill tell the boys you say hi? I'm sure your having a great time in heaven, ive always wanted to know what it looks like... Mummy, dont have too much fun and forget about me... I need you here, in my heart. I need you to guide me as if you were here.. I'll take your love, and go on with the show.. I'll stay strong for you mum.. I'll try and be the best i can be, ill be the nice young lady you raised me up to be.. I will try and make you proud... I love you" i stood up from the bench and walked over to the grave stone... I kissed my hand and rested my hand on the cold stone.. "carry on resting in peace mummy... Dont worry... I'll see you again someday... Bye"

I stood up right and went to walk out of the grave yard. I turned around one last time.. I waved a hand at my mums grave and carried on walking. The tears fell rapidly down my face. I've done what i wanted to do... Now im happy, My mum knows that i love her and that i always will. My aim in life now, is to make sure i make my mum proud with everything that i do.

I turned my phone back onto normal and text jai, wiping away the last of my tears... "Heycjai, just seen my mum.. All done:) ill get my things and be on my way

He replied "okay babe.. Ill see you soon.. Text me when your in australia and me and beau will come and pick you up:)

"okay will do, thank you:)

I was on my way out of the gate... When something in the grave yard caught my eye. There was a grave stone with no flowers on it. All the graves were colourful with flowers.. Apart from one. I picked some flowers from the grass and went to put some on the grave. When i got there, i read who it was. "Harry Fox" i read. Oh my god.. My mum or dad didnt tell me about harrys grave... How could i have missed it? I felt so bad.. My baby brother was the only person without flowers on their grave. You dont know how guilty i felt... I need to talk to him... If he was still alive now, he would be 10 years old.

"hey there lil' man... I hope your being a gentle man and being kind to our mother. I'm Stephanie... Your big sister. We never really got to meet... So hi!" i didnt know what else to say. "look, im sorry for not putting flowers on your grave.. But mum or dad didnt tell about your grave.. But now that i know about your grave, i'll come and visit you. I cant wait to meet you one day.. I bet your a gorgeous young man. Well, i better be going now babe... I'll come back next year with a proper bumch of flowers, haha. Take care bro" i said, placing the little bunch of daisys next to his grave.. Bless him.

I stood upmand blew my baby brother a kiss. Even though i didnt get to meet him.. I still love him with every bit of my achey heart. I have such bad luck.

I turned around and walked out the gate. Ive just realised that you have to appreciate things before they go.. I need to get jai... I love him too much to let him slip... I need a plan.