Monza - {Lando Norris}

Chapter 52

The night out was the most fun I had in a couple weeks but I couldn't help but feel upset at the thought that Lando hadn't joined us for it, I knew deep down that he wouldn't show up but when Pierre had told me that he texted into their group chat with all the drivers, the slightest bit of hope formed in me. To my surprise though most of the drivers did show up, the only ones missing were the ones that I hadn't really interacted with, all the older ones that had family and would rather sit at home with them instead of being in a nightclub with younger absolutely drunk of their mind adults, the night out felt weird without Lando's presence, not being able to feel his eyes on me or smell the mahogany teakwood fragrance that he sprayed all around his body every morning, it was lonely to say the least, everyone had formed into their own clicks, I ended up sitting with the girls for a hour or two before they all decided they missed their boyfriends and had to run back to them so now I sit at the end of booth beside Yuki who drunkly screams at Pierre laughing his head off, I wish I could miss my boyfriend and run back into his arms whenever I felt like it but nope, I was glad that no one had brought Lando up tonight even though I wanted nothing more than to hear about him, Cicsa had stopped texting as much and I felt awful about it, I had hoped I hadn't annoyed her, ever since the Gucci deal my phone was blowing up non stop and I hadn't the time for anyone, I mentally note that I'll text her tomorrow. All throughout the night my eyes keep catching Daniel's as Heidi clings on to him and I know he wants to come over and talk nonsense about Lando who has more than likely put him up to it, I watch him carefully as he pats Heidi on the shoulder and gently pushes himself off the seat before making his way over to me "Hi Sofia" He squeezes himself into the small space at the end of the booth beside me, my eyes remain on him the entire time as he finds a comfortable position to sit it "How are you?" His voice remains gentle and calm although he'll throw something out about Lando in a couple minutes, Daniel had been texting me more recently and throwing hints in about how I need to talk to Lando but why should I when I've done nothing wrong? "How is he?" I muster the courage to ask about him, mentally fighting myself that I shouldn't ask, Lando hasn't been asking about me so why should I ask about him? "He's good, his physical rehab is going really well, they think he'll be able to be back in the car for the start of the season, he might miss out on the pre-season testing but he'll be there for the important events if all goes well" I fight the smile as I hear he's doing well for himself, I'm proud of him for fighting through this after the doctor told him they might be a chance he'll never race again, never one to back down from something... apart from me apparently "He misses you, like a lot" I snigger as I attempt to hold my laughter back which results in me getting a look from Daniel with scrunched up eyebrows as he attempts to find the humour in his sentence "Is there something funny about that?" He questions as he sits up fully now "Yeah. Look around Daniel, do you see him anywhere?" Daniel looks around with nothing but confusion in his eyes "No, if he missed me that much he would be here, he would be texting me, phoning me... just doing something to show me how much he misses me but no I haven't heard from him since I left that hospital room, he's just been sending you to check up on me, hasn't he?" Daniel's eyes fly to the ground giving me the answer I already knew "He's scared Sofia, this is his first relationship and before you scream and shout at me, I know what he did wasn't right but he doesn't really have a clue what he's doing. Please just think about texting him, I know it should be him texting you first but he's a pussy, too scared to do anything incase you reject him, he's just scared..." Daniel begins to stand up before he places one of his hands onto my shoulder "Enjoy your night Sofia" He walks back over to Heidi as I feel my breath begin to constrict and the constant flashing lights seem to make my eyes roll back into my head, I pull myself off the seat and run outside where the fresh air calms me down, the thoughts of Lando swirling around my mind as I let my back relax against  the cold brick wall.

Lando's POV

There was a couple months until the pre-testing came along and I had two goals to complete for that date, the first one being that I would be in that car driving around the track showing everyone I'm back to my normal healthy self and the second being that I would have Sofia by my side, how the fuck I was for doing the second one when I could barely even text her? God knows but I'm for doing it. I sat up in my bed thinking about what her reaction would have been if I had shown up tonight, I go onto the group chat with all the drivers and double check the message Pierre has sent, there was still time for me to show up and either make or break Sofia's night but of course the anxious thoughts coming flinging into my head again as I imagine her seeing me and causing a scene telling me to fuck off and that would be that, I mean I would deserve it after everything that happened. Daniel had texted to say he spoke to her and left her with the lingering thought of her texting me, I know, it should be me texting her but I mean come on! Have you seen her and then seen me? Sofia could be out there dating the likes of Brad Pitt or Michael B. Jordan but nope she decided to hunker down with me and look how I fucked that up, I was nervous to text her, I couldn't come up with a type of idea of how she would react and what her response would be, I mean it might be easier for me to think about and come up with a correct solution if she hadn't removed me off every single social media, that made the idea of doing it so much harder, she clearly didn't want to hear or see anything from or about me, I liked her most recent Instagram post, she was glowing in it, Sofia was always gorgeous to me but in this photo she looked like an angel that had fallen to the sky, I do wish I could have seen her face when she spotted the notification of me liking it, that's if she even noticed at all, the photo had thousands of comments regarding myself so therefore she might not have even seen her, my heart longed for her to see it, hopefully give her a bit of hope that I'm still here, just lurking around the background to scared to make a move just yet, I could say I was waiting for the right time but that would be me lying, I'm just too scared to even text her a simple Hi, I'm such a pussy, how is that even possible? I mean I have no problem getting into a car which goes over 200mph most weekends but for some reason I can't find the balls to text the one girl I've ever loved? Such a weak move Lando. I did have a fear lingering thought in the back of mind which scared me even more, Sofia was getting closer to Pierre every day and I could do nothing but to check up on it every couple days on social media, thank god for these prying F1 drama instagram pages, without them I wouldn't have a clue, I mean they hadn't done anything to give me the thought of them being together, they hadn't been caught kissing, Sofia hadn't been snapped emerging from his room with wild hair doing the walk of shame, I could only hope that it was a friendship thing. I throw my head back into the pillows as I come up with a million different ideas of how I could get Sofia back, I had saw that she was walking at the Gucci runway in a couple weeks times and I booked my flight to Monaco immediately but then I saw the stupid italic writing that said you needed a ticket for the event, I scoured the entire internet only to come up with nothing, all the tickets had sold out, I didn't want to do it but I used my status to get myself a front row seat, sometimes being in the public eye works out, I just hope I don't put Sofia off whilst she's doing her first ever runway, I have no doubt in my mind she'll do great and smash it, would she even notice me? I had decided that I would hopefully get the chance to chat with her after the event but the bigger and hopefully the surprise  to win her over was coming on March 1st, a random day, I know, I was planning to do it on Valentine's Day but I didn't just want to fire stuff at her before having the chance to speak to her. With that sorted out mentally I let myself rest in bed knowing that Daniel is keeping his eye on Sofia on the night out, even though it should be me, I really need to grow a set of balls, I let my eyes drift asleep and like the last couple of months I fall asleep to the image of Sofia imprinted on my mind.