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Chapter 27

Onika's POV
Hospital
May 31

I'd been in the hospital for 11 days. I was only meant to be in New York for a day.

This was not how I expected to come back home.

So much happened in the span on an hour and I lost my baby. This wasn't the first time I'd ever miscarried a child.

Maybe I wasn't meant to be a mother. That was a thought that kept looping around in my head.

Then I'd remember Zamora and how much she'd changed the person I was. How much she shaped the woman I'd become one day.

Losing a baby was an unimaginable pain I'd never wish on my worst enemy. Even though I'd been in the fence about keeping the baby, it still hurt the same because the decision was ripped away from me.

I had so many people around me but I still felt alone, like no one understood me.

I couldn't bear to look Beyoncé in the face. I felt like I'd disappointed her. She asked me numerous times if I'd wanted someone there to keep an eye on me and I refused.

That almost cost me my life.

Anything could've happened to me. I was grateful to be alive but my heart was heavy.

I'd finally started to accept that I was pregnant, and I was excited, for the most part. That all got ripped away from me in seconds.

My daughter didn't understand any of this either. She was an intelligent girl, so maybe she did. But it was weird for her to see her mother in a hospital bed, instead of being at home, playing games.

We didn't even have a place to call home. I didn't plan to live in Houston forever and I definitely didn't want to stay at my parents house.

Being in the hospital made me realise a few things. One thing being, I needed to do better. Not only for Zamora but for myself.

"Is the jello not good?" Beyoncé snapped me from my thoughts. I cracked a smile and shook my head.

"Hospital food sucks." I played with the jello in its cup. "You can have it. You ate your cup real quick."

I smiled whilst offering her the cup.

Beyoncé was great. She'd been in the hospital since I first got admitted. She even slept in the bed with me when I needed it.

"You being serious?" She jumped up ready to take it from my hand. I nodded my head and handed it to her.

"Eat your pudding." She pointed towards the tray. It had some food on it for me to eat but it was all nasty.

"Go get me some Popeyes." I suggested.

"You know you can't eat that right now." She spoke with a mouthful of jello. "That's the first thing I'll buy you when we leave."

"When am I being let out?"

"In like two days I think. You can ask your doctor when he comes back in here."

Lauren had to go to work and she ended up taking Zamora back to school. Robyn had to open up the salon, so she wasn't here either.