The Love They Never Had: The Nam Mansion

Chapter 30: Jeongbo (Information)

The war was now set between us and I was determined to be the victor, no matter what it would cost me. But in order to win, I needed money, and I knew the only person who was willing to help me, even though I swore that I would never see him again. My previous Master was every stereotype that once could think of being for an illegitimate bastard son, which in turn was the complete opposite of what the Young Master Nam was. My last master was a womaniser and a drunkard who was a constant disappointment to his family, which I found out rather quickly after giving myself to him. It was the only way that I could level up to Chun-Ae before the Young Master's cousin finished her off before I could even do anything to her. But he was the one who ultimately sent me here, to finish off the only bastard in this village who had the guts to actually hold a position in the place, even as a general inspector. At first, it was my job to pass intel to him but as soon as I had started to observe the Young Master, I really didn't want to do that at all. He was handsome, he had potential to make something of himself and he could be very successful if only his father would give him a break. The very last thing that I wanted to do was to betray him, but if he wasn't wiling to give me a chance at all, then I too would have no choice but to do what I had been sent out to do.
"I need you to send a note to the Young Master in person..." "Mistress, we have no more key to bribe any servant here, and they are all vigilant after the cousins's constant warnings. Prestige is an honour that you have not had the time to put into play..." "that was because I was busy trying to learn how to become literate! Day after day I spend inside my quarters trying to learn, but it is difficult without a tutor! And I do not even have the money to hire one!" "If people will not help us then we have no way out of this, if you do not reward anyone, no-one will be willing to work for you." "Going back to him every single time that I need help is not a solution at all! I need to win over young master Nam and soon, before I go broke."

In hindsight, I should have looked at my surroundings before I said anything at all. Who knew that the Young Master himself would be just a few feet away outside of the quarters that I was desperate to obtain with a face on him that I just could not read no matter how had I had tried. And he was just constantly staring at it, like he was expecting something to happen. "Young Master? I know that I have made mistakes in the past, but please, beg of you. Give me a real chance...." "A chance for what?" "To have a future of my own. All I want from you...is a child..." "You want me to sire an illegitimate child? After everything I have been been through in my past? And currently? What about the future?" "Then we could get married. Please, give me a chance to prove myself to you and in return, please give me a child to fill my passing days with hope." "Let me make this clear to you in case you haven't gotten a hold of the situation already. I have already found someone to spend the rest of my life with. My life and my heart already belong to her. Even if she rejects me, I will no suddenly become a reckless womaniser." "But why? Why do other women have chances and I do not? Men are allowed to have more than one woman..." "and it is exactly because of this rule that creates this mess between legitimate and illegitimate children. Yes, I can give you a child anytime that I like. But what you truly want, I cannot give it to you." "But why?" "Desires grow in a human when they get what they want, and eventually you will want more. Today, you can stand here in the cold and wait for me like this to beg me. So what about when you decide that you want something more?" "Because I like you! I really do!" "Nobody in this village likes me, so why do you? You will not get any benefits from me." "Please just grant me a little bit of your time and affection! Is it really that difficult!" "Since I cannot give you what you want, it is better to cut off your infatuation now."
"But I can help you! I mean it!" "How? Hasn't my neighbour sent you here to gather information about me?" "No! I am sincere My Lord! And I can prove it!" "How?" "I will spy on him for you. And in return, I want your time." "Very well, do you have anything to tell me now? And piece of information?" "I will tell you...if you invite me inside of your quarters. Please."