The Love They Never Had: The Nam Mansion

Part 5: Breaking Point-Chapter 46: Allyeojiji Anh-Eun (Unknown)

Life from then on had completely changed between the Young Master and myself, and i really could not tell if it was for better or worse. Myself and Seon-Ho both fell ill with a cold for a long time, almost for a few weeks and we hadn't had a chance to be left alone together. His father was completely furious with me for getting his son sick and I was being punished by doing the servant's chores around the entire manor for 3 months. I wasn't too upset over this though as I had been doing my own chores anyways. But as for Dal, well I hadn't really realised how much he had been involved in my life until he suddenly disappeared the day after he lost his mind and starting sprouting all of that nonsense between myself and Seon-Ho. But there wasn't a day that went by that I forgot what he said about that woman that he was supposedly in love with, and it took my memories back to the beginning of my stay here when he was always going to brothel's after work in the palace. To be honest, I think a part of me knew that was why he was going there, but I was not expecting how much it hurt me to hear everything, and from Dal instead of the Young Master himself. I could barely get any sleep that night and I had no idea why I kept hurting into tears every 10 minutes...it was hard to explain. But ever since I lost my memory, I always felt as if I was living for two people. I could only guess where my current hobbies came from; my constant reading, drawing, paintings and poetry, but my feelings towards the Nam's were another story. From the moment I met the Master Nam, I was already filled with a deep sense of hatred that I could not explain and recall. But Seon-Ho...whenever I resented him, I felt guilty about it. Whenever I had the urge to strangle him, I also felt guilty about it. So as for now...well I couldn't even remember my own past, never mind figure out my feeing for him. So as much as it was killing me, I was going to put that aside for now and just treat him as the Young Master of the household that I found myself caged in whilst a carried out my punishment without a word of complaint.

But the other servants did not share the same quiet mood as me, in fact there were a lot of things going on in this household that I had lost interest in ever since...well, they all couldn't keep quiet about the rumours that were flying around about what had happened to Dal. They all said that he either ran away from home after getting into an argument with the Master, or that he now had a new position in the palace so he moved away, or even the fact that he eloped with someone. I still wasn't too pleased with him, but I guess he was around because he was of some value to the Young Master, whom I couldn't cut off my ties with completely. So I made it a point to visit him when everyone else was on their lunch break, only to be stopped by some of the concubines maids who seemed to be out for revenge since she was still in this manor to carry out the same punishment as me before returning to her family home before the Young Master carries out his final plan against them.

"Our Mistress would like to reward you for your hard work." One of them came up to me before I even had a chance to say anything back and starting throwing rotten fruit at me. Since I had friendly relations with all of the other maids that I managed, no-one had dared to even raise their voice at me or take any opportunity to shame me at all. But this so-called concubine still had the two servants that she had brought with her, minus that other maid of her's that was still missing. But even if I wasn't as close with the Young Master like I used to be, I still wasn't going to let anyone take shots at me, not if I could help it. "These fruits are bestowed to you by our Mistress, why aren't you eating them? Or do you dare to refuse?" The youngest and stupidest maid charged at me, intending on shoving a rotten peach into my mouth. I wasn't in any position to do anything to the concubine as of yet, but there was nothing stopping me from venting my anger onto her maid when I tripped her up with foo before pushing her onto the ground and shoving everything she threw at me down her miserable throat until she started coughing and throwing up on herself. "Just what on earth do you think you are doing in broad daylight? Who do you think you are to be pulling these childish tricks here? Haven't you shamed your family enough!" "How...how is it any of your business..." "I will return to my chambers soon and you will no longer have a place here, how is it none of my business!" "How dare you disrespect..." "Who? Who am I disrespecting? A failed maid who barely lasted as a concubine? An experienced maid who filed to govern others? Move out of my way!" "Hey! Who do you think you are? You cannot just turn away from us! How can you so act so rampant like this?" "And who will stop me? Everyone know's that I am not a noblewoman in nature, in fact, I am more comfortable acting like a wanton maid!" I started throwing the fruit back at them in retaliation, but they still blocked my path to Dal's quarters and my patience was running dangerously thin.