The Love They Never Had: The Nam Mansion

Chapter 74: Soyu (Possession)

I still couldn't get that night out of my mind, I was so overwhelmed and conflicted as usual that I chose to stay in my quarters until I knew what to do. I had kept touching the part of my face that he covered with his hand when he broke into here. Touching or anything of that nature was forbidden between to two sexes and Seon-Ho was always emphasising that, but the way he pulled me into his embrace whilst covering my mouth so I wouldn't scream was completely undoing me. Since my memory loss I had now taken a mental note to take in all of my surroundings more than usual, that was how I knew long he was holding me for which was completely unnecessary...but not totally unwarranted either. And I could have sworn that I felt his hands run down my arms before he released me from his grasp. He completely stunned me into silence at this point so I had no words. He didn't talk to me either but he proceeded to just take off his top right in front of me as if it was a natural thing for us to do when he knew it wasn't. This man was the biggest tease I had ever come across and I had no idea how to handle these...tricks he was playing on me. My face began to heat up as I remember my knees buckling at the sight of him like that...I had always like him since the moment I was introduced to him but I don't think I've ever imagined what he looked like under his clothes...the small scrawny skinny boy who used to tag along with my brother everywhere had well and truly grown up in almost every aspect there was. He was just all...muscle, he had muscle upon muscle everywhere and his chest was so wide...even now I had to hide under my blanket to contain myself like I barely did that night. God only knows how I managed to contain myself as I tended to him as he wished since it was clear as day that he wasn't going to leave me alone until he got what he wanted. And he was the young master of the home I was living in so who was I to defy him, especially since I was surviving on his mercy alone and we both knew it.

I almost lost my balance as I sat down that night, so he had to catch me, and when I pulled away he kept pulling me closer to him. Resistance was futile as I tended to him, served him tea and snacks that I had in my room and got a chance to ask him a few questions. And all the while he was just staring at me intensely...to be honest I did have a strange feeling for while that I was being watched for the longest time...that fact that the stare felt so familiar to me almost made me pass out on the spot."I haven't come to see you in a while, you have appeared to have lost a little weight. How are you feeling?" You jerk, we both know you ignore me on purpose so why are you asking me these stupid questions? Why are you always watching me and observing me as if you were the one who temporarily lost your memories? Why are you looking for any and every excuse to bind me to you when you are in love with somebody else? Do you have idea how much I cried after that? Because even I do not know why everything about you affects me this deeply still, even after uncovering the truth you have been hiding from me? Please, I beg of you, give me a little room to breathe and collect my thoughts instead of...chasing me how I used to chase you and using my crush against me. This isn't fair...
"I eat and sleep well thanks to the special privileges that you bestow on me. So how could i have lost any weight, My Lord..." "I told you to stop calling me that!" "Calling you otherwise is against the law...what is it? Why are you looking at me like that?" "You know what? You really know how to put someone in such a tight conflict and you still manage to look so innocent about it. What a tease..." "What on earth are you saying? What are you talking about?" "there are some days I am grateful about your memory loss. Most days in fact, I will not lie about that. But there are times where I hoped you would have at least remembered who I was, so we wouldn't have to start over from scratch."
How the hell was he expecting me to reply to that? No matter what he said, it didn't look like he had forgotten my brother. In fact when he was out to work, he had given me full access to his study and I was more than surprised to see that he had a well-hidden full diary of my brother's activities, the debts he owed and so on. But what moved me a little was the fact that Seon-Ho had taken it upon himself to pay off my brother's expenses, and he had his own people looking out for him away from the everlasting gaze of his father. But he was usually such a careful and disciplined man compared to myself who was more carefree and could still pay attention to details without being so serious, so was he letting me into his world on a more personal level on purpose? Just in case I regained my memories? Or was he actually helping me in his own way to recover them? He had backed off a little bit when my brother took the opportunity to come by the home for whatever update he had to give them, the gifts he was sending me were now books that I had hunted for in the marketplace before my memory loss and he was even teaching me how to write more eloquently in his free time after I 'had to clean up his bedroom for him.'