Misguided Affection (Highschool Romance Series #2)

Kabanata 34

"Your mother just doing what's the best for the both of you, Alexis."

Umiling ako. The best for the both of us is to be together. How can I accept what my mother want when we already know the truth. Hernandez and I love each other and nothing's wrong with that. There's nothing wrong about love. The only wrong here is my mother manipulating everything.

Alam niyang hindi ko susundin ang gusto niya. Ito ang ikalawang beses na hindi ko siya susundin. Kaya si Hernandez ang pinupuntirya niya dahil marami itong kinakapitan. Her family and her work, even she can't choose her own happiness just her family will be safe. Just her work won't be compromise. She did everything to achieve her dreams and what my mother just did is too cruel.

"I can't believe you will choose that woman over me, Anak! Anak kita. Ina mo ako, you should always choose me no matter what."

"Ma! I can decide what I want now. Hayaan mo na ako. Hayaan mo na kami."

Hindi ako nagmamakaawa. Sa buong buhay ko hindi ko inisip ang magmakaawa. Ngayon lang.

"How can I just let you? I want her to be part of our family as my niece, not because she will become your wife. Ano bang hindi mo maintindihan don?"

"I'm not her cousin, Ma. We are not blood related. Even a single drop of blood."

"How dare you?! Pagkatapos kitang—"

"That's enough, Alisandra! Don't ever do things you will regret!"

Hindi makapaniwalang nilingon ni Mama ang ama ko. "And now you're siding him?"

"I'm not," hinawakan ni Papa ang balikat ng ina ko at seninyasan akong pumasok muna sa kwarto ko.
 

I didn't follow him.

"I'm begging you, anak."

"Ma, you already ruined her life. How can you still want her to be part of our family, as your niece? She run away again because of what you did. Kung totoong gusto mong kilalanin ka niya bilang kadugo niya, bakit ka gumagawa ng hindi magandang bagay? She's innocent from everything! Inisip mo lang sana kung gaano siya naghirap bago niya nakamtan ang lahat."

"And what?! She already left! May magagawa pa ba ako? Wala na! Everything was ruined. Ang gusto kong makasama siya at ang pamilya natin."

Inis na ginulo ko ang buhok. How can I explain when her mind is already settled? She want to rule Hernandez and play her with her hands. Hindi niya gustong makasama ito. Hindi lang niya matanggap sa sarili na ginawa niya ito dahil hindi niya mahawakan sa leeg ang pamangkin. She did everything to show her that she can do everything.

Gulong gulo na ang isip ko. Buo na ang desisyon kong pakawalan si Hernandez noong pumunta ako sa kung saan sila lumipat. Pero ngayon ay hindi ko naman pala kaya. Mas masasaktan at mababaliw ako kapag malayo sa akin si Hernandez.

Just like when I am still in high school. I was misguided again. I want to do everything even if it will ruin me, my reputation, and even my dreams. I can't think straight because I am blinded by my intense love. I am deeply in love with her that it made me crazy not being with her. I just want to be with her. I want to give her assurance. I want to wipe her tears.

"Alexis!"

Rinig ko ang kalabog sa labas ng pintuan pero hindi ako kumibo. I remain in my position. Laying at the couch.

"Damnit! Gigibain namin itong pinto!" Sigaw ni Kaiden.

"Ano ba, Alexander Louis?! Lalabas ka diyan o hindi?" It's Beatrice this time.