Kessoku Kokoro | A Bocchi the Rock Fanfic

Chapter 20: ...You Know What, I'm Just Gonna Ask Her Out

Author: Screw it, I'm going to make TokuTori have like 3 chapters straight nothing's stopping me-

Author: Then, I gotta have to do the Nijika chapter... and a couple more Ryo chapters... to balance everything out...

Author: Damn, I got absorbed by the Kit-aura

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Today's the day.

Today's the day.

OH GOD, TODAY'S THE DAY.

He doesn't want to do this. But it's been months already. He's been lingering on this crush for like seems like forever. Like he gets that he likes her, but he just doesn't know if he could do the things Kita taught him to do. If he just gets embarrassed in front of Kita like that, then how can you expect him to just ask Hitori out?

On one hand, girlfriend.

On the other hand, horrible rejection and heartbreak.

Wait a second he's been here before. He has been rejected before. It hurts like hell, but he's still alive. He's still kicking. He's capable of moving on. He can do this. Even if he gets rejected,...

...It might hurt less actually.

Maybe.

Hopefully.

He might actually take a day off if he gets rejected.

Or he can just cry himself to sleep and pretend like nothing happened.

Repressing emotions. Always worked out for him so far. Therapy? Nah. Don't need it. He's still mentally stable... he hopes. So how does he start? Do they even have a relationship outside of being bandmates?

There's the classmate angle. They've done projects together. They've always been paired together since they literally sit beside each other. He's tried to do homework together with her, but then he found out that she's not quite open to the offer. 

He does pity the fact that she looks like she wants to die every time she gets her tests back. So he's left her alone most of the time. Only talking to her about band matters and is only capable of chatting when Kita's around. 

And this repeated until today.

At least, he's capable of interacting with her during band sessions. But it's mostly just practice. Or helping her with work. And by helping, it's mostly just carrying heavy band equipment and covering her shifts when she doesn't want to. At least he can just give her the brand new trash can that Kita bough-

ON WHAT PLANET WOULD GIVING YOUR CRUSH A TRASH CAN A GOOD IDEA?!

He should've just asked Kita to give it instead. She's the one who offered to buy and actually bought it. It's even gift wrapped too, much to the gift wrapper's confusion. Bless her soul. He's never known someone so selfless and kind.  

...Which leads to him, hating himself. He feels like he's just overly relying on Kita for everything.

How can he be so confident towards every other girl in his band, but not her? 

Maybe he is in love.

Only one way to find out though. 

The bell rang. He gulped. He felt tense. It's just a conversation. He's done it before. He's gotten better at conversing with people. He shouldn't be tensing up like this. 

"Hey, Hitori," He almost whispered.

She looked at him.

"We should practice," He mentioned casually.